Some　Reminiscences
  by　Joseph　Conrad
  A　Familiar　Preface。
  As　a　general　rule　we　do　not　want　much　encouragement　to　talk　about
  ourselves；　yet　this　little　book　is　the　result　of　a　friendly
  suggestion；　and　even　of　a　little　friendly　pressure。　　I　defended
  myself　with　some　spirit；　but；　with　characteristic　tenacity；　the
  friendly　voice　insisted：　　〃You　know；　you　really　must。〃
  It　was　not　an　argument；　but　I　submitted　at　once。　　If　one　must！。　。　。
  You　perceive　the　force　of　a　word。　　He　who　wants　to　persuade
  should　put　his　trust；　not　in　the　right　argument；　but　in　the　right
  word。　　The　power　of　sound　has　always　been　greater　than　the　power
  of　sense。　　I　don't　say　this　by　way　of　disparagement。　　It　is
  better　for　mankind　to　be　impressionable　than　reflective。　　Nothing
  humanely　greatgreat；　I　mean；　as　affecting　a　whole　mass　of
  liveshas　come　from　reflection。　　On　the　other　hand；　you　cannot
  fail　to　see　the　power　of　mere　words；　such　words　as　Glory；　for
  instance；　or　Pity。　　I　won't　mention　any　more。　　They　are　not　far
  to　seek。　　Shouted　with　perseverance；　with　ardour；　with
  conviction；　these　two　by　their　sound　alone　have　set　whole　nations
  in　motion　and　upheaved　the　dry；　hard　ground　on　which　rests　our
  whole　social　fabric。　　There's　〃virtue〃　for　you　if　you　like！。　。　。
  Of　course　the　accent　must　be　attended　to。　　The　right　accent。
  That's　very　important。　　The　capacious　lung；　the　thundering　or　the
  tender　vocal　chords。　　Don't　talk　to　me　of　your　Archimedes'　lever。
  He　was　an　absent…minded　person　with　a　mathematical　imagination。
  Mathematics　command　all　my　respect；　but　I　have　no　use　for
  engines。　　Give　me　the　right　word　and　the　right　accent　and　I　will
  move　the　world。
  What　a　dreamfor　a　writer！　　Because　written　words　have　their
  accent　too。　　Yes！　　Let　me　only　find　the　right　word！　　Surely　it
  must　be　lying　somewhere　amongst　the　wreckage　of　all　the　plaints
  and　all　the　exultations　poured　out　aloud　since　the　first　day　when
  hope；　the　undying；　came　down　on　earth。　　It　may　be　there；　close
  by；　disregarded；　invisible；　quite　at　hand。　　But　it's　no　good。　　I
  believe　there　are　men　who　can　lay　hold　of　a　needle　in　a　pottle　of
  hay　at　the　first　try。　　For　myself；　I　have　never　had　such　luck。
  And　then　there　is　that　accent。　　Another　difficulty。　　For　who　is
  going　to　tell　whether　the　accent　is　right　or　wrong　till　the　word
  is　shouted；　and　fails　to　be　heard；　perhaps；　and　goes　down…wind
  leaving　the　world　unmoved。　　Once　upon　a　time　there　lived　an
  Emperor　who　was　a　sage　and　something　of　a　literary　man。　　He
  jotted　down　on　ivory　tablets　thoughts；　maxims；　reflections　which
  chance　has　preserved　for　the　edification　of　posterity。　　Amongst
  other　sayingsI　am　quoting　from　memoryI　remember　this　solemn
  admonition：　　〃Let　all　thy　words　have　the　accent　of　heroic　truth。〃
  The　accent　of　heroic　truth！　　This　is　very　fine；　but　I　am　thinking
  that　it　is　an　easy　matter　for　an　austere　Emperor　to　jot　down
  grandiose　advice。　　Most　of　the　working　truths　on　this　earth　are
  humble；　not　heroic：　　and　there　have　been　times　in　the　history　of
  mankind　when　the　accents　of　heroic　truth　have　moved　it　to　nothing
  but　derision。
  Nobody　will　expect　to　find　between　the　covers　of　this　little　book
  words　of　extraordinary　potency　or　accents　of　irresistible
  heroism。　　However　humiliating　for　my　self…esteem；　I　must　confess
  that　the　counsels　of　Marcus　Aurelius　are　not　for　me。　　They　are
  more　fit　for　a　moralist　than　for　an　artist。　　Truth　of　a　modest
  sort　I　can　promise　you；　and　also　sincerity。　　That　complete；
  praise…worthy　sincerity　which；　while　it　delivers　one　into　the
  hands　of　one's　enemies；　is　as　likely　as　not　to　embroil　one　with
  one's　friends。
  〃Embroil〃　is　perhaps　too　strong　an　expression。　　I　can't　imagine
  either　amongst　my　enemies　or　my　friends　a　being　so　hard　up　for
  something　to　do　as　to　quarrel　with　me。　　〃To　disappoint　one's
  friends〃　would　be　nearer　the　mark。　　Most；　almost　all；　friendships
  of　the　writing　period　of　my　life　have　come　to　me　through　my
  books；　and　I　know　that　a　novelist　lives　in　his　work。　　He　stands
  there；　the　only　reality　in　an　invented　world；　amongst　imaginary
  things；　happenings；　and　people。　　Writing　about　them；　he　is　only
