第 26 节
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左思右想 更新:2022-08-26 22:12 字数:9322
of the hill towards the first hour of evening; the sun was
descending heaven; the colour had all drawn into the west;
the hills were modelled in their least contour by the soft;
slanting shine; and the wide moorlands; veined with glens and
hazelwoods; ran west and north in a hazy glory of light。
Then the painter wakened in Van Tromp。
'Gad; Dick;' he cried; 'what value!'
An ode in four hundred lines would not have seemed so
touching to Esther; her eyes filled with happy tears; yes;
here was the father of whom she had dreamed; whom Dick had
described; simple; enthusiastic; unworldly; kind; a painter
at heart; and a fine gentleman in manner。
And just then the Admiral perceived a house by the wayside;
and something depending over the house door which might be
construed as a sign by the hopeful and thirsty。
'Is that;' he asked; pointing with his stick; 'an inn?'
There was a marked change in his voice; as though he attached
importance to the inquiry: Esther listened; hoping she should
hear wit or wisdom。
Dick said it was。
'You know it?' inquired the Admiral。
'I have passed it a hundred times; but that is all;' replied
Dick。
'Ah;' said Van Tromp; with a smile; and shaking his head;
'you are not an old campaigner; you have the world to learn。
Now I; you see; find an inn so very near my own home; and my
first thought is my neighbours。 I shall go forward and make
my neighbours' acquaintance; no; you needn't come; I shall
not be a moment。'
And he walked off briskly towards the inn; leaving Dick alone
with Esther on the road。
'Dick;' she exclaimed; 'I am so glad to get a word with you;
I am so happy; I have such a thousand things to say; and I
want you to do me a favour。 Imagine; he has come without a
paint…box; without an easel; and I want him to have all。 I
want you to get them for me in Thymebury。 You saw; this
moment; how his heart turned to painting。 They can't live
without it;' she added; meaning perhaps Van Tromp and Michel
Angelo。
Up to that moment; she had observed nothing amiss in Dick's
behaviour。 She was too happy to be curious; and his silence;
in presence of the great and good being whom she called her
father; had seemed both natural and praiseworthy。 But now
that they were alone; she became conscious of a barrier
between her lover and herself; and alarm sprang up in her
heart。
'Dick;' she cried; 'you don't love me。'
'I do that;' he said heartily。
'But you are unhappy; you are strange; you … you are not glad
to see my father;' she concluded; with a break in her voice。
'Esther;' he said; 'I tell you that I love you; if you love
me; you know what that means; and that all I wish is to see
you happy。 Do you think I cannot enjoy your pleasures?
Esther; I do。 If I am uneasy; if I am alarmed; if … 。 Oh;
believe me; try and believe in me;' he cried; giving up
argument with perhaps a happy inspiration。
But the girl's suspicions were aroused; and though she
pressed the matter no farther (indeed; her father was already
seen returning); it by no means left her thoughts。 At one
moment she simply resented the selfishness of a man who had
obtruded his dark looks and passionate language on her joy;
for there is nothing that a woman can less easily forgive
than the language of a passion which; even if only for the
moment; she does not share。 At another; she suspected him of
jealousy against her father; and for that; although she could
see excuses for it; she yet despised him。 And at least; in
one way or the other; here was the dangerous beginning of a
separation between two hearts。 Esther found herself at
variance with her sweetest friend; she could no longer look
into his heart and find it written with the same language as
her own; she could no longer think of him as the sun which
radiated happiness upon her life; for she had turned to him
once; and he had breathed upon her black and chilly; radiated
blackness and frost。 To put the whole matter in a word; she
was beginning; although ever so slightly; to fall out of
love。
CHAPTER VI … THE PRODIGAL FATHER GOES ON FROM STRENGTH TO
STRENGTH
WE will not follow all the steps of the Admiral's return and
installation; but hurry forward towards the catastrophe;
merely chronicling by the way a few salient incidents;
wherein we must rely entirely upon the evidence of Richard;
for Esther to this day has never opened her mouth upon this
trying passage of her life; and as for the Admiral … well;
that naval officer; although still alive; and now more
suitably installed in a seaport town where he has a telescope
and a flag in his front garden; is incapable of throwing the
slightest gleam of light upon the affair。 Often and often
has he remarked to the present writer: 'If I know what it was
all about; sir; I'll be … ' in short; be what I hope he will
not。 And then he will look across at his daughter's
portrait; a photograph; shake his head with an amused
appearance; and mix himself another grog by way of
consolation。 Once I heard him go farther; and express his
feelings with regard to Esther in a single but eloquent word。
'A minx; sir;' he said; not in anger; rather in amusement:
and he cordially drank her health upon the back of it。 His
worst enemy must admit him to be a man without malice; he
never bore a grudge in his life; lacking the necessary taste
and industry of attention。
Yet it was during this obscure period that the drama was
really performed; and its scene was in the heart of Esther;
shut away from all eyes。 Had this warm; upright; sullen girl
been differently used by destiny; had events come upon her
even in a different succession; for some things lead easily
to others; the whole course of this tale would have been
changed; and Esther never would have run away。 As it was;
through a series of acts and words of which we know but few;
and a series of thoughts which any one may imagine for
himself; she was awakened in four days from the dream of a
life。
The first tangible cause of disenchantment was when Dick
brought home a painter's arsenal on Friday evening。 The
Admiral was in the chimney…corner; once more 'sirrupping'
some brandy and water; and Esther sat at the table at work。
They both came forward to greet the new arrival; and the
girl; relieving him of his monstrous burthen; proceeded to
display her offerings to her father。 Van Tromp's countenance
fell several degrees; he became quite querulous。
'God bless me;' he said; and then; 'I must really ask you not
to interfere; child;' in a tone of undisguised hostility。
'Father;' she said; 'forgive me; I knew you had given up your
art … '
'Oh yes!' cried the Admiral; 'I've done with it to the
judgment…day!'
'Pardon me again;' she said firmly; 'but I do not; I cannot
think that you are right in this。 Suppose the world is
unjust; suppose that no one understands you; you have still a
duty to yourself。 And; oh; don't spoil the pleasure of your
coming home to me; show me that you can be my father and yet
not neglect your destiny。 I am not like some daughters; I
will not be jealous of your art; and I will try to understand
it。'
The situation was odiously farcical。 Richard groaned under
it; he longed to leap forward and denounce the humbug。 And
the humbug himself? Do you fancy he was easier in his mind?
I am sure; on the other hand; that he was acutely miserable;
and he betrayed his sufferings by a perfectly silly and
undignified access of temper; during which he broke his pipe
in several pieces; threw his brandy and water in the fire;
and employed words which were very plain although the drift
of them was somewhat vague。 It was of very brief duration。
Van Tromp was himself again; and in a most delightful humour
within three minutes of the first explosion。
'I am an old fool;' he said frankly。 'I was spoiled when a
child。 As for you; Esther; you take after your mother; you
have a morbid sense of duty; particularly for others; strive
against it; my dear … strive against it。 And as for the
pigments; well; I'll use them; some of these days; and to
show that I'm in earnest; I'll get Dick here to prepare a
canvas。'
Dick was put to this menial task forthwith; the Admiral not
even watching how he did; but quite occupied with another
grog and a pleasant vein of talk。
A little after Esther arose; and making some pretext; good or
bad; went off to bed。 Dick was left hobbled by the canvas;
and was subjected to Van Tromp for about an hour。
The next day; Saturday; it is believed that little
intercourse took place between Esther and her father; but
towards the afternoon Dick met the latter returning from the
direction of the inn; where he had struck up quite a
friendship with the landlord。 Dick wondered who paid for
these excursions; and