第 2 节
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左思右想 更新:2022-08-26 22:12 字数:9322
young lady was worthy of better things than plain John
Nicholson; still known among schoolmates by the derisive name
of 'Fatty'; and he felt; if he could chalk a cue; or stand at
ease; with such a careless grace as Alan; he could approach
the object of his sentiments with a less crushing sense of
inferiority。
Before they parted; Alan made a proposal that was startling
in the extreme。 He would be at Colette's that night about
twelve; he said。 Why should not John come there and get the
money? To go to Colette's was to see life; indeed; it was
wrong; it was against the laws; it partook; in a very dingy
manner; of adventure。 Were it known; it was the sort of
exploit that disconsidered a young man for good with the more
serious classes; but gave him a standing with the riotous。
And yet Colette's was not a hell; it could not come; without
vaulting hyperbole; under the rubric of a gilded saloon; and;
if it was a sin to go there; the sin was merely local and
municipal。 Colette (whose name I do not know how to spell;
for I was never in epistolary communication with that
hospitable outlaw) was simply an unlicensed publican; who
gave suppers after eleven at night; the Edinburgh hour of
closing。 If you belonged to a club; you could get a much
better supper at the same hour; and lose not a jot in public
esteem。 But if you lacked that qualification; and were an
hungered; or inclined toward conviviality at unlawful hours;
Colette's was your only port。 You were very ill…supplied。
The company was not recruited from the Senate or the Church;
though the Bar was very well represented on the only occasion
on which I flew in the face of my country's laws; and; taking
my reputation in my hand; penetrated into that grim supper…
house。 And Colette's frequenters; thrillingly conscious of
wrong…doing and 'that two…handed engine (the policeman) at
the door;' were perhaps inclined to somewhat feverish excess。
But the place was in no sense a very bad one; and it is
somewhat strange to me; at this distance of time; how it had
acquired its dangerous repute。
In precisely the same spirit as a man may debate a project to
ascend the Matterhorn or to cross Africa; John considered
Alan's proposal; and; greatly daring; accepted it。 As he
walked home; the thoughts of this excursion out of the safe
places of life into the wild and arduous; stirred and
struggled in his imagination with the image of Miss Mackenzie
… incongruous and yet kindred thoughts; for did not each
imply unusual tightening of the pegs of resolution? did not
each woo him forth and warn him back again into himself?
Between these two considerations; at least; he was more than
usually moved; and when he got to Randolph Crescent; he quite
forgot the four hundred pounds in the inner pocket of his
greatcoat; hung up the coat; with its rich freight; upon his
particular pin of the hatstand; and in the very action sealed
his doom。
CHAPTER II … IN WHICH JOHN REAPS THE WHIRLWIND
ABOUT half…past ten it was John's brave good fortune to offer
his arm to Miss Mackenzie; and escort her home。 The night
was chill and starry; all the way eastward the trees of the
different gardens rustled and looked black。 Up the stone
gully of Leith Walk; when they came to cross it; the breeze
made a rush and set the flames of the street…lamps quavering;
and when at last they had mounted to the Royal Terrace; where
Captain Mackenzie lived; a great salt freshness came in their
faces from the sea。 These phases of the walk remained
written on John's memory; each emphasised by the touch of
that light hand on his arm; and behind all these aspects of
the nocturnal city he saw; in his mind's…eye; a picture of
the lighted drawing…room at home where he had sat talking
with Flora; and his father; from the other end; had looked on
with a kind and ironical smile。 John had read the
significance of that smile; which might have escaped a
stranger。 Mr。 Nicholson had remarked his son's entanglement
with satisfaction; tinged by humour; and his smile; if it
still was a thought contemptuous; had implied consent。
At the captain's door the girl held out her hand; with a
certain emphasis; and John took it and kept it a little
longer; and said; 'Good…night; Flora; dear;' and was
instantly thrown into much fear by his presumption。 But she
only laughed; ran up the steps; and rang the bell; and while
