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undertook to tell the whole truth; and he perceived that it was;
indeed; the truth。 She had not known that the cordial was injurious;
deeming it a panacea against fretfulness; precious to nurses; but
against which ladies always had a prejudice; and; therefore; to be
kept secret。 Poor little Leonora had been very fretful and uneasy
when Flora's many avocations had first caused her to be set aside;
and Preston had had recourse to the remedy which; lulling her
successfully; was applied with less moderation and judgment than
would have been shown by a more experienced person; till gradually
the poor child became dependent on it for every hour of rest。 When
her mother; at last; became aware of her unsatisfactory condition;
and spent her time in watching her; the nurse being prevented from
continuing her drug; she was; of course; so miserable without it;
that Preston had ventured on proposing it; to which Mrs。 Rivers had
replied with displeasure sufficient to prevent her from declaring how
much she had previously given。 Preston was in an agony of distress
for her little charge; as well as of fear for herself; and could
hardly understand what her error had been。 Dr。 May soon saw that;
though not highly principled; her sorrow was sincere; and that she
still wept bitterly over the consequences of her treatment; when he
told her that she had nothing to fear from the law; and that he would
protect her from Mr。 Rivers。
Her confession was hardly over when Meta knocked at the door; pale
and frightened。 〃Oh; Dr。 May; do come to poor Flora! I don't know
what to do; and George is in such a state!〃
Dr。 May made a sound of sorrow and perplexity; and Meta; as she went
down before him; asked; in a low; horror…stricken whisper; 〃Did
Preston really〃
〃Not knowingly;〃 said Dr。 May。 〃It is the way many children have
gone; but I never thought〃
They had come to Flora's dressing…room。 Her bedroom door was open;
and George was pacing heavily up and down the length of both
apartments; fiercely indignant。 〃Well!〃 said he; advancing eagerly
on Dr。 May; 〃has she confessed?〃
〃But Flora!〃 said Dr。 May; instead of answering him。 Flora lay on
her bed; her face hidden on her pillow; only now and then moaning。
〃Flora; my poor; poor child!〃 said her father; bending down to raise
her; and taking her hand。
She moved away; so as to bury her face more completely; but there was
life in the movement; and he was sufficiently reassured on her
situation to be able to attend to George; who was only impatient to
rush off to take his revenge。 He led him into the outer room; where
Meta was waiting; and forced upon his unwilling conviction that it
was no case for the law。 The child had not been killed by any one
dose; but had rather sunk from the want of stimulus; to which she had
been accustomed。 As to any pity for the woman; George would not hear
of it。 She was still; in his eyes; the destroyer of bis child; and;
when he found the law would afford him no vengeance; he insisted that
she should be turned out of his house at once。
〃George!〃 called a hollow voice from the next room; and hurrying
back; they saw Flora sitting up; and; as well as trembling limbs
allowed; endeavouring to rise to her feet; while burning spots were
in her cheeks。
〃George; turn me out of the house too! If Preston killed her; I
did!〃 and she gave a ghastly laugh。
George threw his arms round her; and laid her on her bed again; with
many fond words; and strength which she had not power to withstand。
Dr。 May; in the meantime; spoke quickly to Meta in the doorway。 〃She
must go。 They cannot see her again; but has she any friends in
London?〃
〃I think not。〃
〃Find out。 She must not be sent adrift。 Send her to the Grange; if
nothing better offers。 You must judge。〃
He felt that he could confide in Meta's discretion and promptitude;
and returned to the parents。
〃Is she gone?〃 said George; in a whisper; which he meant should be
unheard by his wife; who had sunk her face in her pillows again。
〃Going。 Meta is seeing to it。〃
〃And that woman gets off free!〃 cried George; 〃while my poor little
girl〃 and; no longer occupied by the hope of retribution; he gave
way to an overpowering burst of grief。
His wife did not rouse herself to comfort him; but still lay
motionless; excepting for a convulsive movement that passed over her
