第 10 节
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Now they must be rent asunder; and her heart must learn endurance; For
he leaves their home; and enters on a world of work and strife。
But her gentle spirit long had learnt; unquestioning; submitting; To
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revere his youthful longings; and to marvel at the fate That gave such a
humble office; all unworthy and unfitting; To the genius of the village;
who was born for something great。
When the learned Traveller came there who had gained renown at
college; Whose abstruse research had won him even European fame;
Questioned Philip; praised his genius; marvelled at his self…taught
knowledge; Could she murmur if he called him up to London and to fame?
Could she waver when he bade her take the burden of decision; Since
his troth to her was plighted; and his life was now her own? Could she
doom him to inaction? could she; when a newborn vision Rose in glory for
his future; check it for her sake alone?
So her little trembling fingers; that had toiled with such fond pleasure;
Paused; and laid aside; and folded the unfinished wedding gown; Faltering
earnestly assurance; that she too could; in her measure; Prize for him the
present honour; and the future's sure renown。
Now they pace the shady lime…walk; now the last words must be
spoken; Words of trust; for neither dreaded more than waiting and delay;
Was not love still called eternalcould a plighted vow be broken? … See
the crimson light of sunset fades in purple mist away。
〃Yes; my Mildred;〃 Philip told her; 〃one calm thought of joy and
blessing; Like a guardian spirit by me; through the world's tumultuous stir;
Still will spread its wings above me; and now urging; now repressing;
With my Mildred's voice will murmur thoughts of home; and love; and
her。
〃It will charm my peaceful leisure; sanctify my daily toiling; With a
right none else possesses; touching my heart's inmost string; And to keep
its pure wings spotless I shall fly the world's touch; soiling Even in
thought this Angel Guardian of my Mildred's Wedding Ring。
〃Take it; dear; this little circlet is the first link; strong and holy; Of a
life…long chain; and holds me from all other love apart; Till the day when
you may wear it as my wifemy ownmine wholly … Let me know it rests
for ever near the beating of your heart。〃
Dawn of day saw Philip speeding on his road to the Great City;
Thinking how the stars gazed downward just with Mildred's patient eyes;
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Dreams of work; and fame; and honour struggling with a tender pity; Till
the loving Past receding saw the conquering Future rise。
Daybreak still found Mildred watching; with the wonder of first
sorrow; How the outward world unaltered shone the same this very day;
How unpitying and relentless busy life met this new morrow; Earth; and
sky; and man unheeding that her joy had passed away。
Then the round of weary duties; cold and formal; came to meet her;
With the life within departed that had given them each a soul; And her sick
heart even slighted gentle words that came to greet her; For Grief spread
its shadowy pinions; like a blight; upon the whole。
Jar one chord; the harp is silent; move one stone; the arch is shattered;
One small clarion…cry of sorrow bids an armed host awake; One dark
cloud can hide the sunlight; loose one string; the pearls are scattered;
Think one thought; a soul may perish; say one word; a heart may break!
Life went on; the two lives running side by side; the outward seeming;
And the truer and diviner hidden in the heart and brain; Dreams grow holy;
put in action; work grows fair through starry dreaming; But where each
flows on unmingling; both are fruitless and in vain。
Such was Mildred's life; her dreaming lay in some far…distant region;
All the fairer; all the brighter; that its glories were but guessed; And the
daily round of duties seemed an unreal; airy legion … Nothing true save
Philip's letters and the ring upon her breast。
Letters telling how he struggled; for some plan or vision aiming; And
at last how he just grasped it as a fresh one spread its wings; How the
honour or the learning; once the climax; now were claiming; Only more
and more; becoming merely steps to higher things。
Telling her of foreign countries: little store had she of learning; So
her earnest; simple spirit answered as he touched the string; Day by day; to
these bright fancies all her silent thoughts were turning; Seeing every
radiant picture framed within her golden Ring。
Oh; poor heartlove; if thou willest; but; thine own soul still
possessing; Live thy life: not a reflection or a shadow of his own: Lean
as fondly; as completely; as thou willestbut confessing That thy strength
is God's; and therefore can; if need be; stand alone。
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Little means were there around her to make farther; wider ranges;
Where her loving gentle spirit could try any stronger flight; And she
turned aside; half fearing that fresh thoughts were fickle changes … That
she MUST stay as he left her on that farewell summer night。
Love should still be guide and leader; like a herald should have risen;
Lighting up the long dark vistas; conquering all opposing fates; But new
claims; new thoughts; new duties found her heart a silent prison; And
found Love; with folded pinions; like a jailer by the gates。
Yet why blame her? it had needed greater strength than she was given
To have gone against the current that so calmly flowed along; Nothing
fresh came near the village save the rain and dew of heaven; And her
nature was too passive; and her love perhaps too strong。
The great world of thought; that rushes down the years; and onward
sweeping Bears upon its mighty billows in its progress each and all;
Flowed so far away; its murmur did not rouse them from their sleeping;
Life and Time and Truth were speaking; but they did not hear their call。
Years flowed on; and every morning heard her prayer grow lower;
deeper; As she called all blessings on him; and bade every ill depart; And
each night when the cold moonlight shone upon that quiet sleeper; It
would show her ring that glittered with each throbbing of her heart。
Years passed on。 Fame came for Philip in a full; o'erflowing measure;
He was spoken of and honoured through the breadth of many lands; And
he wrote it all to Mildred; as if praise were only pleasure; As if fame were
only honour; when he laid them in her hands。
Mildred heard it without wonder; as a sure result expected; For how
could it fail; since merit and renown go side by side: And the neighbours
who first fancied genius ought to be suspected; Might at last give up their
caution; and could own him now with pride。
Years flowed on。 These empty honours led to others they called
better; He had saved some slender fortune; and might claim his bride at
last: Mildred; grown so used to waiting; felt half startled by the letter That
now made her future certain; and would consecrate her past。
And he came: grown sterner; olderchanged indeed: a grave
reliance Had replaced his eager manner; and the quick short speech of old:
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He had gone forth with a spirit half of hope and half defiance; He returned
with proud assurance half disdainful and half cold。
Yet his old self seemed returning while he stood sometimes; and
listened To her calm soft voice; relating all the thoughts of these long
years; And if Mildred's heart was heavy; and at time