第 4 节
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漂亮格子 更新:2022-08-26 22:13 字数:9322
And; if not too tired with her drudgery; or wor…
ried beyond endurance by her father; she would
laugh at him with a blush; and say: 〃That's all
right; Captain Hagberd; I am not impatient。〃
〃Well; my dear; you haven't long to wait now;〃
he would answer with a sudden bashfulness; and
looking uneasily; as though he had suspected that
there was something wrong somewhere。
Every Monday she paid him his rent over the
railings。 He clutched the shillings greedily。 He
grudged every penny he had to spend on his main…
tenance; and when he left her to make his purchases
his bearing changed as soon as he got into the
street。 Away from the sanction of her pity; he felt
himself exposed without defence。 He brushed the
walls with his shoulder。 He mistrusted the queer…
ness of the people; yet; by then; even the town
children had left off calling after him; and the
tradesmen served him without a word。 The slight…
est allusion to his clothing had the power to puzzle
and frighten especially; as if it were something
utterly unwarranted and incomprehensible。
In the autumn; the driving rain drummed on his
sailcloth suit saturated almost to the stiffness of
sheet…iron; with its surface flowing with water。
When the weather was too bad; he retreated under
the tiny porch; and; standing close against the
door; looked at his spade left planted in the middle
of the yard。 The ground was so much dug up all
over; that as the season advanced it turned to a
quagmire。 When it froze hard; he was disconso…
late。 What would Harry say? And as he could
not have so much of Bessie's company at that time
of the year; the roars of old Carvil; that came muf…
fled through the closed windows; calling her in…
doors; exasperated him greatly。
〃Why don't that extravagant fellow get you a
servant?〃 he asked impatiently one mild after…
noon。 She had thrown something over her head to
run out for a while。
〃I don't know;〃 said the pale Bessie; wearily;
staring away with her heavy…lidded; grey; and un…
expectant glance。 There were always smudgy
shadows under her eyes; and she did not seem able
to see any change or any end to her life。
〃You wait till you get married; my dear;〃 said
her only friend; drawing closer to the fence。
〃Harry will get you one。〃
His hopeful craze seemed to mock her own want
of hope with so bitter an aptness that in her ner…
vous irritation she could have screamed at him out…
right。 But she only said in self…mockery; and
speaking to him as though he had been sane;
〃Why; Captain Hagberd; your son may not even
want to look at me。〃
He flung his head back and laughed his throaty
affected cackle of anger。
〃What! That boy? Not want to look at the
only sensible girl for miles around? What do you
think I am here for; my dearmy dearmy dear?
。 。 。 What? You wait。 You just wait。 You'll
see to…morrow。 I'll soon〃
〃Bessie! Bessie! Bessie!〃 howled old Carvil in…
side。 〃Bessie!my pipe!〃 That fat blind man
had given himself up to a very lust of laziness。 He
would not lift his hand to reach for the things she
took care to leave at his very elbow。 He would not
move a limb; he would not rise from his chair; he
would not put one foot before another; in that par…
lour (where he knew his way as well as if he had his
sight); without calling her to his side and hanging
all his atrocious weight on her shoulder。 He would
not eat one single mouthful of food without her
close attendance。 He had made himself helpless
beyond his affliction; to enslave her better。 She
stood still for a moment; setting her teeth in the
dusk; then turned and walked slowly indoors。
Captain Hagberd went back to his spade。 The
shouting in Carvil's cottage stopped; and after a
while the window of the parlour downstairs was lit
up。 A man coming from the end of the street with
a firm leisurely step passed on; but seemed to have
caught sight of Captain Hagberd; because he
turned back a pace or two。 A cold white light lin…
gered in the western sky。 The man leaned over the
gate in an interested manner。
〃You must be Captain Hagberd;〃 he said; with
easy assurance。
The old man spun round; pulling out his spade;
startled by the strange voice。
〃Yes; I am;〃 he answered nervously。
The other; smiling straight at him; uttered very
slowly: 〃You've been advertising for your son; I
believe?〃
〃My son Harry;〃 mumbled Captain Hagberd;
off his guard for once。 〃He's coming home to…
morrow。〃
〃The devil he is!〃 The stranger marvelled
greatly; and then went on; with only a slight
change of tone: 〃You've grown a beard like
Father Christmas himself。〃
Captain Hagberd drew a little nearer; and
leaned forward over his spade。 〃Go your way;〃
he said; resentfully and timidly at the same time;
because he was always afraid of being laughed at。
Every mental state; even madness; has its equi…
librium based upon self…esteem。 Its disturbance
causes unhappiness; and Captain Hagberd lived
amongst a scheme of settled notions which it pained
him to feel disturbed by people's grins。 Yes; peo…
ple's grins were awful。 They hinted at something
wrong: but what? He could not tell; and that
stranger was obviously grinninghad come on
purpose to grin。 It was bad enough on the streets;
but he had never before been outraged like this。
The stranger; unaware how near he was of hav…
ing his head laid open with a spade; said seriously:
〃I am not trespassing where I stand; am I? I
fancy there's something wrong about your news。
Suppose you let me come in。〃
〃YOU come in!〃 murmured old Hagberd; with
inexpressible horror。
〃I could give you some real information about
your sonthe very latest tip; if you care to
hear。〃
〃No;〃 shouted Hagberd。 He began to pace
wildly to and fro; he shouldered his spade; he ges…
ticulated with his other arm。 〃Here's a fellow
a grinning fellow; who says there's something
wrong。 I've got more information than you're
aware of。 I've all the information I want。 I've
had it for yearsfor yearsfor yearsenough
to last me till to…morrow。 Let you come in; indeed!
What would Harry say?〃
Bessie Carvil's figure appeared in black silhou…
ette on the parlour window; then; with the sound of
an opening door; flitted out before the other cot…
tage; all black; but with something white over
her head。 These two voices beginning to talk sud…
denly outside (she had heard them indoors) had
given her such an emotion that she could not utter
a sound。
Captain Hagberd seemed to be trying to find his
way out of a cage。 His feet squelched in the pud…
dles left by his industry。 He stumbled in the holes
of the ruined grass…plot。 He ran blindly against
the fence。
〃Here; steady a bit!〃 said the man at the gate;
gravely stretching his arm over and catching him
by the sleeve。 〃Somebody's been trying to get at
you。 Hallo! what's this rig you've got on? Storm
canvas; by George!〃 He had a big laugh。
〃Well; you ARE a character!〃
Captain Hagberd jerked himself free; and began
to back away shrinkingly。 〃For the present;〃 he
muttered; in a crestfallen tone。
〃What's the matter with him?〃 The stranger
addressed Bessie with the utmost familiarity; in a
deliberate; explanatory tone。 〃I didn't want to
startle the old man。〃 He lowered his voice as
though he had known her for years。 〃I dropped
into a barber's on my way; to get a twopenny
shave; and they told me there he was something of
a character。 The old man has been a character all
his life。〃
Captain Hagberd; daunted by the allusion to his
clothing; had retreated inside; taking his spade
with him; and the two at the gate; startled by the
unexpected slamming of the door; heard the bolts
being shot; the snapping of the lock; and the echo
of an affected gurgling laugh within。
〃I didn't want to upset him;〃 the man said;
after a short silence。 〃What's the meaning of all
this? He isn't quite crazy。〃
〃He has been worrying a long time about his
lost son;〃