第 6 节
作者:美丽心点      更新:2022-08-21 16:40      字数:9322
  episodes puts to shame the pride of documentary history?
  Providence which saved my MS。 from the Congo rapids brought it to
  the knowledge of a helpful soul far out on the open sea。  It
  would be on my part the greatest ingratitude ever to forget the
  sallow; sunken face and the deep…set; dark eyes of the young
  Cambridge man (he was a 〃passenger for his health〃 on board the
  good ship Torrens outward bound to Australia) who was the first
  reader of 〃Almayer's Folly〃the very first reader I ever had。
  〃Would it bore you very much reading a MS。 in a handwriting like
  mine?〃 I asked him one evening on a sudden impulse at the end of
  a longish conversation whose subject was Gibbon's History。
  Jacques (that was his name) was sitting in my cabin one stormy
  dog…watch below; after bringing me a book to read from his own
  travelling store。
  〃Not at all;〃 he answered with his courteous intonation and a
  faint smile。  As I pulled a drawer open his suddenly aroused
  curiosity gave him a watchful expression。  I wonder what he
  expected to see。  A poem; maybe。  All that's beyond guessing now。
  He was not a cold but a calm man; still more subdued by disease
  a man of few words and of an unassuming modesty in general
  intercourse; but with something uncommon in the whole of his
  person which set him apart from the undistinguished lot of our
  sixty passengers。  His eyes had a thoughtful introspective look。
  In his attractive reserved manner; and in a veiled sympathetic
  voice he asked:
  〃What is this?〃  〃It is a sort of tale;〃 I answered with an
  effort。  〃It is not even finished yet。  Nevertheless I would like
  to know what you think of it。〃  He put the MS。 in the breast…
  pocket of his jacket; I remember perfectly his thin brown fingers
  folding it lengthwise。  〃I will read it tomorrow;〃 he remarked;
  seizing the door…handle; and then; watching the roll of the ship
  for a propitious moment; he opened the door and was gone。  In the
  moment of his exit I heard the sustained booming of the wind; the
  swish of the water on the decks of the Torrens; and the subdued;
  as if distant; roar of the rising sea。  I noted the growing
  disquiet in the great restlessness of the ocean; and responded
  professionally to it with the thought that at eight o'clock; in
  another half…hour or so at the furthest; the top…gallant sails
  would have to come off the ship。
  Next day; but this time in the first dog…watch; Jacques entered
  my cabin。  He had a thick; woollen muffler round his throat and
  the MS。 was in his hand。  He tendered it to me with a steady look
  but without a word。  I took it in silence。  He sat down on the
  couch and still said nothing。  I opened and shut a drawer under
  my desk; on which a filled…up log…slate lay wide open in its
  wooden frame waiting to be copied neatly into the sort of book I
  was accustomed to write with care; the ship's log…book。  I turned
  my back squarely on the desk。  And even then Jacques never
  offered a word。  〃Well; what do you say?〃 I asked at last。  〃Is
  it worth finishing?〃  This question expressed exactly the whole
  of my thoughts。
  〃Distinctly;〃 he answered in his sedate; veiled voice and then
  coughed a little。
  〃Were you interested?〃 I inquired further almost in a whisper。
  〃Very much!〃
  In a pause I went on meeting instinctively the heavy rolling of
  the ship; and Jacques put his feet upon the couch。  The curtain
  of my bed…place swung to and fro as it were a punkah; the
  bulkhead lamp circled in its gimbals; and now and then the cabin
  door rattled slightly in the gusts of wind。  It was in latitude
  40 south; and nearly in the longitude of Greenwich; as far as I
  can remember; that these quiet rites of Almayer's and Nina's
  resurrection were taking place。  In the prolonged silence it
  occurred to me that there was a good deal of retrospective
  writing in the story as far as it went。  Was it intelligible in
  its action; I asked myself; as if already the story…teller were
  being born into the body of a seaman。  But I heard on deck the
  whistle of the officer of the watch and remained on the alert to
  catch the order that was to follow this call to attention。  It