she was waiting for the door to open; kept close in the
porch; and talked to him from that point as out of a
fortification。 She had a knitted shawl over her head; her
blue Highland eyes took the light from the neighbouring
street…lamp and sparkled; and when the door opened and closed
upon her; John felt cruelly alone。
He proceeded slowly back along the terrace in a tender glow;
and when he came to Greenside Church; he halted in a doubtful
mind。 Over the crown of the Calton Hill; to his left; lay
the way to Colette's; where Alan would soon be looking for
his arrival; and where he would now have no more consented to
go than he would have wilfully wallowed in a bog; the touch
of the girl's hand on his sleeve; and the kindly light in his
father's eyes; both loudly forbidding。 But right before him
was the way home; which pointed only to bed; a place of
little ease for one whose fancy was strung to the lyrical
pitch; and whose not very ardent heart was just then
tumultuously moved。 The hilltop; the cool air of the night;
the company of the great monuments; the sight of the city
under his feet; with its hills and valleys and crossing files
of lamps; drew him by all he had of the poetic; and he turned
that way; and by that quite innocent deflection; ripened the
crop of his venial errors for the sickle of destiny。
On a seat on the hill above Greenside he sat for perhaps half
an hour; looking down upon the lamps of Edinburgh; and up at
the lamps of heaven。 Wonderful were the resolves he formed;
beautiful and kindly were the vistas of future life that sped
before him。 He uttered to himself the name of Flora in so
many touching and dramatic keys; that he became at length
fairly melted with tenderness; and could have sung aloud。 At
that juncture a certain creasing in his greatcoat caught his
ear。 He put his hand into his pocket; pulled forth the
envelope that held the money; and sat stupefied。 The Calton
Hill; about this period; had an ill name of nights; and to be
sitting there with four hundred pounds that did not belong to
him was hardly wise。 He looked up。 There was a man in a
very bad hat a little on one side of him; apparently looking
at the scenery; from a little on the other a second night…
walker was drawing very quietly near。 Up jumped John。 The
envelope fell from his hands; he stooped to get it; and at
the same moment both men ran in and closed with him。
A little after; he got to his feet very sore and shaken; the
poorer by a purse which contained exactly one penny postage…
stamp; by a cambric handkerchief; and by the all…important
envelope。
Here was a young man on whom; at the highest point of lovely
exaltation; there had fallen a blow too sharp to be supported
alone; and not many hundred yards away his greatest friend
was sitting at supper … ay; and even expecting him。 Was it
not in the nature of man that he should run there? He went
in quest of sympathy … in quest of that droll article that we
all suppose ourselves to want when in a strait; and have
agreed to call advice; and he went; besides; with vague but
rather splendid expectations of relief。 Alan was rich; or
would be so when he came of age。 By a stroke of the pen he
might remedy this misfortune; and avert that dreaded
interview with Mr。 Nicholson; from which John now shrunk in
imagination as the hand draws back from fire。
Close under the Calton Hill there runs a certain narrow
avenue; part street; part by…road。 The head of it faces the
doors of the prison; its tail descends into the sunless slums
of the Low Calton。 On one hand it is overhung by the crags
of the hill; on the other by an old graveyard。 Between these
two the roadway runs in a trench; sparsely lighted at night;
sparsely frequented by day; and bordered; when it was cleared
the place of tombs; by dingy and ambiguous houses。 One of
these was the house of Colette; and at his door our ill…
starred John was presently beating for admittance。 In an
evil hour he satisfied the jealous inquiries of the
contraband hotel…keeper; in an evil hour he penetrated into
the somewhat unsavoury interior。 Alan; to be sure; was
there; seated in a room lighted by noisy gas…jets; beside a
dirty table…cloth; engaged on a coarse meal; and in the
company of several tipsy members of the junior bar。 But Alan
was not sober; he had lost a thousand pounds upon a horse…
race; had received the news at dinner…time; and was now; in
default of a