第 30 节
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左思右想 更新:2022-08-26 22:12 字数:9322
no boundary but the horizon。 Two lines of rails; a waggon
shed; and a few telegraph posts; alone diversified the
outlook。 As for sounds; the silence was unbroken save by the
chant of the telegraph wires and the crying of the plovers on
the waste。 With the approach of midday the wind had more and
more fallen; it was now sweltering hot and the air trembled
in the sunshine。
Dick paused for an instant on the threshold of the platform。
Then; in two steps; he was by her side and speaking almost
with a sob。
'Esther;' he said; 'have pity on me。 What have I done? Can
you not forgive me? Esther; you loved me once … can you not
love me still?'
'How can I tell you? How am I to know?' she answered。 'You
are all a lie to me … all a lie from first to last。 You were
laughing at my folly; playing with me like a child; at the
very time when you declared you loved me。 Which was true?
was any of it true? or was it all; all a mockery? I am weary
trying to find out。 And you say I loved you; I loved my
father's friend。 I never loved; I never heard of; you; until
that man came home and I began to find myself deceived。 Give
me back my father; be what you were before; and you may talk
of love indeed!'
'Then you cannot forgive me … cannot?' he asked。
'I have nothing to forgive;' she answered。 'You do not
understand。'
'Is that your last word; Esther?' said he; very white; and
biting his lip to keep it still。
'Yes; that is my last word;' replied she。
'Then we are here on false pretences; and we stay here no
longer;' he said。 'Had you still loved me; right or wrong; I
should have taken you away; because then I could have made
you happy。 But as it is … I must speak plainly … what you
propose is degrading to you; and an insult to me; and a rank
unkindness to your father。 Your father may be this or that;
but you should use him like a fellow…creature。'
'What do you mean?' she flashed。 'I leave him my house and
all my money; it is more than he deserves。 I wonder you dare
speak to me about that man。 And besides; it is all he cares
for; let him take it; and let me never hear from him again。'
'I thought you romantic about fathers;' he said。
'Is that a taunt?' she demanded。
'No;' he replied; 'it is an argument。 No one can make you
like him; but don't disgrace him in his own eyes。 He is old;
Esther; old and broken down。 Even I am sorry for him; and he
has been the loss of all I cared for。 Write to your aunt;
when I see her answer you can leave quietly and naturally;
and I will take you to your aunt's door。 But in the meantime
you must go home。 You have no money; and so you are
helpless; and must do as I tell you; and believe me; Esther;
I do all for your good; and your good only; so God help me。'
She had put her hand into her pocket and withdrawn it empty。
'I counted upon you;' she wailed。
'You counted rightly then;' he retorted。 'I will not; to
please you for a moment; make both of us unhappy for our
lives; and since I cannot marry you; we have only been too
long away; and must go home at once。'
'Dick;' she cried suddenly; 'perhaps I might … perhaps in
time … perhaps … '
'There is no perhaps about the matter;' interrupted Dick。 'I
must go and bring the phaeton。' And with that he strode from
the station; all in a glow of passion and virtue。 Esther;
whose eyes had come alive and her cheeks flushed during these
last words; relapsed in a second into a state of
petrifaction。 She remained without motion during his
absence; and when he returned suffered herself to be put back
into the phaeton; and driven off on the return journey like
an idiot or a tired child。 Compared with what she was now;
her condition of the morning seemed positively natural。 She
sat white and cold and silent; and there was no speculation
in her eyes。 Poor Dick flailed and flailed at the pony; and
once tried to whistle; but his courage was going down; huge
clouds of despair gathered together in his soul; and from
time to time their darkness was divided by a piercing flash
of longing and regret。 He had lost his love … he had lost
his love for good。
The pony was tired; and the hills very long and steep; and
the air sultrier than ever; for now the breeze began to fail
entirely。 It seemed as if this miserable drive would never
be done; as if poor Dick would never be able to go away and
be comfortably wretched by himself; for all his desire was to
escape from her presence and the reproach of her averted
looks。 He had lost his love; he thought … he had lost his
love for good。
They were already not far from the cottage; when his heart
again faltered and he appealed to her once more; speaking low
and eagerly in broken phrases。
'I cannot live without your love;' he concluded。
'I do not understand what you mean;' she replied; and I
believe with perfect truth。
'Then;' said he; wounded to the quick; 'your aunt might come
and fetch you herself。 Of course you can command me as you
please。 But I think it would be better so。'
'Oh yes;' she said wearily; 'better so。'
This was the only exchange of words between them till about
four o'clock; the phaeton; mounting the lane; 'opened out'
the cottage between the leafy banks。 Thin smoke went
straight up from the chimney; the flowers in the garden; the
hawthorn in the lane; hung down their heads in the heat; the
stillness was broken only by the sound of hoofs。 For right
before the gate a livery servant rode slowly up and down;
leading a saddle horse。 And in this last Dick shuddered to
identify his father's chestnut。
Alas! poor Richard; what should this portend?
