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  〃You   know   now   why   I   spoke   to   you   as   I   did   to…day;   and   why   the
  other half of this precious spray is the only memory I care to carry with
  me out of this crumbling ruin of all my hopes。 You were right; Paul: my
  taking you there WAS AN OMENnot to you; who can never be anything
  but   proud;   beloved;   and   truebut   to   ME   of   all   the   shame   and   misery。
  Thank   you   for   all   you   have   donefor   all   you   would do;   my  friend;   and
  don't think me ungrateful; only because I am unworthy of it。 Try to forgive
  me; but don't forget me; even if you must hate me。 Perhaps; if you knew
  allyou   might still   love  a  little  the   poor  girl   to   whom  you   have   already
  given the only name she can ever take from youYERBA BUENA!
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  CHAPTER VII。
  It was already autumn; and in the city of New York an early Sunday
  morning   breeze   was        sweeping   up      the   leaves   that   had   fallen   from   the
  regularly planted ailantus trees before the brown…stone frontage of a row
  of monotonously alike five…storied houses on one of the principal avenues。
  The     Pastor    of  the   Third   Presbyterian      Church;     that   uplifted   its  double
  towers   on   the   corner;   stopped   before   one   of   these   dwellings;   ran   up   the
  dozen   broad   steps;   and   rang   the   bell。   He   was   presently  admittted   to   the
  sombre richness of a hall and drawing…room with high…backed furniture of
  dark     carved    woods;     like  cathedral     stalls;  and;   hat   in  hand;    somewhat
  impatiently   awaited   the   arrival   of   his   hostess   and   parishioner。   The   door
  opened   to   a   tall;   white…haired   woman   in   lustreless   black   silk。   She   was
  regular   and     resolute    in  features;    of   fine   but  unbending   presence;       and;
  though somewhat past middle age; showed no signs of either the weakness
  or mellowness of years。
  〃I   am    sorry    to  disturb    your    Sabbath     morning      meditations;      Sister
  Argalls; nor would I if it were not in the line of Christian duty; but Sister
  Robbins   is   unable   today  to   make   her usual   Sabbath   hospital   visit;   and   I
  thought if you were excused from the Foreign Missionary class and Bible
  instruction   at   three   you   might   undertake   her   functions。  I   know;   my   dear
  old   friend;〃   he   continued;   with   bland   deprecation   of   her   hard…set   eyes;
  〃how   distasteful   this   promiscuous   mingling   with   the   rough   and   ungodly
  has   always   been   to   you;   and   how   reluctant   you   are   to   be   placed   in   the
  position of being liable to hear coarse; vulgar; or irreverent speech。 I think;
  too; in our long and pleasant pastoral relations; you have always found me
  mindful of it。 I admit I have sometimes regretted that your late husband
  had not more generally familiarized you with the ways of the world。 But
  so   it   iswe   all   have   our   weaknesses。   If   not   one   thing;   another。 And   as
  Envy   and   Uncharitableness   sometimes   find   their   way   in   even   Christian
  hearts; I should like you to undertake this office for the sake of example。
  There are some; dear Sister Argalls; who think that the rich widow who is
  most liberal in the endowment of the goods that Providence has intrusted
  to   her   hands   claims   therefore   to   be   exempt   from   labor   in   the   Christian
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  vineyard。 Let us teach them how unjust they are。〃
  〃I   am   willing;〃   said   the   lady;   with   a   dry;   determined   air。   〃I   suppose
  these patients are not professedly bad characters?〃
  〃By   no   means。   A   few;   perhaps;   but   the   majority   are   unfortunates
  dependent   either   upon   public   charity   or   some   small   provision   made   by
  their friends。〃
  〃Very well。〃
  〃And you understand that though they have the privilege of rejecting
  your   Christian   ministrations;   dear   Sister   Argalls;   you   are   free   to   judge
  when you may be patient or importunate with them?〃
