第 165 节
作者:这就是结局      更新:2022-08-21 16:40      字数:9322
  indeed。〃
  He faced suddenly towards her 〃Meta; Meta! is it possible?  Do you
  know what you are saying?〃
  〃I think I do。〃
  〃You must understand me;〃 said Norman; striving to speak calmly。 〃You
  have beenwords will not express what you have been to me for years
  past; but I thought you too far beyond my hopes。  I knew I ought to
  be removed from youI believed that those who are debarred from
  earthly happiness are marked for especial tasks。  I never intended
  you to know what actuated me; and now the work is undertaken; and
  and I cannot turn back;〃 he added quickly; as if fearing himself。
  〃No indeed;〃 was her steady reply。
  〃Then I may believe it!〃 cried Norman。  〃You doyou willyou
  deliberately choose to share it with me?〃
  〃I will try not to be a weight on you;〃 answered the young girl; with
  a sweet mixture of resolution and humility。  〃It would be the
  greatest possible privilege。  I really do not think I am a fine lady
  ingrain; and you will teach me not to be too unworthy。〃
  〃I?  Oh; Meta; you know not what I am!  Yet with you; with you to
  inspire; to strengthen; to cheerMeta; Meta; life is so much changed
  before me; that I cannot understand it yetafter the long dreary
  hopelessness〃
  〃I can't think why〃 Meta had half said; when feminine dignity
  checked the words; consciousness and confusion suddenly assailed her;
  dyed her cheeks crimson; and stifled her voice。
  It was the same with Norman; and bashfulness making a sudden prey of
  bothon they went under its dominion; in a condition partaking
  equally of discomfort and felicity; dreading the sound of their own
  voices; afraid of each other's faces; feeling they were treating each
  other very strangely and ungratefully; yet without an idea what to
  say next; or the power of speaking first; and therefore pacing
  onwards; looking gravely straight along the path; as if to prevent
  the rabbits and foxgloves from guessing that anything had been
  passing between them。
  Dr。 May had made his call at Drydale; and was driving up a rough
  lane; between furzy banks; leading to Cocksmoor; when he was aware of
  a tall gentleman on one side of the road and a little lady on the
  other; with the whole space of the cart…track between them; advancing
  soberly towards him。
  〃Hallo!  Why; Meta!  Norman! what brings you here?  Where are you
  going?〃
  Norman perceived that he had turned to the left instead of to the
  right; and was covered with shame。
  〃That is all your wits are good for。  It is well I met you; or you
  would have led poor Meta a pretty dance!  You will know better than
  to trust yourself to the mercies of a scholar another time。  Let me
  give you a lift。〃
  The courteous doctor sprang out to hand Meta in; but something made
  him suddenly desire Adams to drive on; and then turning round to the
  two young people; he said; 〃Oh!〃
  〃Yes;〃 said Norman; taking her hand; and drawing her towards him。
  〃What; Meta; my pretty one; is it really so?  Is he to be happy after
  all?  Are you to be a Daisy of my own?〃
  〃If you will let me;〃 murmured Meta; clinging to her kind old friend。
  〃No flower on earth could come so naturally to us;〃 said Dr。 May。
  〃And; dear child; at last I may venture to tell you that you have a
  sanction that you will value more than mine。  Yes; my dear; on the
  last day of your dear father's life; when some foreboding hung upon
  him; he spoke to me of your prospects; and singled out this very
  Norman as such as he would prefer。〃
  Meta's tears prevented all; save the two little words; 〃thank you;〃
  but she put out her hand to Norman; as she still rested on the
  doctor's arm; more as if he had been her mother than Norman's father。
  〃Did he?〃 from Norman; was equally inexpressive of the almost
  incredulous gratitude and tenderness of his feeling。
  It would not bear talking over at that moment; and Dr。 May presently
  broke the silence in a playful tone。 〃So; Meta; good men don't like
  heiresses?〃
  〃Quite true;〃 said Meta; 〃it was very much against me。〃
  〃Or it may be the other way;〃 said Norman。
  〃Eh?  Good men don't like heiresseshere's a man who likes an
  heiresstherefore here's a man that is not good?  Ah; ha! Meta; you
  can see that is false logic; though I've forgotten mine。  And pray;
  miss; what are we to say to your uncle?〃
  〃He cannot help it;〃 said Meta quickly。
  〃Ha!〃 said the doctor; laughing; 〃we remember our twenty…one years;
  do we?〃
  〃I did not meanI hope I said nothing wrong;〃 said Meta; in blushing
  distress。  〃Only after what you said; I can care for nothing else。〃
