第 3 节
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summit of Black Fell; sometimes like the mere grass top of a hill;
sometimes (and this is her own expression) like a precious jewel in the
heavens。 On such days; upon the sudden view of it; her hand would
tighten on the child's fingers; her voice rise like a song。 〃I TO THE
HILLS!〃 she would repeat。 〃And O; Erchie; are nae these like the hills
of Naphtali?〃 and her tears would flow。
Upon an impressionable child the effect of this continual and pretty
accompaniment to life was deep。 The woman's quietism and piety passed
on to his different nature undiminished; but whereas in her it was a
native sentiment; in him it was only an implanted dogma。 Nature and the
child's pugnacity at times revolted。 A cad from the Potterrow once
struck him in the mouth; he struck back; the pair fought it out in the
back stable lane towards the Meadows; and Archie returned with a
considerable decline in the number of his front teeth; and
unregenerately boasting of the losses of the foe。 It was a sore day for
Mrs。 Weir; she wept and prayed over the infant backslider until my lord
was due from Court; and she must resume that air of tremulous composure
with which she always greeted him。 The judge was that day in an
observant mood; and remarked upon the absent teeth。
〃I am afraid Erchie will have been fechting with some of they blagyard
lads;〃 said Mrs。 Weir。
My lord's voice rang out as it did seldom in the privacy of his own
house。 〃I'll have norm of that; sir!〃 he cried。 〃Do you hear me? …
nonn of that! No son of mine shall be speldering in the glaur with any
dirty raibble。〃
The anxious mother was grateful for so much support; she had even feared
the contrary。 And that night when she put the child to bed … 〃Now; my
dear; ye see!〃 she said; 〃I told you what your faither would think of
it; if he heard ye had fallen into this dreidful sin; and let you and me
pray to God that ye may be keepit from the like temptation or
strengthened to resist it!〃
The womanly falsity of this was thrown away。 Ice and iron cannot be
welded; and the points of view of the Justice…Clerk and Mrs。 Weir were
not less unassimilable。 The character and position of his father had
long been a stumbling…block to Archie; and with every year of his age
the difficulty grew more instant。 The man was mostly silent; when he
spoke at all; it was to speak of the things of the world; always in a
worldly spirit; often in language that the child had been schooled to
think coarse; and sometimes with words that he knew to be sins in
themselves。 Tenderness was the first duty; and my lord was invariably
harsh。 God was love; the name of my lord (to all who knew him) was
fear。 In the world; as schematised for Archie by his mother; the place
was marked for such a creature。 There were some whom it was good to
pity and well (though very likely useless) to pray for; they were named
reprobates; goats; God's enemies; brands for the burning; and Archie
tallied every mark of identification; and drew the inevitable private
inference that the Lord Justice…Clerk was the chief of sinners。
The mother's honesty was scarce complete。 There was one influence she
feared for the child and still secretly combated; that was my lord's;
and half unconsciously; half in a wilful blindness; she continued to
undermine her husband with his son。 As long as Archie remained silent;
she did so ruthlessly; with a single eye to heaven and the child's
salvation; but the day came when Archie spoke。 It was 1801; and Archie
was seven; and beyond his years for curiosity and logic; when he brought
the case up openly。 If judging were sinful and forbidden; how came papa
to be a judge? to have that sin for a trade? to bear the name of it for
a distinction?
〃I can't see it;〃 said the little Rabbi; and wagged his head。
Mrs。 Weir abounded in commonplace replies。
〃No; I cannae see it;〃 reiterated Archie。 〃And I'll tell you what;
mamma; I don't think you and me's justifeed in staying with him。〃
The woman awoke to remorse; she saw herself disloyal to her man; her
sovereign and bread…winner; in whom (with what she had of worldliness)
she took a certain subdued pride。 She expatiated in reply on my lord's
honour and greatness; his useful services in this world of sorrow and
wrong; and the place in which he stood; far above where babes and
innocents could hope to see or criticise。 But she had builded too well
… Archie had his answers pat: Were not babes and innocents the type of
the kingdom of heaven? Were not honour and greatness the badges of the
world? And at any rate; how about the mob that had once seethed about
the carriage?
