第 3 节
作者:左思右想      更新:2022-08-26 22:12      字数:9321
  race; had received the news at dinner…time; and was now; in
  default of any possible means of extrication; drowning the
  memory of his predicament。  He to help John!  The thing was
  impossible; he couldn't help himself。
  'If you have a beast of a father;' said he; 'I can tell you I
  have a brute of a trustee。'
  'I'm not going to hear my father called a beast;' said John
  with a beating heart; feeling that he risked the last sound
  rivet of the chain that bound him to life。
  But Alan was quite good…natured。
  'All right; old fellow;' said he。  'Mos' respec'able man your
  father。'  And he introduced his friend to his companions as
  'old Nicholson the what…d'ye…call…um's son。'
  John sat in dumb agony。  Colette's foul walls and maculate
  table…linen; and even down to Colette's villainous casters;
  seemed like objects in a nightmare。  And just then there came
  a knock and a scurrying; the police; so lamentably absent
  from the Calton Hill; appeared upon the scene; and the party;
  taken FLAGRANTE DELICTO; with their glasses at their elbow;
  were seized; marched up to the police office; and all duly
  summoned to appear as witnesses in the consequent case
  against that arch…shebeener; Colette。
  It was a sorrowful and a mightily sobered company that came
  forth again。  The vague terror of public opinion weighed
  generally on them all; but there were private and particular
  horrors on the minds of individuals。  Alan stood in dread of
  his trustee; already sorely tried。  One of the group was the
  son of a country minister; another of a judge; John; the
  unhappiest of all; had David Nicholson to father; the idea of
  facing whom on such a scandalous subject was physically
  sickening。  They stood awhile consulting under the buttresses
  of Saint Giles; thence they adjourned to the lodgings of one
  of the number in North Castle Street; where (for that matter)
  they might have had quite as good a supper; and far better
  drink; than in the dangerous paradise from which they had
  been routed。  There; over an almost tearful glass; they
  debated their position。  Each explained he had the world to
  lose if the affair went on; and he appeared as a witness。  It
  was remarkable what bright prospects were just then in the
  very act of opening before each of that little company of
  youths; and what pious consideration for the feelings of
  their families began now to well from them。  Each; moreover;
  was in an odd state of destitution。  Not one could bear his
  share of the fine; not one but evinced a wonderful twinkle of
  hope that each of the others (in succession) was the very man
  who could step in to make good the deficit。  One took a high
  hand; he could not pay his share; if it went to a trial; he
  should bolt; he had always felt the English Bar to be his
  true sphere。  Another branched out into touching details
  about his family; and was not listened to。  John; in the
  midst of this disorderly competition of poverty and meanness;
  sat stunned; contemplating the mountain bulk of his
  misfortunes。
  At last; upon a pledge that each should apply to his family
  with a common frankness; this convention of unhappy young
  asses broke up; went down the common stair; and in the grey
  of the spring morning; with the streets lying dead empty all
  about them; the lamps burning on into the daylight in
  diminished lustre; and the birds beginning to sound
  premonitory notes from the groves of the town gardens; went
  each his own way with bowed head and echoing footfall。
  The rooks were awake in Randolph Crescent; but the windows
  looked down; discreetly blinded; on the return of the
  prodigal。  John's pass…key was a recent privilege; this was
  the first time it had been used; and; oh! with what a
  sickening sense of his unworthiness he now inserted it into
  the well…oiled lock and entered that citadel of the
  proprieties!  All slept; the gas in the hall had been left
  faintly burning to light his return; a dreadful stillness
  reigned; broken by the deep ticking of the eight…day clock。
  He put the gas out; and sat on a chair in the hall; waiting
  and counting the minutes; longing for any human countenance。
  But when at last he heard the alarm spring its rattle in the
  lower story; and the servants begin to be about; he instantly
  lost heart; and fled to his own room; where he threw himself
  upon the bed。
  CHAPTER III … IN WHICH JOHN ENJOYS THE HARVEST HOME
  SHORTLY after breakfast; at which he assisted with a highly
  tragical countenance; John sought his father where he sat;
  presumably in religious meditation; on the Sabbath mornings。
  The old gentleman looked up with that sour; inquisitive
  expression that came so near to smiling and was so different
  in effect。
  'This is a time when I do not like to be disturbed;' he said。
  'I know that;' returned John; 'but I have … I want … I've
  made a dreadful mess of it;' he broke out; and turned to the
  window。
  Mr。 Nicholson sat silent for an appreciable time; while his
  unhappy son surveyed the poles in the back green; and a
  certain yellow cat that was perched upon the wall。  Despair
  sat upon John as he gazed; and he raged to think of the
  dreadful series of his misdeeds; and the essential innocence
  that lay behind them。
  'Well;' said the father; with an obvious effort; but in very
  quiet tones; 'what is it?'
