第 177 节
作者:这就是结局      更新:2022-08-21 16:40      字数:9322
  They could not follow her into the valley of the shadow of death; but
  could only watch the frail earthly prison…house being broken down; as
  if the doom of sin must be borne; though faith could trust that it
  was but her full share in the Cross。  Calmly did those days pass。
  Ethel; Richard; and Mary divided between them the watching and the
  household cares; and their father bore up bravely in the fullness of
  his love and faith; resigning her daughter to the Hands which were
  bearing her whither her joys had long since departed。
  Hector Ernescliffe arrived when the holidays began; and his agony of
  sorrow; when she failed to recognise him; moved Dr。 May to exert
  himself earnestly for his consolation; and; at the same time; Tom; in
  a gentle; almost humble manner; paid a sort of daughter…like
  attention to the smallest services for his father; as if already
  accepting him as his especial charge。
  It was midnight; on the longest night of the year; Ethel was lying on
  her bed; and had fallen into a brief slumber; when her father's low;
  clear voice summoned her: 〃Ethel; she is going!〃
  There was a change on the face; and the breath came in labouring
  gasps。  Richard lifted her head; and her eyes once more opened; she
  smiled once more。
  〃Papa!〃 she said; 〃dear papa!〃
  He threw himself on his knees beside her; but she looked beyond him;
  〃Mamma!  Alan! oh; there they are!  More! more!〃 and; as though the
  unspeakable dawned on her; she gasped for utterance; then looked;
  with a consoling smile; on her father。  〃Over now!〃 she saidand the
  last struggle was ended。  That which Richard laid down was no longer
  Margaret May。
  Over now!  The twenty…five years' life; the seven years' captivity on
  her couch; the anxious headship of the motherless household; the
  hopeless betrothal; the long suspense; the efforts for resignation;
  the widowed affections; the slow decay; the tardy; painful death
  agonyall was over; nothing left; save what they had rendered the
  undying spirit; and the impress her example had left on those around
  her。
  The long continuance of the last suffering had softened the actual
  parting; and it was with thankfulness for the cessation of her pain
  that they turned away; and bade each other good…night。
  Ethel would not have believed that her first wakening to the
  knowledge that Margaret was gone could have been more fraught with
  relief than with misery。  And; for her father; it seemed as if it
  were a home…like; comfortable thought to him; that her mother had one
  of her children with her。  He called her the first link of his Daisy
  Chain drawn up out of sight; and; during the quiet days that ensued;
  he seemed as it were to be lifted above grief; dwelling upon hope。
  His calmness impressed the same on his children; as they moved about
  in the solemn stillness of the house; and when Harry; pale; and
  shocked at the blow to him so sudden; came home; the grave silence
  soothed his violence of grief; and he sat beside his; father or Mary;
  speaking in undertones of what Margaret had loved to hear from him;
  of Alan Ernescliffe's last moments。
  Mary gave way to a burst of weeping when she sought; in vain; for
  daisies in the wintry garden; but Hector Ernescliffe went down to the
  cloisters; and brought back the lingering blossoms to be placed on
  Margaret's bosom。
  The dog Toby had followed him; unseen; to the cloister; and he was
  entering the garden; when he was struck by seeing the animal
  bounding; in irrepressible ecstasy; round a lad; whose tarpaulin hat;
  blue…bordered collar; and dark blue dress; showed him to be a sailor;
  as well as the broad…shouldered; grizzled; elderly man; who stood
  beside him。
  〃I say; sir;〃 said the latter; as Hector's hand was on the door; 〃do
  you belong to Dr。 May?〃
  Hector unhesitatingly answered that he did。
  〃Then; maybe; sir; you have heard of one Bill Jennings。〃
  Hector was all in one flush; almost choking; as he told that he was
  Mr。 Ernescliffe's brother; and gave his hand to the sailor。  〃What
  could he do for him?〃
  Jennings had heard from one of the crew of the Bucephalus that Mr。
  May had been met; on his return to Portsmouth; by the news of his
  sister's death。  The Mays had helped his boy; he had been with Mr。
  May in the island; he had laid Mr。 Ernescliffe in his grave; and some
  notion had crossed the sailor that he must be at Miss Margaret's
  funeralit might be they would let him lend a handand; in this
  expedition; he was spending his time on shore。
  How he was welcomed need not be told; nor how the tears came forth
  from full hearts; as Dr。 May granted his wish; and thanked him for
  doing what Margaret herself would indeed have chosen; and; in his
  blue sailor garb; was Jennings added to the bearers; their own men;
  and two Cocksmoor labourers; who; early on Christmas Eve; carried her
  to the minster。  Last time she had been there; Alan Ernescliffe had
  supported her。  Now; what was mortal of him lay beneath the palm
  tree; beneath the glowing summer sky; while the first snow…flakes
  hung like pearls on her pall。  But as they laid her by her mother's
  side; who could doubt that they were together?