  〃If I could only thank him;〃 said Norman fervently。
  〃I believe you know how to do that; my boy;〃 said Dr。 May; looking
  tenderly at the fairy figure between them; and ending with a sigh;
  remembering; perhaps; the sense of protection with which he had felt
  another Margaret lean on his arm。
  The clatter of horses' hoofs caused Meta to withdraw her hand; and
  Norman to retreat to his own side of the lane; as Sir Henry
  Walkinghame and his servant overtook them。
  〃We will be in good time for the proceedings;〃 called out the doctor。
  〃Tell them we are coming。〃
  〃I did not know you were walking;〃 said Sir Henry to Meta。
  〃It is pleasant in the plantations;〃 Dr。 May answered for her; 〃but I
  am afraid we are late; and our punctual friends will be in despair。
  Will you kindly say we are at hand?〃
  Sir Henry rode on; finding that he was not to be allowed to walk his
  horse with them; and that Miss Rivers had never looked up。
  〃Poor Sir Henry!〃 said Dr。 May。
  〃He has no right to be surprised;〃 said Meta; very low。
  〃And so you were marching right upon Drydale!〃 continued Dr。 May; not
  able to help laughing。  〃It was a happy dispensation that I met you。〃
  〃Oh; I am so glad of it!〃 said Meta。
  〃Though to be sure you were disarming suspicion by so cautiously
  keeping the road between you。  I should never have guessed what you
  had been at。〃
  There was a little pause; then Meta said; rather tremulously;
  〃PleaseI think it should be known at once。〃
  〃Our idle deeds confessed without loss of time; miss?〃
  Norman came across the path; saying; 〃Meta is rightit should be
  known。〃
  〃I don't think Uncle Cosham would object; especially hearing it while
  he is here;〃 said Meta 〃and if he knew what you told us。〃
  〃He goes to…morrow; does he not?〃 said Dr。 May。
  A silence of perplexity ensued。  Meta; brave as she was; hardly knew
  her uncle enough to volunteer; and Norman was privately devising a
  beginning by the way of George; when Dr。 May said; 〃Well; since it is
  not a case for putting Ethel in the forefront; I must e'en get it
  over for you; I suppose。〃
  〃Oh; thank you;〃 they cried both at once; feeling that he was the
  proper person in every way; and Norman added; 〃The sooner the better;
  if Meta〃
  〃Oh; yes; yes; the sooner the better;〃 exclaimed Meta。  〃And let me
  tell Florapoor dear Florashe is always so kind。〃
  A testimony that was welcome to Dr。 May; who had once; at least; been
  under the impression that Flora courted Sir Henry's attentions to her
  sister…in…law。
  Further consultation was hindered by Tom and Blanche bursting upon
  them from the common; both echoing Norman's former reproach of 〃A
  pretty guide!〃 and while Blanche explained the sufferings of all the
  assembly at their tardiness; Tom; without knowing it; elucidated what
  had been a mystery to the doctor; namely; how they ever met; by his
  indignation at Norman's having assumed the guidance for which he was
  so unfit。
  〃A shocking leader; Meta will never trust him again;〃 said Dr。 May。
  Still Blanche thought them not nearly sufficiently sensible of their
  enormities; and preached eagerly about their danger of losing
  standing…room; when they emerged on the moor; and beheld a crowd;
  above whose heads rose the apex of a triangle; formed by three poles;
  sustaining a rope and huge stone。
  〃Here comes Dr。 Spencer;〃 she said。  〃I hope he will scold you。〃
  Whatever Dr。 Spencer might have suffered; he was far too polite to
  scold; and a glance between the two physicians ended in a merry
  twinkle of his bright eyes。
  〃This way;〃 he said; 〃we are all ready。〃
  〃But where's my little Daisy?〃 said Dr。 May。
  〃You'll see her in a minute。  She is as good as gold。〃
  He drew them on up the bankpeople making way for themtill he had
  stationed them among the others of their own party; beside the deep
  trench that traced the foundation; around a space that seemed far too
  small。
  Nearly at the same moment began the soft clear sound of chanting
  wafted upon the wind; then dying awaycarried off by some eddying
  breeze; then clear; and coming nearer and nearer。
  I will not suffer mine eyes to sleep;
  Nor mine eye…lids to slumber:
  Neither the temples of my head to take any rest;
  Until I find out a place for the temple of the Lord:
  An habitation for the mighty God of Jacob。
  Few; who knew the history of Cocksmoor; could help glancing towards
  the slight girl; who stood; with bent head; her hand clasped over
  little Aubrey's; while; all that was not prayer and thanksgiving in
  her mind; was applying the words to him; whose head rested in the
  Pacific isle; while; in the place whi