第 26 节
作者:左思右想      更新:2022-08-26 22:12      字数:9322
  of the hill towards the first hour of evening; the sun was
  descending heaven; the colour had all drawn into the west;
  the hills were modelled in their least contour by the soft;
  slanting shine; and the wide moorlands; veined with glens and
  hazelwoods; ran west and north in a hazy glory of light。
  Then the painter wakened in Van Tromp。
  'Gad; Dick;' he cried; 'what value!'
  An ode in four hundred lines would not have seemed so
  touching to Esther; her eyes filled with happy tears; yes;
  here was the father of whom she had dreamed; whom Dick had
  described; simple; enthusiastic; unworldly; kind; a painter
  at heart; and a fine gentleman in manner。
  And just then the Admiral perceived a house by the wayside;
  and something depending over the house door which might be
  construed as a sign by the hopeful and thirsty。
  'Is that;' he asked; pointing with his stick; 'an inn?'
  There was a marked change in his voice; as though he attached
  importance to the inquiry: Esther listened; hoping she should
  hear wit or wisdom。
  Dick said it was。
  'You know it?' inquired the Admiral。
  'I have passed it a hundred times; but that is all;' replied
  Dick。
  'Ah;' said Van Tromp; with a smile; and shaking his head;
  'you are not an old campaigner; you have the world to learn。
  Now I; you see; find an inn so very near my own home; and my
  first thought is my neighbours。  I shall go forward and make
  my neighbours' acquaintance; no; you needn't come; I shall
  not be a moment。'
  And he walked off briskly towards the inn; leaving Dick alone
  with Esther on the road。
  'Dick;' she exclaimed; 'I am so glad to get a word with you;
  I am so happy; I have such a thousand things to say; and I
  want you to do me a favour。  Imagine; he has come without a
  paint…box; without an easel; and I want him to have all。  I
  want you to get them for me in Thymebury。  You saw; this
  moment; how his heart turned to painting。  They can't live
  without it;' she added; meaning perhaps Van Tromp and Michel
  Angelo。
  Up to that moment; she had observed nothing amiss in Dick's
  behaviour。  She was too happy to be curious; and his silence;
  in presence of the great and good being whom she called her
  father; had seemed both natural and praiseworthy。  But now
  that they were alone; she became conscious of a barrier
  between her lover and herself; and alarm sprang up in her
  heart。
  'Dick;' she cried; 'you don't love me。'
  'I do that;' he said heartily。
  'But you are unhappy; you are strange; you … you are not glad
  to see my father;' she concluded; with a break in her voice。
  'Esther;' he said; 'I tell you that I love you; if you love
  me; you know what that means; and that all I wish is to see
  you happy。  Do you think I cannot enjoy your pleasures?
  Esther; I do。  If I am uneasy; if I am alarmed; if … 。  Oh;
  believe me; try and believe in me;' he cried; giving up
  argument with perhaps a happy inspiration。
  But the girl's suspicions were aroused; and though she
  pressed the matter no farther (indeed; her father was already
  seen returning); it by no means left her thoughts。  At one
  moment she simply resented the selfishness of a man who had
  obtruded his dark looks and passionate language on her joy;
  for there is nothing that a woman can less easily forgive
  than the language of a passion which; even if only for the
  moment; she does not share。  At another; she suspected him of
  jealousy against her father; and for that; although she could
  see excuses for it; she yet despised him。  And at least; in
  one way or the other; here was the dangerous beginning of a
  separation between two hearts。  Esther found herself at
  variance with her sweetest friend; she could no longer look
  into his heart and find it written with the same language as
  her own; she could no longer think of him as the sun which
  radiated happiness upon her life; for she had turned to him
  once; and he had breathed upon her black and chilly; radiated
  blackness and frost。  To put the whole matter in a word; she
  was beginning; although ever so slightly; to fall out of
  love。
  CHAPTER VI … THE PRODIGAL FATHER GOES ON FROM STRENGTH TO
  STRENGTH
  WE will not follow all the steps of the Admiral's return and
  installation; but hurry forward towards the catastrophe;
  merely chronicling by the way a few salient incidents;
  wherein we must rely entirely upon the evidence of Richard;
