第 174 节
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  childhood; he writes as if he were perfectly contented; and saw every
  chance of happiness。〃
  〃None the less for having followed his father's wishesI am glad he
  did;〃 said Ethel; coming to her brother's side。
  〃I dare say you are right;〃 was Meta's answer; 〃but I am disappointed
  in him。  He always promised to come and stay with you; and made such
  friends at Oxford; and he never came。〃
  〃I fancy there was a good deal to hinder him;〃 said Norman; and; as
  Mrs。 Arnott proceeded to inquiries after the Ogilvies in general; the
  master of Glenbracken was allowed to drop。
  Meta; however; renewed the subject when walking to the minster that
  evening with Norman。
  〃You may defend Mr。 Ogilvie; Norman; but it is not what I should have
  expected from him。  Why did he make promises; and then neglect his
  relations?〃
  〃I believe that conscientiously he did not dare to come;〃 said
  Norman。  〃I know that he was greatly struck with Ethel at the time of
  the Commemoration; and therefore I could never again press him to
  come here。〃
  〃Oh; Norman; you hard…hearted monster!  What a bad conductor!〃
  〃I do not wish to be a conductor;〃 said Norman。  〃If you had seen
  Glenbracken and the old people; you would perceive that it would not
  have been suitable on our part to promote anything of the kind。〃
  〃Would they have been so violent?〃
  〃Not violent; but it would have been a severe struggle。  They are
  good; kind people; but with strong prejudices; and; though I have no
  doubt they would have yielded to steady attachment on their son's
  part; and such conduct as Ethel's would have been; I could not lead
  in that direction。〃
  〃Is that pride; Norman?〃
  〃I hope not。〃
  〃It is doing by others as you were doing by yourself;〃 half whispered
  Meta; 〃but; after all; if he had no constancy; Ethel had an escape。〃
  〃I was afraid that she had been rather touched; but I am glad to find
  myself mistaken。〃
  〃If you thought so; how could you make such a public announcement?〃
  He laughed。  〃I had made myself so nervous as to the effect; that; in
  desperation; I took her own way; and came out at once with it as
  unconsciously as I could。〃
  〃Very naturally you acted unconsciousness!  It was better than
  insulting her by seeming to condole。  Not that I do; though; for she
  deserves more steadiness than he has shown!  If a man could
  appreciate her at all; I should have thought that it would have been
  once and for ever。〃
  〃Remember; he had barely known her a fortnight; and probably had no
  reason to believe that he had made any impression on her。  He knew
  how such an attachment would grieve his parents; and; surely; he was
  acting dutifully; and with self…denial and consideration; in not
  putting himself in the way of being further attracted。〃
  〃Umph!  You make a good defence; Norman; but I cannot forgive him for
  marrying somebody else; who cannot be Ethel's equal。〃
  〃She is a good little girl; he will form her; and be very happy;
  perhaps more so than with a great soul and strong nature like
  Ethel's。〃
  〃Only he is a canny Scot; and not a Dr。 Spencer!〃
  〃Too short acquaintance! besides; there were the parents。  Moreover;
  what would become of home without Ethel?〃
  〃The unanswerable argument to make one contented;〃 said Meta。  And;
  certainly; to be wife to a Member of Parliament is not so very
  delightful that one would covet it for her。〃
  〃Any more than she does for herself。〃
  Norman was right in his view of his friend's motives; as well as of
  Ethel's present feelings。  If there had ever been any disappointment
  about Norman Ogilvie; it had long since faded away。  She had never
  given away the depths of her heart; though the upper surface had been
  stirred。  All had long subsided; and she could think freely of him as
  an agreeable cousin; in whose brilliant public career she should
  always be interested; without either a wish to partake it; or a sense
  of injury or neglect。  She had her vocation; in her father; Margaret;
  the children; home; and Cocksmoor; her mind and affections were
  occupied; and she never thought of wishing herself elsewhere。
  The new church and the expected return of her sisters engrossed many
  more of her thoughts than did anything relating to Glenbracken。
  She could not bear to talk of Flora; though almost as uneasy as was
  Margaret; and not able to lay aside misgivings; lest even her good
  simple Mary might have had her head turned by gaiety。
  Mr。 and Mrs。 Rivers arrived on the Saturday before the Tuesday fixed
  for the consecration; and stopped on their way; that they might see
  Margaret; deposit Mary; and resume Meta。
  It was a short visit; and all that Ethel could discover was; that
  Flora was looking very ill; no longer able to conceal the worn and
  fagged expression of her countenance; and evidently dreadfully
  shocked by the sight of the havoc made by disease on Margaret's
  frame。  Yet she talked with composure of indifferent subjectsthe
  yacht; the visits; the Bucephalus; the church; and the arrangements
  for St。 Andrew's Day。  She owned herself overworked; and in need of
  rest; and; as she was not well enough to venture on being present at
  the consecration; she undertook to spend the day with Margaret; thus
  setting the others at liberty。  This settled; she took her leave; for
  the journey had fatigued her greatly。
  During the short visit; Mary had moved and spoken so quietly; and
  looked so well…dressed and young…lady…like; that; in spite of her
  comfortable plump cheeks; Ethel felt quite afraid!
