第 12 节
作者:乐乐陶陶      更新:2022-11-23 12:11      字数:9322
  question。  He is not the person to ask it。 I wonder that he
  does not see the impropriety; the absurdity of his meddling at
  all in this affair。  Besides; he could not understand my
  answer even if he believed it。  But to the explanation; I say;
  Yes!  I will give it; not to Graham; but to you。  I make you
  this proposition。  To…morrow is Sunday。  We shall be excused
  from service if we tell the master that we have important
  business to settle together。  You shall come with me on one of
  my long walks。  I will tell you all about them。  Then you can
  be the judge whether there is any harm in them。〃
  〃Does that satisfy you?〃 I said to Graham。
  〃Yes;〃 he answered; 〃that seems fair enough。  I am content
  to leave it in that way for the present。  And to make it still
  more fair; I want to take back what I said awhile ago; and to
  ask Keene's pardon for it。〃
  〃Not at all;〃 said Keene; quickly; 〃it was said in haste;
  I bear no grudge。  You simply did not understand; that is
  all。〃
  So we turned to go down the hill; and as we turned;
  Dorothy met us; coming out of the shadows。
  〃What are you men doing here?〃 she asked。  〃I heard your
  voices from below。  What were you talking about?〃
  〃We were talking;〃 said Keene; 〃my dear Dorothy; we were
  talkingabout walkingyes; that was itabout walking; and
  about views。  The conversation was quite warm; almost a
  debate。  Now; you know all the view…points in this region。
  Which do you call the best; the most satisfying; the finest
  prospect?  But I know what you will say: the view from the
  little knoll in front of Hilltop。  For there; when you are tired
  of looking far away; you can turn around and see the old school;
  and the linden…trees; and the garden。〃
  〃Yes;〃 she answered gravely; 〃that is really the view that
  I love best。  I would give up all the others rather than lose
  that。〃
  III
  There was a softness in the November air that brought back
  memories of summer; and a few belated daisies were blooming in
  the old clearing; as Keene and I passed by the ruins of the
  farm…house again; early on Sunday morning。  He had been
  talking ever since we started; pouring out his praise of
  knowledge; wide; clear; universal knowledge; as the best of
  life's joys; the greatest of life's achievements。  The
  practical life was a blind; dull routine。  Most men were
  toiling at tasks which they did not like; by rules which they
  did not understand。  They never looked beyond the edge of
  their work。  The philosophical life was a spider's webfilmy
  threads of theory spun out of the inner consciousnessit touched
  the world only at certain chosen points of attachment。  There was
  nothing firm; nothing substantial in it。  You could look through
  it like a veil and see the real world lying beyond。  But the
  theorist could see only the web which he had spun。  Knowing did
  not come by speculating; theorising。  Knowing came by seeing。
  Vision was the only real knowledge。  To see the world; the whole
  world; as it is; to look behind the scenes; to read human life
  like a book; that was the glorious thingmost satisfying;
  divine。
  Thus he had talked as we climbed the hill。  Now; as we
  came by the place where we had first met; a new eagerness
  sounded in his voice。
  〃Ever since that day I have inclined to tell you something
  more about myself。  I felt sure you would understand。  I am
  planning to write a booka book of knowledge; in the true
  sensea great book about human life。  Not a history; not a
  theory; but a real view of life; its hidden motives; its
  secret relations。  How different they are from what men dream
  and imagine and play that they are!  How much darker; how much
  smaller; and therefore how much more interesting and wonderful。
  No one has yet writtenperhaps because no one has yet
  conceivedsuch a book as I have in mind。  I might call it a
  'Bionopsis。'〃
  〃But surely;〃 said I; 〃you have chosen a strange place to
  write itthe Hilltop Schoolthis quiet and secluded region!
