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作者:大热      更新:2022-11-23 12:13      字数:9322
  pageant bright and fair; And all the lovely ladies who were there。 But half
  incredulous she heard。         Could this … This be the world? this place of love
  and bliss! Where then was hid the strange and hideous charm; That never
  failed to bring the gazer harm? She crossed herself; yet asked; and listened
  still; And still the knight described with all his skill The glorious world of
  joy; all joys above; Transfigured in the golden mist of love。 Spread; spread
  your wings; ye angel guardians bright; And shield these dazzling phantoms
  from her sight! But no; days passed; matins and vespers rang; And still the
  quiet Nuns toiled; prayed; and sang; And never guessed the fatal; coiling
  net Which every day drew near; and nearer yet; Around their darling; for
  she went and came About her duties; outwardly the same。 The same? ah;
  no! even when she knelt to pray; Some charmed dream kept all her heart
  away。 So days went on; until the convent gate Opened one night。                      Who
  durst go forth so late? Across the moonlit grass; with stealthy tread; Two
  silent;   shrouded   figures   passed     and   fled。   And   all  was   silent;   save  the
  moaning seas; That sobbed and pleaded; and a wailing breeze That sighed
  among the perfumed hawthorn trees。
  What need to tell that dream so bright and brief; Of joy unchequered
  by   a   dread   of   grief?   What   need   to   tell   how   all   such   dreams   must   fade;
  Before   the   slow;   foreboding;   dreaded       shade;   That   floated   nearer;   until
  pomp and pride; Pleasure and wealth; were summoned to her side。 To bid;
  at least; the noisy hours forget; And clamour down the whispers of regret。
  Still Angela strove to dream; and strove in vain; Awakened once; she could
  not sleep again。 She saw; each day and hour; more worthless grown The
  heart   for   which   she   cast   away   her   own;   And   her   soul   learnt;   through
  bitterest inward strife; The slight; frail love for which she wrecked her life;
  The phantom for which all her hope was given; The cold bleak earth for
  which she bartered heaven! But all in vain; would even the tenderest heart
  Now stoop to take so poor an outcast's part?
  Years fled; and she grew reckless more and more; Until the humblest
  peasant closed his door; And where she passed; fair dames; in scorn and
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  pride; Shuddered; and drew their rustling robes aside。 At last a  yearning
  seemed   to   fill   her   soul; A  longing   that   was   stronger   than   control:   Once
  more; just once again; to see the place That knew her young and innocent;
  to retrace The long and weary southern path; to gaze Upon the haven of
  her childish days; Once more beneath the convent roof to lie; Once more
  to   look   upon   her   homeand   die!   Weary   and   wornher   comrades;   chill
  remorse And black despair; yet a strange silent force Within her heart; that
  drew her more and more … Onward she crawled; and begged from door to
  door。 Weighed down with weary days; her failing strength Grew less each
  hour; till one day's dawn at length; As first its rays flooded the world with
  light;   Showed   the   broad   waters;   glittering   blue   and   bright;   And   where;
  amid   the   leafy   hawthorn   wood;   Just   as   of   old   the   quiet   cloister   stood。
  Would any know her?           Nay; no fear。      Her face Had lost all trace of youth;
  of joy; of grace; Of the pure happy soul they used to know … The novice
  Angelaso long ago。 She rang the convent bell。                 The well…known sound
  Smote on her heart; and bowed her to the ground; And she; who had not
  wept   for   long   dry   years;   Felt   the   strange   rush   of   unaccustomed   tears;
  Terror and anguish seemed to check her breath; And stop her heart。                       Oh
  God!   could   this   be   death?   Crouching   against  the  iron   gate; she  laid   Her
  weary head against the bars; and prayed: But nearer footsteps drew; then
  seemed to wait: And then she heard the opening of the grate; And saw the
  withered face; on which awoke Pity and sorrow; as the portress spoke; And
  asked the stranger's bidding:          〃Take me in;〃 She faltered; 〃Sister Monica;
  from sin; And sorrow; and despair; that will not cease; Oh; take me in; and
  let me die in peace!〃 With soothing words the Sister bade her wait; Until
  she brought the key to unbar the gate。 The beggar tried to thank her as she
  lay; And   heard   the   echoing   footsteps die  away。   But   what   soft   voice   was
  that which sounded near; And stirred strange trouble in her heart to hear?
