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作者:暖暖      更新:2022-11-23 12:12      字数:9322
  of your triumphs   and your victims;   of your various   campaigns and  your
  conquests。 And yet I dare say he has not told me alland I am dying to
  hear more。〃
  She had laid down her hat and unloosed a large bow of her mantle; but
  stopped suddenly in the midst of it and sat down again。
  〃I wish you'd do something for me。〃
  〃You have only to name it。〃
  〃Well;   drop   all   this   kind   of   talk!  Try   to   think   of   me   as   if   I   had   just
  come from Californiaor; better; as if you had never known anything of
  me   at   alland   we   met   for   the   first   time。   You   could;   I   dare   say;   make
  yourself   very   agreeable   to   such       a   young   lady   who   was   willing   to     be
  pleasedwhy   not   to   me?   I   venture   to   say   you   have   not   ever   troubled
  yourself   about   me   since   we   last   met。   Nohear   me   throughwhy;   then;
  should you wish to talk over what didn't concern you at the time? Promise
  me you will stop this reminiscent gossip; and I promise you I will not only
  not   bore   you   with   it;   but   take   care   that   it   is   not   intruded   upon   you   by
  others。 Make yourself pleasant to me by talking about yourself and your
  prospectsanything         but   MEand      I  will  throw    over    those   princes    and
  barons   that   the   colonel has   raved   about   and   devote   myself   to   you   while
  you are here。 Does that suit your Excellency?〃 She had crossed her knees;
  and;   with   her   hands   clasped   over   them;   and   the   toe   of   her   small   boot
  advanced beyond her skirt; leaned forward in the attitude he remembered
  to have seen her take in the summer… house at Rosario。
  〃Perfectly;〃 he said。
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  〃How long will you be here?〃
  〃About three weeks: that; I believe; is the time allotted for my cure。〃
  〃Are you really ill;〃 she said quietly; 〃or imagine yourself so?〃
  〃It   amounts   to   about   the   same   thing。   But   my   cure   may   not   take   so
  long;〃 he added; fixing his bright eyes upon her。
  She returned his gaze thoughtfully; and they remained looking at each
  other silently。
  〃Then you are stronger than you give yourself credit for。 That is very
  often the case;〃 she said quietly。 〃There;〃 she added in another tone; 〃it is
  settled。 You will come and go as you like; using this salon as your own。
  Stay; we can do something today。 What do you say to a ride in the forest
  this afternoon? Milly isn't here yet; but it will be quite proper for you to
  accompany        me   on  horseback;     though;    of  course;   we    couldn't   walk    a
  hundred yards down the Allee together unless we were verlobt。〃
  〃But;〃   said   Paul;   〃you   are   expecting   company   this   afternoon。   Don
  CaesarI mean Miss Briones and her brother are coming here to say good…
  by。〃
  She regarded him curiously; but without emotion。
  〃Colonel Pendleton should have added that they were to remain here
  overnight as my guests;〃 she said composedly。 And of course we shall be
  back in time for dinner。 But that is nothing to you。 You have only to be
  ready at three o'clock。 I will see that the horses are ordered。 I often ride
  here; and the people know my tastes and habits。 We will have a pleasant
  ride and a good long talk together; and I'll show you a ruin and a distant
  view of the villa where I have been staying。〃 She held out her hand with a
  frank girlish smile; and even a girlish anticipation of pleasure in her brown
  eyes。 He bent over her slim fingers for a moment; and withdrew。
  When   he   was   in   his   own   room   again;   he   was   conscious   only   of   a
  strong desire to avoid the colonel until after his ride with Yerba。 He would
  keep his word so far as to abstain from allusion to her family or her past:
  indeed; he had his own opinion of its futility。 But it would be strange if;
  with his past experience; he could not find some other way to determine
  her    convictions     or   win   her   confidence     during    those    two   hours    of
  companionship。 He would accept her terms fairly; if she had any ulterior
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  design in her advances; he would detect it; if she had the least concern for
  him; she could not continue long an artificial friendship。 But he must not
  think of that!
