第 159 节
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Mr。 Wllmot。
The burial; however; failed to bring any peaceful comfort to the
mourning mother。 Meta's tears flowed freely; as much for her father
as for her little niece; and George's sobs were deep and choking; but
Flora; externally; only seemed absorbed in helping him to go through
with it; she; herself; never lost her fixed; composed; hopeless look。
After her return; she went up to the nursery; and deliberately set
apart and locked up every possession of her child's; then; coming
down; startled Meta by laying her hand on her shoulder and saying;
〃Meta; dear; Preston is in the housekeeper's room。 Will you go and
speak to her for a moment; to reassure her before I come?〃
〃Oh; Flora!〃
〃I sent for her;〃 said Flora; in answer。 〃I thought it would be a
good opportunity while George is out。 Will you be kind enough to
prepare her; my dear?〃
Meta wondered how Flora had known whither to send; but she could not
but obey。 Poor Preston was an ordinary sort of woman; kind…hearted;
and not without a conscience; but her error had arisen from the want
of any high religious principle to teach her obedience; or sincerity。
Her grief was extreme; and she had been so completely overcome by the
forbearance and consideration shown to her; that she was even more
broken…hearted by the thought of them; than by the terrible calamity
she had occasioned。
Kind…hearted Mrs。 Larpent had tried to console her; as well as to
turn the misfortune to the best account; and Dr。 May had once seen
her; and striven gently to point out the true evil of the course she
had pursued。 She was now going to her home; and they augured better
of her; that she had been as yet too utterly downcast to say one word
of that first thought with a servant; her character。
Meta found her sobbing uncontrollably at the associations of her
master's house; and dreadfully frightened at hearing that she was to
see Mrs。 Rivers; she began to entreat to the contrary with the
vehemence of a person unused to any self…government; but; in the
midst; the low calm tones were heard; and her mistress stood before
herher perfect stillness of demeanour far more effective in
repressing agitation; than had been Meta's coaxing attempts to
soothe。
〃You need not be afraid to see me; Preston;〃 said Flora kindly。 〃I
am very sorry for youyou knew no better; and I should not have left
so much to you。〃
〃Oh; ma'amso kindthe dear; dear little darlingI shall never
forgive myself。〃
〃I know you did love her;〃 continued Flora。 〃I am sure you intended
no harm; and it was my leaving her that made her fretful。〃
Preston tried to thank。
〃Only remember henceforth〃and the clear tone grew fainter than ever
with internal anguish; though still steady〃remember strict
obedience and truth henceforth; the want of them will have worse
results by and by than even this。 Now; Preston; I shall always wish
you well。 I ought not; I believe; to recommend you to the like
place; without saying why you left me; but for any other I will give
you a fair character。 I will see what I can do for you; and if you
are ever in any distress; I hope you will let me know。 Have your
wages been paid?〃
There was a sound in the affirmative; but poor Preston could not
speak。 〃Good…bye; then;〃 and Flora took her hand and shook it。
〃Mind you let me hear if you want help。 Keep this。〃
Meta was a little disappointed to see sovereigns instead of a book。
Flora turned to go; and put her hand out to lean on her sister as for
support; she stood still to gather strength before ascending the
stairs; and a groan of intense misery was wrung from her。
〃Dearest Flora; it has been too much!〃
〃No;〃 said Flora gently。
〃Poor thing; I am glad for her sake。 But might she not have a book
a Bible?〃
〃You may give her one; if you like。 I could not。〃
Flora reached her own room; went in; and bolted the door。
CHAPTER XXI。
Oh; where dwell ye; my ain sweet bairns?
I'm woe and weary grown!
