第 26 节
作者:古诗乐      更新:2022-11-23 12:09      字数:9322
  attractions of the younger Kirstie; and with the profound humanity and
  sentimentality of her nature; she had recognised the coming of fate。
  Not thus would she have chosen。  She had seen; in imagination; Archie
  wedded to some tall; powerful; and rosy heroine of the golden locks;
  made in her own image; for whom she would have strewed the bride…bed
  with delight; and now she could have wept to see the ambition falsified。
  But the gods had pronounced; and her doom was otherwise。
  She lay tossing in bed that night; besieged with feverish thoughts。
  There were dangerous matters pending; a battle was toward; over the fate
  of which she hung in jealousy; sympathy; fear; and alternate loyalty and
  disloyalty to either side。  Now she was reincarnated in her niece; and
  now in Archie。  Now she saw; through the girl's eyes; the youth on his
  knees to her; heard his persuasive instances with a deadly weakness; and
  received his overmastering caresses。  Anon; with a revulsion; her temper
  raged to see such utmost favours of fortune and love squandered on a
  brat of a girl; one of her own house; using her own name … a deadly
  ingredient … and that 〃didna ken her ain mind an' was as black's your
  hat。〃  Now she trembled lest her deity should plead in vain; loving the
  idea of success for him like a triumph of nature; anon; with returning
  loyalty to her own family and sex; she trembled for Kirstie and the
  credit of the Elliotts。  And again she had a vision of herself; the day
  over for her old…world tales and local gossip; bidding farewell to her
  last link with life and brightness and love; and behind and beyond; she
  saw but the blank butt…end where she must crawl to die。  Had she then
  come to the lees? she; so great; so beautiful; with a heart as fresh as
  a girl's and strong as womanhood?  It could not be; and yet it was so;
  and for a moment her bed was horrible to her as the sides of the grave。
  And she looked forward over a waste of hours; and saw herself go on to
  rage; and tremble; and be softened; and rage again; until the day came
  and the labours of the day must be renewed。
  Suddenly she heard feet on the stairs … his feet; and soon after the
  sound of a window…sash flung open。  She sat up with her heart beating。
  He had gone to his room alone; and he had not gone to bed。  She might
  again have one of her night cracks; and at the entrancing prospect; a
  change came over her mind; with the approach of this hope of pleasure;
  all the baser metal became immediately obliterated from her thoughts。
  She rose; all woman; and all the best of woman; tender; pitiful; hating
  the wrong; loyal to her own sex … and all the weakest of that dear
  miscellany; nourishing; cherishing next her soft heart; voicelessly
  flattering; hopes that she would have died sooner than have
  acknowledged。  She tore off her nightcap; and her hair fell about her
  shoulders in profusion。  Undying coquetry awoke。  By the faint light of
  her nocturnal rush; she stood before the looking…glass; carried her
  shapely arms above her head; and gathered up the treasures of her
  tresses。  She was never backward to admire herself; that kind of modesty
  was a stranger to her nature; and she paused; struck with a pleased
  wonder at the sight。  〃Ye daft auld wife!〃 she said; answering a thought
  that was not; and she blushed with the innocent consciousness of a
  child。  Hastily she did up the massive and shining coils; hastily donned
  a wrapper; and with the rushlight in her hand; stole into the hall。
  Below stairs she heard the clock ticking the deliberate seconds; and
  Frank jingling with the decanters in the dining…room。  Aversion rose in
  her; bitter and momentary。  〃Nesty; tippling puggy!〃 she thought; and
  the next moment she had knocked guardedly at Archie's door and was
  bidden enter。
  Archie had been looking out into the ancient blackness; pierced here and
  there with a rayless star; taking the sweet air of the moors and the
  night into his bosom deeply; seeking; perhaps finding; peace after the
  manner of the unhappy。  He turned round as she came in; and showed her a
  pale face against the window…frame。
  〃Is that you; Kirstie?〃 he asked。  〃Come in!〃
  〃It's unco late; my dear;〃 said Kirstie; affecting unwillingness。
  〃No; no;〃 he answered; 〃not at all。  Come in; if you want a crack。  I am
  not sleepy; God knows!〃
  She advanced; took a chair by the toilet table and the candle; and set
  the rushlight at her foot。  Something … it might be in the comparative
  disorder of her dress; it might be the emotion that now welled in her
  bosom … had touched her with a wand of transformation; and she seemed
  young with the youth of goddesses。
  〃Mr。 Erchie;〃 she began; 〃what's this that's come to ye?〃
  〃I am not aware of anything that has come;〃 said Archie; and blushed;
  and repented bitterly that he had let her in。
  〃O; my dear; that'll no dae!〃 said Kirstie。  〃It's ill to blend the eyes
  of love。  O; Mr。 Erchie; tak a thocht ere it's ower late。  Ye shouldna
  be impatient o' the braws o' life; they'll a' come in their saison; like
  the sun and the rain。  Ye're young yet; ye've mony cantie years afore
  ye。  See and dinna wreck yersel' at the outset like sae mony ithers!