  writing　about　himself。　　But　the　disclosure　is　not　complete。　　He
  remains　to　a　certain　extent　a　figure　behind　the　veil；　a　suspected
  rather　than　a　seen　presencea　movement　and　a　voice　behind　the
  draperies　of　fiction。　　In　these　personal　notes　there　is　no　such
  veil。　　And　I　cannot　help　thinking　of　a　passage　in　the　〃Imitation
  of　Christ〃　where　the　ascetic　author；　who　knew　life　so　profoundly；
  says　that　〃there　are　persons　esteemed　on　their　reputation　who　by
  showing　themselves　destroy　the　opinion　one　had　of　them。〃　　This　is
  the　danger　incurred　by　an　author　of　fiction　who　sets　out　to　talk
  about　himself　without　disguise。
  While　these　reminiscent　pages　were　appearing　serially　I　was
  remonstrated　with　for　bad　economy；　as　if　such　writing　were　a　form
  of　self…indulgence　wasting　the　substance　of　future　volumes。　　It
  seems　that　I　am　not　sufficiently　literary。　　Indeed　a　man　who
  never　wrote　a　line　for　print　till　he　was　thirty…six　cannot　bring
  himself　to　look　upon　his　existence　and　his　experience；　upon　the
  sum　of　his　thoughts；　sensations　and　emotions；　upon　his　memories
  and　his　regrets；　and　the　whole　possession　of　his　past；　as　only　so
  much　material　for　his　hands。　　Once　before；　some　three　years　ago；
  when　I　published　〃The　Mirror　of　the　Sea；〃　a　volume　of　impressions
  and　memories；　the　same　remarks　were　made　to　me。　　Practical
  remarks。　　But；　truth　to　say；　I　have　never　understood　the　kind　of
  thrift　they　recommended。　　I　wanted　to　pay　my　tribute　to　the　sea；
  its　ships　and　its　men；　to　whom　I　remain　indebted　for　so　much
  which　has　gone　to　make　me　what　I　am。　　That　seemed　to　me　the　only
  shape　in　which　I　could　offer　it　to　their　shades。　　There　could　not
  be　a　question　in　my　mind　of　anything　else。　　It　is　quite　possible
  that　I　am　a　bad　economist；　but　it　is　certain　that　I　am
  incorrigible。
  Having　matured　in　the　surroundings　and　under　the　special
  conditions　of　sea…life；　I　have　a　special　piety　towards　that　form
  of　my　past；　for　its　impressions　were　vivid；　its　appeal　direct；
  its　demands　such　as　could　be　responded　to　with　the　natural
  elation　of　youth　and　strength　equal　to　the　call。　　There　was
  nothing　in　them　to　perplex　a　young　conscience。　　Having　broken
  away　from　my　origins　under　a　storm　of　blame　from　every　quarter
  which　had　the　merest　shadow　of　right　to　voice　an　opinion；　removed
  by　great　distances　from　such　natural　affections　as　were　still
  left　to　me；　and　even　estranged；　in　a　measure；　from　them　by　the
  totally　unintelligible　character　of　the　life　which　had　seduced　me
  so　mysteriously　from　my　allegiance；　I　may　safely　say　that　through
  the　blind　force　of　circumstances　the　sea　was　to　be　all　my　world
  and　the　merchant　service　my　only　home　for　a　long　succession　of
  years。　　No　wonder　then　that　in　my　two　exclusively　sea　books；　〃The
  Nigger　of　the　'Narcissus'〃　and　〃The　Mirror　of　the　Sea〃　（and　in
  the　few　short　sea　stories　like　〃Youth〃　and　〃Typhoon〃）；　I　have
  tried　with　an　almost　filial　regard　to　render　the　vibration　of
  life　in　the　great　world　of　waters；　in　the　hearts　of　the　simple
  men　who　have　for　ages　traversed　its　solitudes；　and　also　that
  something　sentient　which　seems　to　dwell　in　shipsthe　creatures
  of　their　hands　and　the　objects　of　their　care。
  One's　literary　life　must　turn　frequently　for　sustenance　to
  memories　and　seek　discourse　with　the　shades；　unless　one　has　made
  up　one's　mind　to　write　only　in　order　to　reprove　mankind　for　what
  it　is；　or　praise　it　for　what　it　is　not；　orgenerallyto　teach
  it　how　to　behave。　　Being　neither　quarrelsome；　nor　a　flatterer；
  nor　a　sage；　I　have　done　none　of　these　things；　and　I　am　prepared
  to　put　up　serenely　with　the　insignificance　which　attaches　to
  persons　who　are　not　meddlesome　in　some　way　or　other。　But
  resignation　is　not　indifference。　　I　would　not　like　to　be　left
  standing　as　a　mere　spectator　on　the　bank　of　the　great　stream
  carrying　onwards　so　many　lives。　　I　would　fain　claim　for　myself
  the　faculty　of　so　much　insight　as　can　be　expressed　in　a　voice　of
  sympathy　and　compassion。
  It　seems　to　me　that　in　one；　at　least；　authoritative　quarter　of
  criticism　I　am　suspected　of　a　certain　unemotional；　grim
  acceptance　of　facts；　of　what　the　French　would　call　secheresse　du
  coeur。　　Fifteen　years　of　unbroken　silence　befo