Oh; Lady; we live where woe never is;
In a land to flesh unknown。ALLAN CUNNINGHAM。
It had been with a gentle sorrow that Etheldred had expected to go
and lay in her resting…place; the little niece; who had been kept
from the evil of the world; in a manner of which she had little
dreamt。 Poor Flora! she must be ennobled; she thought; by having a
child where hers is; when she is able to feel anything but the first
grief; and Ethel's heart yearned to be trying; at least; to comfort
her; and to be with her father; who had loved his grandchild so
fondly。
It was not to be。 Margaret had borne so many shocks with such
calmness; that Ethel had no especial fears for her; but there are
some persons who have less fortitude for others than for themselves;
and she was one of these。 Ethel had been her own companion…sister;
and the baby had been the sunbeam of her life; during the sad winter
and spring。
In the middle of the night; Ethel knocked at Richard's door。
Margaret had been seized with faintness; from which they could not
bring her back; and; even when Richard had summoned Dr。 Spencer; it
was long ere his remedies took effect; but; at last; she revived
enough to thank them; and say she was glad that papa was not there。
Dr。 Spencer sent them all to bed; and the rest of the night was
quiet; but Margaret could not deny; in the morning; that she felt
terribly shattered; and she was depressed in spirits to a degree such
as they had never seen in her before。 Her whole heart was with
Flora; she was unhappy at being at a distance from her; almost
fretfully impatient for letters; and insisting vehemently on Ethel's
going to London。
Ethel had never felt so helpless and desolate; as with Margaret thus
changed and broken; and her father absent。
〃My dear;〃 said Dr。 Spencer; 〃nothing can be better for both parties
than that he should be away。 If he were here; he ought to leave all
attendance to me; and she would suffer from the sight of his
distress。〃
〃I cannot think what he will do or feel!〃 sighed Ethel。
〃Leave it to me。 I will write to him; and we shall see her better
before post time。〃
〃You will tell him exactly how it was; or I shall;〃 said Ethel
abruptly; not to say fiercely。
〃Ho! you don't trust me?〃 said Dr。 Spencer; smiling; so that she was
ashamed of her speech。 〃You shall speak for yourself; and I for
myself; and I shall say that nothing would so much hurt her as to
have others sacrificed to her。〃
〃That is true;〃 said Ethel; 〃but she misses papa。〃
〃Of course she does; but; depend on it; she would not have him leave
your sister; and she is under less restraint without him。〃
〃I never saw her like this!〃
〃The drop has made it overflow。 She has repressed more than was good
for her; and now that her guard is broken down; she gives way under
the whole weight。〃
〃Poor Margaret! I am pertinacious; but; if she is not better by post
time; papa will not bear to be away。〃
〃I'll tell you what I think of her by that time。 Send up your
brother Richard; if you wish to do her good。 Richard would be a much
better person to write than yourself。 I perceive that he is the
reasonable member of the family。〃
〃Did not you know that before?〃
〃All I knew of him; till last night; was; that no one could; by any
possibility; call him Dick。〃
Dr。 Spencer was glad to have dismissed Ethel smiling; and she was the
better able to bear with poor Margaret's condition of petulance。 She
had never before experienced the effects of bodily ailments on the
temper; and she was slow to understand the change in one usually so
patient and submissive。 She was; by turns; displeased with her
sister and with her own abruptness; but; though she knew it not; her
bluntness had a bracing effect。 She thought she had been cross in
declaring it was nonsense to harp on her going to London; but it made
Margaret feel that she had been unreasonable; and keep silence。
Richard managed her much better; being gentle and firm; and less
ready to speak than Ethel; and he succeeded in composing her into a
sleep; which restored her balance; and so relieved Ethel; that she
not only allowed Dr。 Spencer to say what he pleased; but herself made
light of the whole attack; little knowing how perilous was any shock
to that delicate frame。
Margaret's whole purpose was to wind herself up for the first
interview with Flora; and though she had returned to her usual state;
she would not go downstairs on the evening the party were expected;
believing it would be more grateful to her sister's feelings to meet
her without witnesses。
The travellers arrived; and Dr。 May hurried up to her。 She barely
replied to his caresses and inquiries in her eagerness to hear of
Flora; and to convince him that he must not forbid the meeting。 Nor
had he any mind so to do。 〃Surely;〃 said he; when he had seen the
spiritualised look of her glistening blue eyes; the flush on her
transparent cheeks; and her hands clasped over her breast 〃surely
poor Flora must feel as though an angel were waiting to comfort her。〃
Flora came; but there was sore disappointment。 Fond and tender she
was as ever; but; neither by word or gesture; would she admit the
most r