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pageant bright and fair; And all the lovely ladies who were there。 But half
incredulous she heard。 Could this … This be the world? this place of love
and bliss! Where then was hid the strange and hideous charm; That never
failed to bring the gazer harm? She crossed herself; yet asked; and listened
still; And still the knight described with all his skill The glorious world of
joy; all joys above; Transfigured in the golden mist of love。 Spread; spread
your wings; ye angel guardians bright; And shield these dazzling phantoms
from her sight! But no; days passed; matins and vespers rang; And still the
quiet Nuns toiled; prayed; and sang; And never guessed the fatal; coiling
net Which every day drew near; and nearer yet; Around their darling; for
she went and came About her duties; outwardly the same。 The same? ah;
no! even when she knelt to pray; Some charmed dream kept all her heart
away。 So days went on; until the convent gate Opened one night。 Who
durst go forth so late? Across the moonlit grass; with stealthy tread; Two
silent; shrouded figures passed and fled。 And all was silent; save the
moaning seas; That sobbed and pleaded; and a wailing breeze That sighed
among the perfumed hawthorn trees。
What need to tell that dream so bright and brief; Of joy unchequered
by a dread of grief? What need to tell how all such dreams must fade;
Before the slow; foreboding; dreaded shade; That floated nearer; until
pomp and pride; Pleasure and wealth; were summoned to her side。 To bid;
at least; the noisy hours forget; And clamour down the whispers of regret。
Still Angela strove to dream; and strove in vain; Awakened once; she could
not sleep again。 She saw; each day and hour; more worthless grown The
heart for which she cast away her own; And her soul learnt; through
bitterest inward strife; The slight; frail love for which she wrecked her life;
The phantom for which all her hope was given; The cold bleak earth for
which she bartered heaven! But all in vain; would even the tenderest heart
Now stoop to take so poor an outcast's part?
Years fled; and she grew reckless more and more; Until the humblest
peasant closed his door; And where she passed; fair dames; in scorn and
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pride; Shuddered; and drew their rustling robes aside。 At last a yearning
seemed to fill her soul; A longing that was stronger than control: Once
more; just once again; to see the place That knew her young and innocent;
to retrace The long and weary southern path; to gaze Upon the haven of
her childish days; Once more beneath the convent roof to lie; Once more
to look upon her homeand die! Weary and wornher comrades; chill
remorse And black despair; yet a strange silent force Within her heart; that
drew her more and more … Onward she crawled; and begged from door to
door。 Weighed down with weary days; her failing strength Grew less each
hour; till one day's dawn at length; As first its rays flooded the world with
light; Showed the broad waters; glittering blue and bright; And where;
amid the leafy hawthorn wood; Just as of old the quiet cloister stood。
Would any know her? Nay; no fear。 Her face Had lost all trace of youth;
of joy; of grace; Of the pure happy soul they used to know … The novice
Angelaso long ago。 She rang the convent bell。 The well…known sound
Smote on her heart; and bowed her to the ground; And she; who had not
wept for long dry years; Felt the strange rush of unaccustomed tears;
Terror and anguish seemed to check her breath; And stop her heart。 Oh
God! could this be death? Crouching against the iron gate; she laid Her
weary head against the bars; and prayed: But nearer footsteps drew; then
seemed to wait: And then she heard the opening of the grate; And saw the
withered face; on which awoke Pity and sorrow; as the portress spoke; And
asked the stranger's bidding: 〃Take me in;〃 She faltered; 〃Sister Monica;
from sin; And sorrow; and despair; that will not cease; Oh; take me in; and
let me die in peace!〃 With soothing words the Sister bade her wait; Until
she brought the key to unbar the gate。 The beggar tried to thank her as she
lay; And heard the echoing footsteps die away。 But what soft voice was
that which sounded near; And stirred strange trouble in her heart to hear?
She raised her head; she sawshe seemed to know … A face that came from
long; long years ago: Herself; yet not as when she fled away; The young
and blooming novice; fair and gay; But a grave woman; gentle and serene:
The outcast knew itWHAT SHE MIGHT HAVE BEEN。 But; as she
gazed and gazed; a radiance bright Filled all the place with strange and
sudden light; The Nun was there no longer; but instead; A figure with a
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circle round its head; A ring of glory; and a face; so meek; So soft; so
tender 。 。 。 Angela strove to speak; And stretched her hands out; crying;
〃Mary mild; Mother of mercy; help me!help your child!〃 And Mary
answered; 〃From thy bitter past; Welcome; my child! oh; welcome home at
last! I filled thy place。 Thy flight is known to none; For all thy daily
duties I have done; Gathered thy flowers; and prayed; and sung; and slept;
Didst thou not know; poor child; THY PLACE WAS KEPT? Kind hearts
are here; yet would the tenderest one Have limits to its mercy: God has
none。 And man's forgiveness may be true and sweet; But yet he stoops to
give it。 More complete Is Love that lays forgiveness at thy feet; And
pleads with thee to raise it。 Only Heaven Means CROWNED; not
VANQUISHED; when it says 'Forgiven!'〃 Back hurried Sister Monica; but
where Was the poor beggar she left lying there? Gone; and she searched in
vain; and sought the place For that wan woman with the piteous face: But
only Angela at the gateway stood; Laden with hawthorn blossoms from the
wood。 And never did a day pass by again; But the old portress; with a sigh
of pain; Would sorrow for her loitering: with a prayer That the poor
beggar; in her wild despair; Might not have come to any ill; and when She
ended; 〃God forgive her!〃 humbly then Did Angela bow her head; and say
〃Amen!〃 How pitiful her heart was! all could trace Something that
dimmed the brightness of her face After that day; which none had seen
before; Not troublebut a shadownothing more。
Years passed away。 Then; one dark day of dread Saw all the sisters
kneeling round a bed; Where Angela lay dying; every breath Struggling
beneath the heavy hand of death。 But suddenly a flush lit up her cheek;
She raised her wan right hand; and strove to speak。 In sorrowing love they
listened; not a sound Or sigh disturbed the utter silence round。 The very
tapers' flames were scarcely stirred; In such hushed awe the sisters knelt
and heard。 And through that silence Angela told her life: Her sin; her flight;
the sorrow and the strife; And the return; and then clear; low and calm;
〃Praise God for me; my sisters;〃 and the psalm Rang up to heaven; far and
clear and wide; Again and yet again; then sank and died; While her white
face had such a smile of peace; They saw she never heard the music cease;
And weeping sisters laid her in her tomb; Crowned with a wreath of
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perfumed hawthorn bloom。
And thus the Legend ended。 It may be Something is hidden in the
mystery; Besides the lesson of God's pardon shown; Never enough
believed; or asked; or known。 Have we not all; amid life's petty strife;
Some pure ideal of a noble life That once seemed possible? Did we not
hear The flutter of its wings; and feel it near; And just within our reach?
It was。 And yet We lost it in this daily jar and fret; And now live idle in a
vague regret。 But still OUR PLACE IS KEPT; and it will wait; Ready for
us to fill it; soon or late: No star is ever lost we once have seen; We a