〃It's all very fine;〃 he concluded; 〃but in my opinion papa has no right
to be it。 And it seems that's not the worst yet of it。 It seems he's
called 〃The Hanging judge〃 … it seems he's crooool。 I'll tell you what
it is; mamma; there's a tex' borne in upon me: It were better for that
man if a milestone were bound upon his back and him flung into the
deepestmost pairts of the sea。〃
〃O; my lamb; ye must never say the like of that!〃 she cried。 〃Ye're to
honour faither and mother; dear; that your days may be long in the land。
It's Atheists that cry out against him … French Atheists; Erchie! Ye
would never surely even yourself down to be saying the same thing as
French Atheists? It would break my heart to think that of you。 And O;
Erchie; here are'na YOU setting up to JUDGE? And have ye no forgot
God's plain command … the First with Promise; dear? Mind you upon the
beam and the mote!〃
Having thus carried the war into the enemy's camp; the terrified lady
breathed again。 And no doubt it is easy thus to circumvent a child with
catchwords; but it may be questioned how far it is effectual。 An
instinct in his breast detects the quibble; and a voice condemns it。 He
will instantly submit; privately hold the same opinion。 For even in
this simple and antique relation of the mother and the child;
hypocrisies are multiplied。
When the Court rose that year and the family returned to Hermiston; it
was a common remark in all the country that the lady was sore failed。
She seemed to loose and seize again her touch with life; now sitting
inert in a sort of durable bewilderment; anon waking to feverish and
weak activity。 She dawdled about the lasses at their work; looking
stupidly on; she fell to rummaging in old cabinets and presses; and
desisted when half through; she would begin remarks with an air of
animation and drop them without a struggle。 Her common appearance was
of one who has forgotten something and is trying to remember; and when
she overhauled; one after another; the worthless and touching mementoes
of her youth; she might have been seeking the clue to that lost thought。
During this period; she gave many gifts to the neighbours and house
lasses; giving them with a manner of regret that embarrassed the
recipients。
The last night of all she was busy on some female work; and toiled upon
it with so manifest and painful a devotion that my lord (who was not
often curious) inquired as to its nature。
She blushed to the eyes。 〃O; Edom; it's for you!〃 she said。 〃It's
slippers。 I … I hae never made ye any。〃
〃Ye daft auld wife!〃 returned his lordship。 〃A bonny figure I would
be; palmering about in bauchles!〃
The next day; at the hour of her walk; Kirstie interfered。 Kirstie took
this decay of her mistress very hard; bore her a grudge; quarrelled with
and railed upon her; the anxiety of a genuine love wearing the disguise
of temper。 This day of all days she insisted disrespectfully; with
rustic fury; that Mrs。 Weir should stay at home。 But; 〃No; no;〃 she
said; 〃it's my lord's orders;〃 and set forth as usual。 Archie was
visible in the acre bog; engaged upon some childish enterprise; the
instrument of which was mire; and she stood and looked at him a while
like one about to call; then thought otherwise; sighed; and shook her
head; and proceeded on her rounds alone。 The house lasses were at the
burnside washing; and saw her pass with her loose; weary; dowdy gait。
〃She's a terrible feckless wife; the mistress!〃 said the one。
〃Tut;〃 said the other; 〃the wumman's seeck。〃
〃Weel; I canna see nae differ in her;〃 returned the first。 〃A
fushionless quean; a feckless carline。〃
The poor creature thus discussed rambled a while in the grounds without
a purpose。 Tides in her mind ebbed and flowed; and carried her
to and fro like seaweed。 She tried a path; paused; returned; and tried
another; questing; forgetting her quest; the spirit of choice extinct in
her bosom; or devoid of sequency。 On a sudden; it appeared as though
she had remembered; or had formed a resolution; wheeled about; returned
with hurried steps; and appeared in the din