  reached me as a faint; fierce shout to 〃Square the yards。〃
  〃Aha!〃 I thought to myself; 〃a westerly blow coming on。〃  Then I
  turned to my very first reader who; alas! was not to live long
  enough to know the end of the tale。
  〃Now let me ask you one more thing:  is the story quite clear to
  you as it stands?〃
  He raised his dark; gentle eyes to my face and seemed surprised。
  〃Yes!  Perfectly。〃
  This was all I was to hear from his lips concerning the merits of
  〃Almayer's Folly。〃  We never spoke together of the book again。  A
  long period of bad weather set in and I had no thoughts left but
  for my duties; whilst poor Jacques caught a fatal cold and had to
  keep close in his cabin。  When we arrived in Adelaide the first
  reader of my prose went at once up…country; and died rather
  suddenly in the end; either in Australia or it may be on the
  passage while going home through the Suez Canal。  I am not sure
  which it was now; and I do not think I ever heard precisely;
  though I made inquiries about him from some of our return
  passengers who; wandering about to 〃see the country〃 during the
  ship's stay in port; had come upon him here and there。  At last
  we sailed; homeward bound; and still not one line was added to
  the careless scrawl of the many pages which poor Jacques had had
  the patience to read with the very shadows of Eternity gathering
  already in the hollows of his kind; steadfast eyes。
  The purpose instilled into me by his simple and final
  〃Distinctly〃 remained dormant; yet alive to await its
  opportunity。  I dare say I am compelled; unconsciously compelled;
  now to write volume after volume; as in past years I was
  compelled to go to sea voyage after voyage。  Leaves must follow
  upon each other as leagues used to follow in the days gone by; on
  and on to the appointed end; which; being Truth itself; is One
  one for all men and for all occupations。
  I do not know which of the two impulses has appeared more
  mysterious and more wonderful to me。  Still; in writing; as in
  going to sea; I had to wait my opportunity。  Let me confess here
  that I was never one of those wonderful fellows that would go
  afloat in a wash…tub for the sake of the fun; and if I may pride
  myself upon my consistency; it was ever just the same with my
  writing。  Some men; I have heard; write in railway carriages; and
  could do it; perhaps; sitting cross…legged on a clothes…line; but
  I must confess that my sybaritic disposition will not consent to
  write without something at least resembling a chair。  Line by
  line; rather than page by page; was the growth of 〃Almayer's
  Folly。〃
  And so it happened that I very nearly lost the MS。; advanced now
  to the first words of the ninth chapter; in the Friedrichstrasse
  railway station (that's in Berlin; you know); on my way to
  Poland; or more precisely to Ukraine。  On an early; sleepy
  morning changing trains in a hurry I left my Gladstone bag in a
  refreshment…room。  A worthy and intelligent Koffertrager rescued
  it。  Yet in my anxiety I was not thinking of the MS。 but of all
  the other things that were packed in the bag。
  In Warsaw; where I spent two days; those wandering pages were
  never exposed to the light; except once; to candle…light; while
  the bag lay open on a chair。  I was dressing hurriedly to dine at
  a sporting club。  A friend of my childhood (he had been in the
  Diplomatic Service; but had turned to growing wheat on paternal
  acres; and we had not seen each other for over twenty years) was
  sitting on the hotel sofa waiting to carry me off there。
  〃You might tell me something of your life while you are
  dressing;〃 he suggested kindly。
  I do not think I told him much of my life…story either then or
  later。  The talk of the select little party with which he made me
  dine was extremely animated and embraced most subjects under
  heaven; from big…game shooting in Africa to the last poem
  published in a very modernist review; edited by the very young
  and patronised by the highest society。  But it never touched upon
  〃Almayer's Folly;〃 and next morning; in uninterrupted obscurity;
  this inseparable companion went on rolling with me in the south…
  east direction towards the Governmen