  CHAPTER XXVI。
  At length I got unto the gladsome hill;
  Where lay my hope;
  Where lay my heart; and; climbing still;
  When I had gained the brow and top;
  A lake of brackish waters on the ground;
  Was all I found。
  GEORGE HERBERT。
  Late in the evening of the same snowy 24th of December; a little
  daughter awoke to life at Abbotstoke Grange; and; not long after;
  Mrs。 Arnott came to summon Dr May from the anxious vigil in the
  sitting…room。  〃Come and see if you can do anything to soothe her;〃
  she said; with much alarm。  〃The first sight of the baby has put her
  into such a state of agitation; that we do not know what to do with
  her。〃
  It was so; when he came to her bedside; that fixed stony look of
  despair was gone; the source of tears; so long dried up; had opened
  again; and there she lay; weeping quietly indeed; but profusely; and
  with deep heaving sobs。  To speak; or to leave her alone; seemed
  equally perilous; but he chose the firsthe kissed and blessed her;
  and gave her joy。  She looked up at him as if his blessing once more
  brought peace; and said faintly; 〃Now it is pardonnow I can die!〃
  〃The cloud is gone!  Thanks for that above all! said。 Dr。 May
  fervently。  〃Now; my dear; rest in thankful gladnessyou are too
  weak to talk or think。〃
  〃I am weakI am tired of it all;〃 said Flora。  〃I am glad to be
  going while I am so happythere are Margaretmy own darlingrest
  peace〃
  〃You are not going; dearest;〃 said her father; 〃at least; I trust
  not; if you will not give way; here is a darling given to you;
  instead of the first; who needs you more。〃
  He would have taken the infant from the nurse and held her to her
  mother; but; recollecting how little Leonora had drawn her last
  breath in his arms; he feared the association; and signed to Mrs。
  Arnott to show her the child; but she seemed as yet only able to feel
  that it was not Leonora; and the long sealed…up grief would have its
  way。  The tears burst out again。  〃Tell Ethel she will be the best
  mother to her。  Name her Margaretmake her a Daisy of your own
  don't call her after me;〃 she said; with such passionate caresses;
  that Mrs。 Arnott was glad to take the babe away。
  Dr。 May's next expedient was to speak to her of her husband; who
  needed her more than all; and to call him in。  There seemed to be
  something tranquillising in his wistful manner of repeating; 〃Don't
  cry; Flora;〃 and she was at last reduced; by her extreme exhaustion;
  to stillness; but there were still many fears for her。
  Dr。 May's prediction was accomplishedthat she would suffer for
  having over…exerted herself。  Her constitution had been severely
  tried by the grief and despondency that she had so long endured in
  silence; and the fresh sorrow for her favourite sister coming at such
  a crisis。  There was a weariness of life; and an unwillingness to
  resume her ordinary routine; that made her almost welcome her
  weakness and sinking; and now that the black terror had cleared away
  from the future; she seemed to long to follow Margaret at once; and
  to yearn after her lost child; while appeals to the affection that
  surrounded her often seemed to oppress her; as if there were nothing
  but weariness and toil in store。
  The state of her mind made her father very anxious; though it was but
  too well accounted for。  Poor Flora had voluntarily assumed the
  trammels that galled her; worldly motives had prompted her marriage;
  and though she faithfully loved her husband; he was a heavy weight on
  her hands; and she had made it more onerous by thrusting him into a
  position for which he was not calculated; and inspiring him with a
  self…consequence that would not recede from it。  The shock of her
  child's death had taken away the zest and energy which had rejoiced
  in her chosen way of life; and opened her eyes to see what Master she
  had been serving; and the perception of the hollowness of all that
  had been apparently good in her; had filled her with remorse and
  despair。  Her sufferings had been the more bitter because she had not
  parted wi