  But the instant the carriage had driven off; there was a skipping; a
  hugging; a screaming; 〃Oh; it is so nice to be at home again!〃and
  Ethel knew she had her own Mary。  It was only a much better looking
  and more mannerly Mary; in the full bloom of seventeen; open and
  honest…faced; her profuse light hair prettily disposed; her hands and
  arms more civilised; and her powers of conversation and self…
  possession developed。  Mary…like were her caresses of Gertrude; Mary…
  like her inquiries for Cocksmoor; Mary…like her insisting on bringing
  her boxes into Margaret's room; her exulting exhibition of all the
  pretty things that Flora and George had given to her; and the still
  more joyous bestowal of presents upon everybody。
  Her tastes were not a whit altered; nor her simplicity diminished。
  If she was pleased by joining a large dinner…party; her satisfaction
  was in the amusement of seeing well…dressed people; and a grand
  table; her knowledge of the world only reached to pronouncing
  everything unlike home; 〃so funny;〃 she had relished most freshly and
  innocently every pleasure that she could understand; she had learned
  every variety of fancy work to teach Blanche and Miss Bracy; had been
  the delight of every schoolroom and nursery; had struck up numberless
  eternal friendships; and correspondences with girls younger and shyer
  than herself; and her chief vexations seemed to have been first; that
  Flora insisted on her being called Miss May; secondly; that all her
  delights could not be shared by every one at home; and thirdly; that
  poor Flora could not bear to look at little children。
  Grievous complaints were preferred by the dwellers in the attics the
  next morning; that Mary and Blanche had talked to an unmentionable
  hour of the night; but; on the whole; Blanche was rather doubtful
  whether Mary had made the most of her opportunities of observation。
  CHAPTER XXV。
  Behold; with pearls they glittering stand;
  Thy peaceful gates to all expand;
  By grace and strength divinely shed;
  Each mortal thither may be led;
  Who; kindled by Christ's love; will dare
  All earthly sufferings now to bear。
  By many a salutary stroke;
  By many a weary blow; that broke;
  Or polished; with a workman's skill;
  The stones that form that glorious pile;
  They all are fitly framed to lie
  In their appointed place on high。
  Ancient Hymn for the Dedication of a Church。
  The thirtieth of November dawned with the grave brightness of an
  autumn day; as the sun slowly mounted from the golden east; drinking
  up the mists that rose tardily; leaving the grass thickly bedewed。
  The bells of Stoneborough Minster were ringing gladsome peals; and
  the sunshine had newly touched the lime trees; whose last bright
  yellow leaves were gently floating down; as the carriage; from the
  Grange; drew up at Dr。 May's door。
  Norman opened it; to claim Meta at once for the walk; Mrs。 Arnott and
  Mary had gone on to assist Richard in his final arrangements; but
  even before Cocksmoor; with Ethel; was now the care of Margaret; and
  she had waited with her father to keep all bustle from her room; and
  to commit her into the charge of Flora and of nurse。  Ethel seemed
  quite unwilling to go。  There was that strange oppressed feeling on
  her as if the attainment of her wishes were joy too great to be real…
  …as if she would fain hold off from it at the climax; and linger with
  the sister who had shared all with her; and to whom that church was
  even more than to herself。  She came back; and back again; with fresh
  injunctions; sometimes forgetting the very purpose of her return; as
  if it had been only an excuse for looking at Margaret's countenance;
  and drinking in her sympathy from her face; bu