  'Maclean gave me four hundred pounds to put in the bank;
  sir;' began John; 'and I'm sorry to say that I've been robbed
  of it!'
  'Robbed of it?' cried Mr。 Nicholson; with a strong rising
  inflection。  'Robbed?  Be careful what you say; John!'
  'I can't say anything else; sir; I was just robbed of it;'
  said John; in desperation; sullenly。
  'And where and when did this extraordinary event take place?'
  inquired the father。
  'On the Calton Hill about twelve last night。'
  'The Calton Hill?' repeated Mr。 Nicholson。  'And what were
  you doing there at such a time of the night?'
  'Nothing; sir;' says John。
  Mr。 Nicholson drew in his breath。
  'And how came the money in your hands at twelve last night?'
  he asked; sharply。
  'I neglected that piece of business;' said John; anticipating
  comment; and then in his own dialect: 'I clean forgot all
  about it。'
  'Well;' said his father; 'it's a most extraordinary story。
  Have you communicated with the police?'
  'I have;' answered poor John; the blood leaping to his face。
  'They think they know the men that did it。  I dare say the
  money will be recovered; if that was all;' said he; with a
  desperate indifference; which his father set down to levity;
  but which sprung from the consciousness of worse behind。
  'Your mother's watch; too?' asked Mr。 Nicholson。
  'Oh; the watch is all right!' cried John。  'At least; I mean
  I was coming to the watch … the fact is; I am ashamed to say;
  I … I had pawned the watch before。  Here is the ticket; they
  didn't find that; the watch can be redeemed; they don't sell
  pledges。'  The lad panted out these phrases; one after
  another; like minute guns; but at the last word; which rang
  in that stately chamber like an oath; his heart failed him
  utterly; and the dreaded silence settled on father and son。
  It was broken by Mr。 Nicholson picking up the pawn…ticket:
  'John Froggs; 85 Pleasance;' he read; and then turning upon
  John; with a brief flash of passion and disgust; 'Who is John
  Froggs?' he cried。
  'Nobody;' said John。  'It was just a name。'
  'An ALIAS;' his father commented。
  'Oh!  I think scarcely quite that;' said the culprit; 'it's a
  form; they all do it; the man seemed to understand; we had a
  great deal of fun over the name … '
  He paused at that; for he saw his father wince at the picture
  like a man physically struck; and again there was silence。
  'I do not think;' said Mr。 Nicholson; at last; 'that I am an
  ungenerous father。  I have never grudged you money within
  reason; for any avowable purpose; you had just to come to me
  and speak。  And now I find that you have forgotten all
  decency and all natural feeling; and actually pawned … pawned
  … your mother's watch。  You must have had some temptation; I
  will do you the justice to suppose it was a strong one。  What
  did you want with this money?'
  'I would rather not tell you; sir;' said John。  'It will only
  make you angry。'
  'I will not be fenced with;' cried his father。  'There must
  be an end of disingenuous answers。  What did you want with
  this money?'
  'To lend it to Houston; sir;' says John。
  'I thought I had forbidden you to speak to that young man?'
  asked the father。
  'Yes; sir;' said John; 'but I only met him。'
  'Where?' came the deadly question。
  And 'In a billiard…room' was the damning answer。  Thus; had
  John's single departure from the truth brought instant
  punishment。  For no other purpose but to see Alan would he
  have entered a billiard…room; but he had desired to palliate