  for Esther to this day has never opened her mouth upon this
  trying passage of her life; and as for the Admiral … well;
  that naval officer; although still alive; and now more
  suitably installed in a seaport town where he has a telescope
  and a flag in his front garden; is incapable of throwing the
  slightest gleam of light upon the affair。  Often and often
  has he remarked to the present writer: 'If I know what it was
  all about; sir; I'll be … ' in short; be what I hope he will
  not。  And then he will look across at his daughter's
  portrait; a photograph; shake his head with an amused
  appearance; and mix himself another grog by way of
  consolation。  Once I heard him go farther; and express his
  feelings with regard to Esther in a single but eloquent word。
  'A minx; sir;' he said; not in anger; rather in amusement:
  and he cordially drank her health upon the back of it。  His
  worst enemy must admit him to be a man without malice; he
  never bore a grudge in his life; lacking the necessary taste
  and industry of attention。
  Yet it was during this obscure period that the drama was
  really performed; and its scene was in the heart of Esther;
  shut away from all eyes。  Had this warm; upright; sullen girl
  been differently used by destiny; had events come upon her
  even in a different succession; for some things lead easily
  to others; the whole course of this tale would have been
  changed; and Esther never would have run away。  As it was;
  through a series of acts and words of which we know but few;
  and a series of thoughts which any one may imagine for
  himself; she was awakened in four days from the dream of a
  life。
  The first tangible cause of disenchantment was when Dick
  brought home a painter's arsenal on Friday evening。  The
  Admiral was in the chimney…corner; once more 'sirrupping'
  some brandy and water; and Esther sat at the table at work。
  They both came forward to greet the new arrival; and the
  girl; relieving him of his monstrous burthen; proceeded to
  display her offerings to her father。  Van Tromp's countenance
  fell several degrees; he became quite querulous。
  'God bless me;' he said; and then; 'I must really ask you not
  to interfere; child;' in a tone of undisguised hostility。
  'Father;' she said; 'forgive me; I knew you had given up your
  art … '
  'Oh yes!' cried the Admiral; 'I've done with it to the
  judgment…day!'
  'Pardon me again;' she said firmly; 'but I do not; I cannot
  think that you are right in this。  Suppose the world is
  unjust; suppose that no one understands you; you have still a
  duty to yourself。  And; oh; don't spoil the pleasure of your
  coming home to me; show me that you can be my father and yet
  not neglect your destiny。  I am not like some daughters; I
  will not be jealous of your art; and I will try to understand
  it。'
  The situation was odiously farcical。  Richard groaned under
  it; he longed to leap forward and denounce the humbug。  And
  the humbug himself?  Do you fancy he was easier in his mind?
  I am sure; on the other hand; that he was acutely miserable;
  and he betrayed his sufferings by a perfectly silly and
  undignified access of temper; during which he broke his pipe
  in several pieces; threw his brandy and water in the fire;
  and employed words which were very plain although the drift
  of them was somewhat vague。  It was of very brief duration。
  Van Tromp was himself again; and in a most delightful humour
  within three minutes of the first explosion。
  'I am an old fool;' he said frankly。  'I was spoiled when a
  child。  As for you; Esther; you take after your mother; you
  have a morbid sense of duty; particularly for others; strive
  against it; my dear … strive against it。  And as for the
  pigments; well; I'll use them; some of these days; and to
  show that I'm in earnest; I'll get Dick here to prepare a
  canvas。'
  Dick was put to this menial task forthwith; the Admiral not
  even watching how he did; but quite occupied with another
  grog and a pleasant vein of talk。
  A little after Esther arose; and making some pretext; good or
  bad; went off to bed。  Dick was left hobbled by the canvas;
  and was subjected to Van Tromp for about an hour。
  The next day; Saturday; it is believed that little
  intercourse took place between Esther and her father; but
  towards the afternoon Dick met the latter returning from the
  direction of the inn; where he had struck up quite a
  friendship with the landlord。  Dick wondered who paid for
  these excursions; and