  The stream of humanity is very slow and slender hereit
  trickles。  You must get out into the busy world。  You must be
  in the full current and feel its force。  You must take part in
  the active life of mankind in order really to know it。〃
  〃A mistake!〃 he cried。  〃Action is the thing that blinds
  men。  You remember Matthew Arnold's line:
  In action's dizzying eddy whurled。
  To know the world you must stand apart from it and above it;
  you must look down on it。〃
  〃Well; then;〃 said I; 〃you will have to find some secret
  spring of inspiration; some point of vantage from which you
  can get your outlook and your insight。〃
  He stopped short and looked me full in the face。
  〃And that;〃 cried he; 〃is precisely what I have found!〃
  Then he turned and pushed along the narrow trail so
  swiftly that I had hard work to follow him。  After a few
  minutes we came to a little stream; flowing through a grove of
  hemlocks。  Keene seated himself on the fallen log that served
  for a bridge and beckoned me to a place beside him。
  〃I promised to give you an explanation to…dayto take you
  on one of my long walks。  Well; there is only one of them。  It
  is always the same。  You shall see where it leads; what it
  means。  You shall share my secretall the wonder and glory of
  it!  Of course I know my conduct; has seemed strange to you。
  Sometimes it has seemed strange even to me。  I have been
  doubtful; troubled; almost distracted。  I have been risking a
  great deal; in danger of losing what I value; what most men
  count the best thing in the world。  But it could not be
  helped。  The risk was worth while。  A great discovery; the
  opportunity of a lifetime; yes; of an age; perhaps of many
  ages; came to me。  I simply could not throw it away。  I must
  use it; make the best of it; at any danger; at any cost。  You
  shall judge for yourself whether I was right or wrong。  But you
  must judge fairly; without haste; without prejudice。  I ask you
  to make me one promise。  You will suspend judgment; you will say
  nothing; you will keep my secret; until you have been with me
  three times at the place where I am now taking you。〃
  By this time it was clear to me that I had to do with a
  case lying far outside of the common routine of life;
  something subtle; abnormal; hard to measure; in which a clear
  and careful estimate would be necessary。  If Keene was
  labouring under some strange delusion; some disorder of mind;
  how could I estimate its nature or extent; without time and
  study; perhaps without expert advice?  To wait a little would
  be prudent; for his sake as well as for the sake of others。
  If there was some extraordinary; reality behind his mysterious
  hints; it would need patience and skill to test it。  I gave
  him the promise for which he asked。
  At once; as if relieved; he sprang up; and crying; 〃Come
  on; follow me!〃 began to make his way up the bed of the brook。
  It was one of the wildest walks that I have ever taken。  He
  turned aside for no obstacles; swamps; masses of interlacing
  alders; close…woven thickets of stiff young spruces;
  chevaux…de…frise of dead trees where wind…falls had mowed down
  the forest; walls of lichen…crusted rock; landslides where heaps
  of broken stone were tumbled in ruinous confusionthrough
  everything he pushed forward。  I could see; here and there; the
  track of his former journeys: broken branches of witch…hazel and
  moose…wood; ferns trampled down; a faint trail across some
  deeper bed of moss。  At mid…day we rested for a half…hour to
  eat lunch。  But Keene would eat nothing; except a little
  pellet of some dark green substance that he took from a flat
  silver box in his pocket。  He swallowed it hastily; and
  stooping his face to the spring by which he had halted; drank
  long and eagerly。
  〃An Indian trick;〃 said he; shaking the drops of water
  from his face。  〃On a walk; food is a hindrance; a delay。  But
  this tiny taste of bitter gum is a tonic; it spurs the courage
  and doubles the strengthif you are used to it。  Otherwise I
  should not recommend you to try it。  Faugh! the flavour is vile。〃
  He rinsed his mouth again with water; and stood up;
  calling me to come on。  The way; now tangled among the
  nameless peaks and ranges; bore steadily southward; rising all
  the time; in spite of many brief downward curves where a steep
  gorge must be crossed。  Presently we came into a hard…wood
  forest; open and easy to travel。  Breasting a long slope; we
  reached the summit of a broad; smoothly rounding ridge covered
  with a dense growth of stunted spruce。  The trees rose above
  our heads; about twice the height of a man; and so thick that
  we could not see beyond them。  But; from glimpses here and
  there; and from the purity and lightness of the air; I judged
  that we were on far higher ground than any we had yet
  traversed; the central comb; perhaps; of the mountain…system。
  A few yards ahead of us; through the crowded trunks of the
  dwarf forest; I saw a gray mass; like the wall of a fortress;
  across our path。  It was a vast rock; rising from the crest of
  the ridge; lifting its top above the sea of foliage。  At its
  base there were heaps of shattered stones; and deep crevices
  almost like caves。  One side of the rock was broken by a slanting
  gully。
  〃Be careful;〃 cried my comp