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寻找山吹 更新:2022-08-21 16:40 字数:9321
used to say to Pemberton with the humour that made his queer
delicacies manly … to carry themselves with an air。 But their one
idea was to get in with people who didn't want them and to take
snubs as it they were honourable scars。 Why people didn't want
them more he didn't know … that was people's own affair; after all
they weren't superficially repulsive; they were a hundred times
cleverer than most of the dreary grandees; the 〃poor swells〃 they
rushed about Europe to catch up with。 〃After all they ARE amusing
… they are!〃 he used to pronounce with the wisdom of the ages。 To
which Pemberton always replied: 〃Amusing … the great Moreen
troupe? Why they're altogether delightful; and if it weren't for
the hitch that you and I (feeble performers!) make in the ensemble
they'd carry everything before them。〃
What the boy couldn't get over was the fact that this particular
blight seemed; in a tradition of self…respect; so undeserved and so
arbitrary。 No doubt people had a right to take the line they
liked; but why should his people have liked the line of pushing and
toadying and lying and cheating? What had their forefathers … all
decent folk; so far as he knew … done to them; or what had he done
to them? Who had poisoned their blood with the fifth…rate social
ideal; the fixed idea of making smart acquaintances and getting
into the monde chic; especially when it was foredoomed to failure
and exposure? They showed so what they were after; that was what
made the people they wanted not want THEM。 And never a wince for
dignity; never a throb of shame at looking each other in the face;
never any independence or resentment or disgust。 If his father or
his brother would only knock some one down once or twice a year!
Clever as they were they never guessed the impression they made。
They were good…natured; yes … as good…natured as Jews at the doors
of clothing…shops! But was that the model one wanted one's family
to follow? Morgan had dim memories of an old grandfather; the
maternal; in New York; whom he had been taken across the ocean at
the age of five to see: a gentleman with a high neck…cloth and a
good deal of pronunciation; who wore a dress…coat in the morning;
which made one wonder what he wore in the evening; and had; or was
supposed to have 〃property〃 and something to do with the Bible
Society。 It couldn't have been but that he was a good type。
Pemberton himself remembered Mrs。 Clancy; a widowed sister of Mr。
Moreen's; who was as irritating as a moral tale and had paid a
fortnight's visit to the family at Nice shortly after he came to
live with them。 She was 〃pure and refined;〃 as Amy said over the
banjo; and had the air of not knowing what they meant when they
talked; and of keeping something rather important back。 Pemberton
judged that what she kept back was an approval of many of their
ways; therefore it was to be supposed that she too was of a good
type; and that Mr。 and Mrs。 Moreen and Ulick and Paula and Amy
might easily have been of a better one if they would。
But that they wouldn't was more and more perceptible from day to
day。 They continued to 〃chivey;〃 as Morgan called it; and in due
time became aware of a variety of reasons for proceeding to Venice。
They mentioned a great many of them … they were always strikingly
frank and had the brightest friendly chatter; at the late foreign
breakfast in especial; before the ladies had made up their faces;
when they leaned their arms on the table; had something to follow
the demitasse; and; in the heat of familiar discussion as to what
they 〃really ought〃 to do; fell inevitably into the languages in
which they could tutoyer。 Even Pemberton liked them then; he could
endure even Ulick when he heard him give his little flat voice for
the 〃sweet sea…city。〃 That was what made him have a sneaking
kindness for them … that they were so out of the workaday world and
kept him so out of it。 The summer had waned when; with cries of
ecstasy; they all passed out on the balcony that overhung the Grand
Canal。 The sunsets then were splendid and the Dorringtons had
arrived。 The Dorringtons were the only reason they hadn't talked
of at breakfast; but the reasons they didn't talk of at breakfast
always came out in the end。 The Dorringtons on the other hand came
out very little; or else when they did they stayed … as was natural
… for hours; during which periods Mrs。 Moreen and the girls