  〃I understand。〃
  The     Pastor   was    not   an   unkindly     man;    and;   as  he   glanced     at  the
  uncompromising   look   in          Mrs。   Argalls's   eyes;   felt   for   a   moment    some
  inconsistency between his humane instincts and his Christian duty。 〃Some
  of   them   may   require;   and   be   benefited   by;   a   stern   monitress;   and   Sister
  Robbins;       I  fear;  was    weak;〃     he   said   consolingly      to   himself;    as   he
  descended the steps again。
  At three o'clock Mrs。 Argalls; with a reticule and a few tracts; was at
  the   door   of   St。   John's   Hospital。   As   she   displayed   her   testimonials   and
  announced that she had taken Mrs。 Robbins's place; the officials received
  her    respectfully;    and   gave    some    instructions     to  the   attendants;    which;
  however; did not stop some individual comments。
  〃I   say;   Jim;   it   doesn't   seem  the   square   thing   to let   that   grim  old   girl
  loose among them poor convalescents。〃
  〃Well; I don't know: they say she's rich and gives a lot o' money away;
  but if she tackles that swearing old Kentuckian in No。 3; she'll have her
  hands full。〃
  However;   the   criticism   was   scarcely   fair;   for   Mrs。 Argalls;   although
  moving rigidly along from bed to bed of the ward; equipped with a certain
  formula of phrases; nevertheless dropped from time to time some practical
  common…sense questions that showed an almost masculine intuition of the
  patients'   needs   and   requirements。   Nor   did   she   betray   any   of   that   over…
  sensitive   shrinking   from   coarseness   which   the   good   Pastor   had   feared;
  albeit she was quick to correct its exhibition。 The languid men listened to
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  her    with    half…   aggressive;     half…amused       interest;   and   some     of   the
  satisfaction   of   taking   a   bitter   but   wholesome   tonic。   It   was   not   until   she
  reached the bed at the farther end of the ward that she seemed to meet with
  any check。
  It was occupied by a haggard man; with a long white moustache and
  features   that   seemed   wasted   by   inward   struggle   and   fever。   At   the   first
  sound   of   her   voice   he   turned   quickly   towards   her;   lifted   himself   on   his
  elbow; and gazed fixedly in her face。
  〃Kate Howardby the Eternal!〃 he said; in a low voice。
  Despite her rigid self…possession the woman started; glanced hurriedly
  around; and drew nearer to him。
  〃Pendleton!〃 she said; in an equally suppressed voice; 〃What; in God's
  name; are you doing here?〃
  〃Dying; I reckonsooner or later;〃 he said grimly; 〃that's what they do
  here。〃
  〃Butwhat;〃 she went on hurriedly; still glancing over her shoulder as
  if she suspected some trick〃what has brought you to this?〃
  〃YOU!〃   said   the   colonel;   dropping   back   exhaustedly   on   his   pillow。
  〃You and your daughter。〃
  〃I don't understand you;〃 she said quickly; yet regarding him with stern
  rigidity。   〃You     know    perfectly    well   I  have    NO    daughter。    You    know
  perfectly well that I've kept the word I gave you ten years ago; and that I
  have been dead to her as she has been to me。〃
  〃I   know;〃   said   the   colonel;   〃that   within   the  last   three   months   I   have
  paid   away  my  last   cent  to   keep   the  mouth of   an infernal scoundrel   shut
  who KNOWS that you are her mother; and threatens to expose her to her
  friends。 I know that I'm dying here of an old wound that I got when I shut
  the mouth of another hound who was ready to bark at her two years after
  you disappeared。 I know that between you and her I've let my old nigger
  die of a broken heart; because I couldn't keep him to suffer with me; and I
  know that I'm here a pauper on the State。 I know that; Kate; and when I
  say it I don't regret it。 I've kept my word to YOU; and; by the Eternal; your
  daughter's worth it! For if there ever was a fair and peerless creatureit's
  your child!〃
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  〃And   shea   rich   womanunless   she   squandered   the   fortune   I   gave
  herlets you lie here!〃 said the woman grimly。
  〃She don't kno