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days after; when Flora was making arrangements for going to church; a
moment of confidence came over her; and she said; 〃I did it; Ethel!
I have spoken to Richard。〃
〃I am so glad!〃
〃You were right。 He is as clear as he is kind;〃 said Flora; 〃he
showed me that; for George's sake; I must bear with my present life;
and do the best I can with it; unless some leading comes for an
escape; and that the glare; and weariness; and being spoken well of;
must be taken as punishment for having sought after these things。〃
〃I was afraid he would say so;〃 said Ethel。 〃But you will find
happiness again; Flora dear。〃
〃Scarcelybefore I come to Margaret and to my child;〃 sighed Flora。
〃I suppose it was Mercy that would not let me follow when I wished
it。 I must work till the time of rest comes!〃
〃And your own little Margaret will cheer you!〃 said Ethel; more
hopefully; as she saw Flora bend over her baby with a face that might
one day be bright。
She trusted that patient continuance in well…doing would one day win
peace and joy; even in the dreary world that poor Flora had chosen。
For her own part; Ethel found Flora's practical good sense and
sympathy very useful; in her present need of the counsel she had
always had from Margaret。
The visit to Flora lasted a fortnight; and Ethel was much benefited
by the leisure for reading and the repose after the long nursing;
though; before the end; her refreshed energies began to pine for
Daisy and her hymns; for Aubrey and his Virgil; for Cherry and her
scholars; and; above all; for her father; for; come as often as he
would; it was not papa at home。
On the other hand; Mary was at a loss for Ethel every hour; Richard
was putting off his affairs till Ethel should come home; Miss Bracy
and Blanche longed for her to relieve the schoolroom from the
children; Aubrey could not perform a lesson in comfort with any one
elsenever ended a sum without groaning for Ethel; and sometimes
rode to Abbotstoke for the mere purpose of appealing to her; in
short; no one could get on without her; and the doctor least of all。
Dr。 Spencer; and Mr。 Wilmot; and all his sons and daughters; had done
their best for him; but; in spite of his satisfaction at seeing the
two sisters so happy together; he could not help missing Ethel every
minute; as the very light of his home; and when; at last; Flora
brought her back; she was received with uproarious joy by Aubrey and
Daisy; while the rest of the household felt a revival and refreshment
of spiritsthe first drawing aside of the cloud that had hung over
the winter。 The pearl of their home might be missed every hour; but
they could thankfully rest in the trust that she was a jewel stored
up in safety and peace; to shine as a star for evermore。
A few weeks more; and there were other partings; sad indeed; yet
cheery。 Dr。 May told Mrs。 Arnott that; though he grieved that so
much of sorrow had come to dim her visit; he could not but own that
it was the very time when her coming could be most comforting; and
this; as she truly said; was satisfaction enough for her; besides
that she could not rejoice enough that her arrival had been in time
to see their dear Margaret。 She should carry away most precious
recollections; and she further told Dr。 Spencer that she was far more
comfortable about her brother…in…law; than if she had only known him
in his youthful character; which had seemed so little calculated to
bear sorrow or care。 She looked at him now only to wonder at; and
reverence the change that had been gradually wrought by the
affections placed above。
Norman and his wife went with herthe one grave but hopeful; the
other trying to wile away the pain of parting; by her tearful mirth
making all sorts of odd promises and touching requests; between jest
and earnest; and clinging to the last to her dear father…in…law; as
if the separation from him were the hardest of all。
〃Well; humming…birds must be let fly!〃 said he at last。 〃Ah! ha!
Meta; are they of no use?〃
〃Stay till you hear!〃 said Meta archlythen turning back once more。
〃Oh! how I have thanked you; Ethel; for those first hints you gave me
how to make my life real。 If I had only sat still and wished;
instead of trying what could be done as I was; how unhappy I should
have been!〃
〃Come; take your sprite away; Norman; if you don't want me to keep
her for good! God bless you; my dear children! Good…bye! Who knows
but when Doctor Tom sets up in my place; Ethel and I may come out and
pay you a visit?〃
It had all been over for some weeks; and the home…party had settled
down again into what was likely to be their usual course; excepting
in the holidays; to which the doctor looked forward with redoubled
interest; as Tom was fast becoming a very agreeable and sensible
companion; for his moodiness had been charmed away by Meta; and
principle was teaching him true command of temper。 He seemed to take
his father as a special charge; bequeathed to him by Norman; and had
already acquired that value and importance at home which comes of the
laying aside of all self…importance。
It was a clear evening in March; full of promise of spring; and Ethel
was standing in the church porch at Cocksmoor; after making some
visits in the parish; waiting for Richard; while the bell was ringing
for the Wednesday evening service; and the pearly tints of a
cloudless sunset were fading into the western sky。
Ethel began to wonder where Norman might be looking at the sun
dipping into the western sea; and thence arose before her the visions
of her girlhood; when she had first dreamt of a church on Cocksmoor;
and of Richard ministering before a willing congregation。 So strange
did the accomplishment seem; that she even touched the stone to
assure herself of the reality; and therewith came intense
thanksgiving that the work had been taken out of her hands; to be the
more fully blessed and accomplishedthat is; as far as the building
went; as to the people; there was far more labour in store; and the
same Hand must be looked to for the increase。
For herself; Ethel looked back and looked on。 Norman Ogilvie's
marriage seemed to her to have fixed her lot in life; and what was
that lot? Home and Cocksmoor had been her choice; and they were
before her。 Home! but her eyes had been opened to see that earthly
homes may not endure; nor fill the heart。 Her dear father might;
indeed; claim her full…hearted devotion; but; to him; she was only
one of many。 Norman was no longer solely hers; and she had begun to
understand that the unmarried woman must not seek undivided return of
affection; and must not set her love; with exclusive eagerness; on
aught below; but must be ready to cease in turn to be first with any。
Ethel was truly a mother to the younger ones; but she faced the
probability that they would find others to whom she would have the
second place。 To love each heartily; to do her utmost for each in
turn; and to be grateful for their fondness; was her call; but never
to count on their affection as her sole right and inalienable
possession。 She felt that this was the probable course; and that she
might look to becoming comparatively solitary in the course of years…
…then tried to realise what her lonely life might be; but broke off
smiling at herself; 〃What is that to me? What will it be when it is
over? My course and aim are straight on; and He will direct my
paths。 I don't know that I shall be alone; and I shall have the
memorythe communion with them; if not their presence。 Some one
there must be to be loved and helped; and the poor for certain。 Only
I must have my treasure above; and when I think what is there; and
of Oh! that bliss of being perfectly able to praisewith no bad
old self to mar the full joy of giving thanks; and blessing; and
honour; and power! Need I dread a few short years?and they have
not begun yetperhaps they won't Oh! here is actually papa coming
home this way! how delightful! Papa; are you coming to church here?〃
〃Ay; Ethel。 That weathercock of Spencer's is a magnet; I believe!
It draws me from all parts of the country to hear Richard in St。
Andrew's Church。〃
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