sometimes called at their hotel (to see if they had returned) as
many as three times running。 The gondola was for the ladies; as in
Venice too there were 〃days;〃 which Mrs。 Moreen knew in their order
an hour after she arrived。 She immediately took one herself; to
which the Dorringtons never came; though on a certain occasion when
Pemberton and his pupil were together at St。 Mark's … where; taking
the best walks they had ever had and haunting a hundred churches;
they spent a great deal of time … they saw the old lord turn up
with Mr。 Moreen and Ulick; who showed him the dim basilica as if it
belonged to them。 Pemberton noted how much less; among its
curiosities; Lord Dorrington carried himself as a man of the world;
wondering too whether; for such services; his companions took a fee
from him。 The autumn at any rate waned; the Dorringtons departed;
and Lord Verschoyle; the eldest son; had proposed neither for Amy
nor for Paula。
One sad November day; while the wind roared round the old palace
and the rain lashed the lagoon; Pemberton; for exercise and even
somewhat for warmth … the Moreens were horribly frugal about fires;
it was a cause of suffering to their inmate … walked up and down
the big bare sala with his pupil。 The scagliola floor was cold;
the high battered casements shook in the storm; and the stately
decay of the place was unrelieved by a particle of furniture。
Pemberton's spirits were low; and it came over him that the fortune
of the Moreens was now even lower。 A blast of desolation; a
portent of disgrace and disaster; seemed to draw through the
comfortless hall。 Mr。 Moreen and Ulick were in the Piazza; looking
out for something; strolling drearily; in mackintoshes; under the
arcades; but still; in spite of mackintoshes; unmistakeable men of
the world。 Paula and Amy were in bed … it might have been thought
they were staying there to keep warm。 Pemberton looked askance at
the boy at his side; to see to what extent he was conscious of
these dark omens。 But Morgan; luckily for him; was now mainly
conscious of growing taller and stronger and indeed of being in his
fifteenth year。 This fact was intensely interesting to him and the
basis of a private theory … which; however; he had imparted to his
tutor … that in a little while he should stand on his own feet。 He
considered that the situation would change … that in short he
should be 〃finished;〃 grown up; producible in the world of affairs
and ready to prove himself of sterling ability。 Sharply as he was
capable at times of analysing; as he called it; his life; there
were happy hours when he remained; as he also called it … and as
the name; really; of their right ideal … 〃jolly〃 superficial; the
proof of which was his fundamental assumption that he should
presently go to Oxford; to Pemberton's college; and; aided and
abetted by Pemberton; do the most wonderful things。 It depressed
the young man to see how little in such a project he took account
of ways and means: in other connexions he mostly kept to the
measure。 Pemberton tried to imagine the Moreens at Oxford and
fortunately failed; yet unless they were to adopt it as a residence
there would be no modus vivendi for Morgan。 How could he live
without an allowance; and where was the allowance to come from?
He; Pemberton; might live on Morgan; but how could Morgan live on
HIM? What was to become of him anyhow? Somehow the fact that he
was a big boy now; with better prospects of health; made the
question of his future more difficult。 So long as he was markedly
frail the great consideration he inspired seemed enough of an
answer to it。 But at the bottom of Pemberton's heart was the
recognition of his probably being strong enough to live and not yet
strong enough to struggle or to thrive。 Morgan himself at any rate
was in the first flush of the rosiest consciousness of adolescence;
so that the beating of the tempest seemed to him after all but the
voice of life and the challenge of fate。 He had on his shabby
little overcoat; with the collar up; but was enjoying his walk。
It was interrupted at last by the appearance of his mother at the
end of the sala。 She beckoned him to come to her; and while
Pemberton saw him; complaisant; pass down the long vista and over
the damp false marble; he wondered what was in the air。 Mrs。
Moreen said a word to the boy and made him go into the room she had
quitted。 Then; having closed the door after him; she directed her
steps swiftly