第 19 节
作者:古诗乐      更新:2022-11-23 12:09      字数:9322
  and sensible…like; but it was a pity he looked doleful。  Only … the
  moment after … a memory of his eyes in church embarrassed her。  But for
  this inconsiderable check; all through meal…time she had a good
  appetite; and she kept them laughing at table; until Gib (who had
  returned before them from Crossmichael and his separative worship)
  reproved the whole of them for their levity。
  Singing 〃in to herself〃 as she went; her mind still in the turmoil of a
  glad confusion; she rose and tripped upstairs to a little loft; lighted
  by four panes in the gable; where she slept with one of her nieces。  The
  niece; who followed her; presuming on 〃Auntie's〃 high spirits; was
  flounced out of the apartment with small ceremony; and retired; smarting
  and half tearful; to bury her woes in the byre among the hay。  Still
  humming; Christina divested herself of her finery; and put her treasures
  one by one in her great green trunk。  The last of these was the psalm…book;
  it was a fine piece; the gift of Mistress Clem; in distinct old…faced type;
  on paper that had begun to grow foxy in the warehouse … not by service …
  and she was used to wrap it in a handkerchief every Sunday after its
  period of service was over; and bury it end…wise at the head of her
  trunk。  As she now took it in hand the book fell open where the leaf
  was torn; and she stood and gazed upon that evidence of her bygone
  discomposure。  There returned again the vision of the two brown eyes
  staring at her; intent and bright; out of that dark corner of the kirk。
  The whole appearance and attitude; the smile; the suggested gesture of
  young Hermiston came before her in a flash at the sight of the torn
  page。  〃I was surely fey!〃 she said; echoing the words of Dandie; and
  at the suggested doom her high spirits deserted her。  She flung herself
  prone upon the bed; and lay there; holding the psalm…book in her hands
  for hours; for the more part in a mere stupor of unconsenting pleasure
  and unreasoning fear。  The fear was superstitious; there came up again
  and again in her memory Dandie's ill…omened words; and a hundred grisly
  and black tales out of the immediate neighbourhood read her a commentary
  on their force。  The pleasure was never realised。  You might say the
  joints of her body thought and remembered; and were gladdened; but her
  essential self; in the immediate theatre of consciousness; talked
  feverishly of something else; like a nervous person at a fire。  The
  image that she most complacently dwelt on was that of Miss Christina
  in her character of the Fair Lass of Cauldstaneslap; carrying all before
  her in the straw…coloured frock; the violet mantle; and the yellow cobweb
  stockings。  Archie's image; on the other hand; when it presented itself
  was never welcomed … far less welcomed with any ardour; and it was exposed
  at times to merciless criticism。  In the long vague dialogues she held in
  her mind; often with imaginary; often with unrealised interlocutors;
  Archie; if he were referred to at all came in for savage handling。  He
  was described as 〃looking like a stork;〃 〃staring like a caulf;〃 〃a face
  like a ghaist's。〃  〃Do you call that manners?〃 she said; or; 〃I soon put
  him in his place。〃 〃 ‘MISS CHRISTINA; IF YOU PLEASE; MR。  WEIR!' says I;
  and just flyped up my skirt tails。〃  With gabble like this she would
  entertain herself long whiles together; and then her eye would perhaps
  fall on the torn leaf; and the eyes of Archie would appear again from
  the darkness of the wall; and the voluble words deserted her; and she
  would lie still and stupid; and think upon nothing with devotion; and be
  sometimes raised by a quiet sigh。  Had a doctor of medicine come into
  that loft; he would have diagnosed a healthy; well…developed; eminently
  vivacious lass lying on her face in a fit of the sulks; not one who had
  just contracted; or was just contracting; a mortal sickness of the mind
  which should yet carry her towards death and despair。  Had it been a
  doctor of psychology; he might have been pardoned for divining in the
  girl a passion of childish vanity; self…love IN EXCELSIS; and no more。
  It is to be understood that I have been painting chaos and describing
  the inarticulate。  Every lineament that appears is too precise; almost
  every word used too strong。  Take a finger…post in the mountains on a
  day of rolling mists; I have but copied the names that appear upon the