  She raised her head; she sawshe seemed to know … A face that came from
  long; long years ago: Herself; yet not as when she fled away; The young
  and blooming novice; fair and gay; But a grave woman; gentle and serene:
  The   outcast   knew   itWHAT   SHE   MIGHT   HAVE   BEEN。   But;   as   she
  gazed   and   gazed;   a   radiance   bright   Filled   all   the   place   with   strange   and
  sudden light; The  Nun was   there no longer;  but   instead; A  figure  with   a
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  circle   round   its   head; A  ring   of   glory;   and   a   face;   so   meek;   So   soft;   so
  tender   。  。  。 Angela   strove   to   speak; And   stretched   her hands out;  crying;
  〃Mary   mild;   Mother   of   mercy;   help   me!help   your   child!〃   And   Mary
  answered; 〃From thy bitter past; Welcome; my child! oh; welcome home at
  last!   I   filled   thy   place。 Thy   flight   is   known   to   none;   For   all   thy   daily
  duties I have done; Gathered thy flowers; and prayed; and sung; and slept;
  Didst thou not know; poor child; THY PLACE WAS KEPT? Kind hearts
  are here; yet would the tenderest one Have limits to its mercy:                    God has
  none。 And man's forgiveness may be true and sweet; But yet he stoops to
  give   it。  More   complete   Is   Love   that   lays   forgiveness   at   thy   feet;   And
  pleads     with   thee   to  raise   it。  Only     Heaven     Means     CROWNED;          not
  VANQUISHED; when it says 'Forgiven!'〃 Back hurried Sister Monica; but
  where Was the poor beggar she left lying there? Gone; and she searched in
  vain; and sought the place For that wan woman with the piteous face: But
  only Angela at the gateway stood; Laden with hawthorn blossoms from the
  wood。 And never did a day pass by again; But the old portress; with a sigh
  of   pain;   Would   sorrow   for   her   loitering:    with   a   prayer   That   the   poor
  beggar; in her wild despair; Might not have come to any ill; and when She
  ended; 〃God forgive her!〃 humbly then Did Angela bow her head; and say
  〃Amen!〃       How     pitiful   her  heart   was!    all  could    trace   Something      that
  dimmed   the   brightness   of   her   face After   that   day;   which   none   had   seen
  before; Not troublebut a shadownothing more。
  Years passed away。          Then; one dark day of dread Saw all the sisters
  kneeling   round   a   bed;  Where Angela   lay   dying;   every  breath   Struggling
  beneath the   heavy  hand of death。  But suddenly  a   flush lit up her   cheek;
  She raised her wan right hand; and strove to speak。 In sorrowing love they
  listened; not a sound Or sigh disturbed the utter silence round。 The very
  tapers' flames were scarcely stirred; In such hushed awe the sisters knelt
  and heard。 And through that silence Angela told her life: Her sin; her flight;
  the sorrow   and   the   strife; And   the   return;   and   then   clear;   low   and   calm;
  〃Praise God for me; my sisters;〃 and the psalm Rang up to heaven; far and
  clear and wide; Again and yet again; then sank and died; While her white
  face had such a smile of peace; They saw she never heard the music cease;
  And   weeping   sisters   laid   her   in   her   tomb;   Crowned   with   a   wreath   of
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  perfumed hawthorn bloom。
  And   thus   the   Legend   ended。     It   may  be   Something   is   hidden   in   the
  mystery;     Besides     the  lesson    of  God's    pardon     shown;    Never     enough
  believed;   or   asked;   or   known。   Have   we   not   all;   amid   life's   petty   strife;
  Some pure ideal of a noble life That once seemed possible?                    Did we not
  hear The flutter of its wings; and feel it near; And just within our reach?
  It was。    And yet We lost it in this daily jar and fret; And now live idle in a
  vague regret。 But still OUR PLACE IS KEPT; and it will wait; Ready for
  us to fill it; soon or late: No star is ever lost we once have seen; We a