The servant; as in duty bound; dismounted and took the
phaeton into his keeping; yet Dick thought he touched his hat
to him with something of a grin。 Esther; passive as ever;
was helped out and crossed the garden with a slow and
mechanical gait; and Dick; following close behind her; heard
from within the cottage his father's voice upraised in an
anathema; and the shriller tones of the Admiral responding in
the key of war。
CHAPTER VIII … BATTLE ROYAL
SQUIRE NASEBY; on sitting down to lunch; had inquired for
Dick; whom he had not seen since the day before at dinner;
and the servant answering awkwardly that Master Richard had
come back but had gone out again with the pony phaeton; his
suspicions became aroused; and he cross…questioned the man
until the whole was out。 It appeared from this report that
Dick had been going about for nearly a month with a girl in
the Vale … a Miss Van Tromp; that she lived near Lord
Trevanion's upper wood; that recently Miss Van Tromp's papa
had returned home from foreign parts after a prolonged
absence; that this papa was an old gentleman; very chatty and
free with his money in the public…house … whereupon Mr。
Naseby's face became encrimsoned; that the papa; furthermore;
was said to be an admiral … whereupon Mr。 Naseby spat out a
whistle brief and fierce as an oath; that Master Dick seemed
very friendly with the papa … 'God help him!' said Mr。
Naseby; that last night Master Dick had not come in; and to…
day he had driven away in the phaeton with the young lady …
'Young woman;' corrected Mr。 Naseby。
'Yes; sir;' said the man; who had been unwilling enough to
gossip from the first; and was now cowed by the effect of his
communications on the master。 'Young woman; sir!'
'Had they luggage?' demanded the Squire。
'Yes; sir。'
Mr。 Naseby was silent for a moment; struggling to keep down
his emotion; and he mastered it so far as to mount into the
sarcastic vein; when he was in the nearest danger of melting
into the sorrowful。
'And was this … this Van Dunk with them?' he asked; dwelling
scornfully upon the name。
The servant believed not; and being eager to shift the
responsibility of speech to other shoulders; suggested that
perhaps the master had better inquire further from George the
stableman in person。
'Tell him to saddle the chestnut and come with me。 He can
take the gray gelding; for we may ride fast。 And then you
can take away this trash;' added Mr。 Naseby; pointing to the
luncheon; and he arose; lordly in his anger; and marched
forth upon the terrace to await his horse。
There Dick's old nurse shrunk up to him; for the news went
like wildfire over Naseby House; and timidly expressed a hope
that there was nothing much amiss with the young master。
'I'll pull him through;' the Squire said grimly; as though he
meant to pull him through a threshing…mill; 'I'll save him
from this gang; God help him with the next! He has a taste
for low company; and no natural affections to steady him。
His father was no society for him; he must go fuddling with a
Dutchman; Nance; and now he's caught。 Let us pray he'll take
the lesson;' he a