  Hae patience … they telled me aye that was the owercome o' life … hae
  patience; there's a braw day coming yet。  Gude kens it never cam to me;
  and here I am; wi' nayther man nor bairn to ca' my ain; wearying a'
  folks wi' my ill tongue; and you just the first; Mr。 Erchie!〃
  〃I have a difficulty in knowing what you mean;〃 said Archie。
  〃Weel; and I'll tell ye;〃 she said。  〃It's just this; that I'm feared。
  I'm feared for ye; my dear。  Remember; your faither is a hard man;
  reaping where he hasna sowed and gaithering where he hasna strawed。
  It's easy speakin'; but mind!  Ye'll have to look in the gurly face o'm;
  where it's ill to look; and vain to look for mercy。  Ye mind me o' a
  bonny ship pitten oot into the black and gowsty seas … ye're a' safe
  still; sittin' quait and crackin' wi' Kirstie in your lown chalmer; but
  whaur will ye be the morn; and in whatten horror o' the fearsome
  tempest; cryin' on the hills to cover ye?〃
  〃Why; Kirstie; you're very enigmatical to…night … and very eloquent;〃
  Archie put in。
  〃And; my dear Mr。 Erchie;〃 she continued; with a change of voice; 〃ye
  mauna think that I canna sympathise wi' ye。  Ye mauna think that I
  havena been young mysel'。  Lang syne; when I was a bit lassie; no twenty
  yet … 〃  She paused and sighed。  〃Clean and caller; wi' a fit like the
  hinney bee;〃 she continned。  〃I was aye big and buirdly; ye maun
  understand; a bonny figure o' a woman; though I say it that suldna …
  built to rear bairns … braw bairns they suld hae been; and grand I would
  hae likit it!  But I was young; dear; wi' the bonny glint o' youth in my
  e'en; and little I dreamed I'd ever be tellin' ye this; an auld; lanely;
  rudas wife!  Weel; Mr。 Erchie; there was a lad cam' courtin' me; as was
  but naetural。  Mony had come before; and I would nane o' them。  But this
  yin had a tongue to wile the birds frae the lift and the bees frae the
  foxglove bells。  Deary me; but it's lang syne!  Folk have dee'd sinsyne
  and been buried; and are forgotten; and bairns been born and got merrit
  and got bairns o' their ain。  Sinsyne woods have been plantit; and have
  grawn up and are bonny trees; and the joes sit in their shadow; and
  sinsyne auld estates have changed hands; and there have been wars and
  rumours of wars on the face of the earth。  And here I'm still … like an
  auld droopit craw … lookin' on and craikin'!  But; Mr。 Erchie; do ye no
  think that I have mind o' it a' still?  I was dwalling then in my
  faither's house; and it's a curious thing that we were whiles trysted in
  the Deil's Hags。  And do ye no think that I have mind of the bonny
  simmer days; the lang miles o' the bluid…red heather; the cryin' of the
  whaups; and the lad and the lassie that was trysted?  Do ye no think
  that I mind how the hilly sweetness ran about my hairt?  Ay; Mr。 Erchie;
  I ken the way o' it … fine do I ken the way … how the grace o' God takes
  them; like Paul of Tarsus; when they think it least; and drives the pair
  o' them into a land which is like a dream; and the world and the folks
  in't' are nae mair than clouds to the puir lassie; and heeven nae mair
  than windle…straes; if she can but pleesure him!  Until Tam dee'd … that
  was my story;〃 she broke off to say; 〃he dee'd; and I wasna at the
  buryin'。  But while he was here; I could take care o' mysel'。  And can
  yon puir lassie?〃
  Kirstie; her eyes shining with unshed tears; stretched out her hand
  towards him appealingly; the bright and the dull gold of her hair
  flashed and smouldered in the coils behind her comely head; like the
  rays of an eternal youth; the pure colour had risen in her face; and
  Archie was abashed alike by