  By   absenting   himself   from   the   hotel   he   managed   to   keep   clear   of
  Pendleton   until   the   hour   arrived。   He   was   gratified   to   find   Yerba   in   the
  simplest   and   most   sensible   of   habits;   as   if   she   had   already   divined   his
  tastes and had wished to avoid attracting undue attention。 Nevertheless; it
  very prettily accented her tall graceful figure; and Paul; albeit; like most
  artistic   admirers   of   the   sex;   not   recognizing   a   woman   on   a   horse   as   a
  particularly   harmonious   spectacle;   was   forced   to   admire   her。   Both   rode
  well; and naturallyhaving been brought up in the same Western school
  the    horses    recognized      it;  and   instinctively     obeyed     them;    and    their
  conversation had the easy deliberation and inflection of a tete…a… tete。 Paul;
  in view of her previous hint; talked to her of himself and his fortunes; of
  which   she   appeared;   however;   to   have   some   knowledge。   His   health   had
  obliged him lately to abandon politics and office; he had been successful
  in some ventures; and had become a junior partner in a bank with foreign
  correspondence。        She   listened    to  him   for   some    time   with   interest   and
  attention; but at last her face became abstracted and thoughtful。 〃I wish I
  were a man!〃 she said suddenly。
  Paul looked at her quickly。 For the first time he detected in the ring of
  her   voice   something   of   the   passionate   quality   he   fancied   he   had   always
  seen in her face。
  〃Except that it might give you better control of your horse; I don't see
  why;〃 said Paul。 〃And I don't entirely believe you。〃
  〃Why?〃
  〃Because no woman really wishes to be a man unless she is conscious
  of her failure as a woman。〃
  〃And   how   do   you   know   I'm   not?〃   she   said;   checking   her   horse   and
  looking in his face。 A quick conviction that she was on the point of some
  confession sprang into his mind; but unfortunately showed in his face。 She
  beat back his eager look with a short laugh。 〃There; don't speak; and don't
  look     like  that。   That    remark    was    worthy     the   usual    artless   maiden's
  invitation to a compliment; wasn't it? Let us keep to the subject of yourself。
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  Why;   with   your   political   influence;   don't   you   get   yourself   appointed   to
  some diplomatic position over here?〃
  〃There are none in our service。 You wouldn't want me to sink myself
  in some absurd social functions; which are called by that name; merely to
  become the envy and   hatred of a few  rich republicans; like your   friends
  who haunt foreign courts?〃
  〃That's not a pretty speechbut I suppose I invited THAT too。 Don't
  apologize。 I'd rather see you flare out like that than pay compliments。 Yet I
  fancy you're a diplomatist; for all that。〃
  〃You did me the honor to believe I was one once; when I was simply
  the most palpable ass and bungler living;〃 said Paul bitterly。
  She was still sweetly silent; apparently preoccupied in smoothing out
  the   mane   of   her   walking   horse。   〃Did   I?〃   she   said   softly。   He   drew   close
  beside her。
  〃How different the vegetation is here from what it is with us!〃 she said
  with nervous quickness; directing his attention to the grass road beneath
  them;   without   lifting   her   eyes。   〃I   don't   mean   what   is   cultivated;for   I
  suppose it   takes centuries   to make   the lawns  they have in   England;but
  even here the blades of grass seem to press closer together; as if they were
  crowded   or   overpopulated;   like   the   country;   and   this   forest;   which   has
  been always wild   and was   a hunting park; has a  blase look; as   if it   was
  already tired of the unchanging traditions and monotony around it。 I think
  over    there   Nature     affects   and   influences     us:  here;   I  fancy;   it  is  itself
  affected by the people。〃
  〃I   think   a   good   deal   of   Nature   comes   over   from   America   for   that
  purpose;〃 he said dryly。
  〃And I think you are breaking your promisebesides b