  pointers; the names of definite and famous cities far distant; and now
  perhaps basking in sunshine; but Christina remained all these hours; as
  it were; at the foot of the post itself; not moving; and enveloped in
  mutable and blinding wreaths of haze。
  The day was growing late and the sunbeams long and level; when she sat
  suddenly up; and wrapped in its handkerchief and put by that psalm…book
  which had already played a part so decisive in the first chapter of her
  love…story。  In the absence of the mesmerist's eye; we are told nowadays
  that the head of a bright nail may fill his place; if it be steadfastly
  regarded。  So that torn page had riveted her attention on what might
  else have been but little; and perhaps soon forgotten; while the ominous
  words of Dandie … heard; not heeded; and still remembered … had lent to
  her thoughts; or rather to her mood; a cast of solemnity; and that idea
  of Fate … a pagan Fate; uncontrolled by any Christian deity; obscure;
  lawless; and august … moving indissuadably in the affairs of Christian
  men。  Thus even that phenomenon of love at first sight; which is so rare
  and seems so simple and violent; like a disruption of life's tissue; may
  be decomposed into a sequence of accidents happily concurring。
  She put on a grey frock and a pink kerchief; looked at herself a moment
  with approval in the small square of glass that served her for a toilet
  mirror; and went softly downstairs through the sleeping house that
  resounded with the sound of afternoon snoring。  Just outside the door;
  Dandie was sitting with a book in his hand; not reading; only honouring
  the Sabbath by a sacred vacancy of mind。  She came near him and stood
  still。
  〃I'm for off up the muirs; Dandie;〃 she said。
  There was something unusually soft in her tones that made him look up。
  She was pale; her eyes dark and bright; no trace remained of the levity
  of the morning。
  〃Ay; lass?  Ye'll have yer ups and downs like me; I'm thinkin';〃 he
  observed。
  〃What for do ye say that?〃 she asked。
  〃O; for naething;〃 says Dand。  〃Only I think ye're mair like me than the
  lave of them。  Ye've mair of the poetic temper; tho' Guid kens little
  enough of the poetic taalent。  It's an ill gift at the best。  Look at
  yoursel'。  At denner you were all sunshine and flowers and laughter; and
  now you're like the star of evening on a lake。〃
  She drank in this hackneyed compliment like wine; and it glowed in her
  veins。
  〃But I'm saying; Dand〃 … she came nearer him … 〃I'm for the muirs。  I
  must have a braith of air。  If Clem was to be speiring for me; try and
  quaiet him; will ye no?〃
  〃What way?〃 said Dandie。  〃I ken but the ae way; and that's leein'。〃
  I'll say ye had a sair heid; if ye like。〃
  〃But I havena;〃 she objected。
  〃I daursay no;〃 he returned。  〃I said I would say ye had; and if ye like
  to nay…say me when ye come back; it'll no mateerially maitter; for my
  chara'ter's clean gane a'ready past reca'。〃
  〃O; Dand; are ye a lecar?〃 she asked; lingering。
  〃Folks say sae;〃 replied the bard。
  〃Wha says sae?〃 she pursued。
  〃Them that should ken the best;〃 he responded。  〃The lassies; for ane。〃
  〃But; Dand; you would never lee to me?〃 she asked。
  〃I'll leave that for your pairt of it; ye girzie;〃 said he。  〃Ye'll lee
  to me fast eneuch; when ye hae gotten a jo。  I'm tellin' ye and it's
  true; when you have a jo; Miss Kirstie; it'll be for guid and ill。  I
  ken: I was made that way mysel'; but the deil was in my luck!  Here;
  gang awa wi' ye to your muirs; and let me be; I'm in an hour of
  inspiraution; ye upsetting tawpie!〃
  But she clung to her brother's neighbourhood; she knew not why。
  〃Will ye no gie's a kiss; Dand?〃 she said。  〃I aye likit ye fine。〃
  He kissed her and considered her a moment; he found something strange in
  her。  But he was a libertine through and through; nourished equal
  contempt and suspicion of all womankind; and paid his way among them
  habitually with idle compliments。
  〃Gae wa' wi' ye!〃 said he。  〃Ye're a dentie baby; and be content wi'
  that!〃
  That was Dandie's way; a kiss and a comfit to Jenny … a bawbee and my
  blessing to Jill … and goodnight to the whole clan of ye; my dears!
  When anything approached the serious; it became a matter for men; he
  both thought and said。  Women; when they did not absorb; were only
  children to be shoo'd away。  Merely in his character of connoisseur;
  however; Dandie glanced carelessly after his sister as she c