frame at each sound from him; and her father felt her pulse bound at
the same time with corresponding violence; as if each of his deep…
drawn sobs were a mortal thrust。 Going to him; Dr。 May endeavoured
to repress his agitation; and lead him from the room; but he could
not; at first; prevail on him to listen or understand; still less; to
quit Flora。 The attempt to force on him the perception that his
uncontrolled sorrow was injuring her; and that he ought to bear up
for her sake; only did further harm; for; when he rose up and tried
to caress her; there was the same torpid; passive resistance; the
same burying her face from the light; and the only betrayal of
consciousness in the agonised throbs of her pulse。
He became excessively distressed at being thus repelled; and; at
last; yielded to the impatient signals of Dr。 May; who drew him into
the next room; and; with brief; strong; though most affectionate and
pitying words; enforced on him that Flora's brainnay; her life; was
risked; and that he must leave her alone to his care for the present。
Meta coming back at the same moment; Dr。 May put him in her charge;
with renewed orders to impress on him how much depended on
tranquillity。
Dr。 May went back; with his soft; undisturbing; physician's footfall;
and stood at the side of the bed; in such intense anxiety as those
only can endure who know how to pray; and to pray in resignation and
faith。
All was still in the darkening twilight; but the distant roar of the
world surged without; and a gaslight shone flickering through the
branches of the trees; and fell on the rich dress spread on the
couch; and the ornaments on the toilet…table。 There was a sense of
oppression; and of being pursued by the incongruous world; and Dr。
May sighed to silence all around; and see his poor daughter in the
calm of her own country air; but she had chosen for herself; and here
she lay; stricken down in the midst of the prosperity that she had
sought。
He could hear every respiration; tightened and almost sobbing; and he
was hesitating whether to run the risk of addressing her; when; as if
it had occurred to her suddenly that she was alone and deserted; she
raised up her head with a startled movement; but; as she saw him; she
again hid her face; as if his presence were still more intolerable
than solitude。
〃Flora! my own; my dearestmy poor child! you should not turn from
me。 Do I not carry with me the like self…reproachful conviction?〃
Flora let him turn her face towards him and kiss her forehead。 It
was burning; and he brought water and bathed it; now and then
speaking a few fond; low; gentle words; which; though she did not
respond; evidently had some soothing effect; for she admitted his
services; still; however; keeping her eyes closed; and her face
turned towards the darkest side of the room。 When he went towards
the door; she murmured; 〃Papa!〃 as if to detain him。
〃I am not going; darling。 I only wanted to speak to George。〃
〃Don't let him come!〃 said Flora。
〃Not till you wish it; my dear。〃
George's step was heard; his hand was on the lock; and again Dr。 May
was conscious of the sudden rush of blood through all her veins。 He
quickly went forward; met him; and shut him out; persuading him; with
difficulty; to remain outside; and giving him the occupation of
sending out for an anodynesince the best hope; at present; lay in
encouraging the torpor that had benumbed her crushed faculties。
Her father would not even venture to rouse her to be undressed; he
gave her the medicine; and let her lie still; with as little movement
as possible; standing by till her regular breathings showed that she
had sunk into a sleep; when he went into the other room and found
that George had also forgotten his sorrows in slumber on the sofa;
while Meta sat sadly presiding over the tea equipage。
She came up to meet him; her question expressed in her looks。
〃Asleep;〃 he said; 〃I hope the pulses are quieter。 All depends on
her wakening。〃
〃Poor; poor Flora!〃 said Meta; wiping away her tears。
〃What have you done with the woman?〃
〃I sent her to Mrs。 Larpent's。 I knew she would receive her and keep
her till she could write to her friends。 Bellairs took her; but I
could hardly speak to her〃
〃She did it ignorantly;〃 said Dr。 May。
〃I could never be so merciful and forbearing as you;〃 said Meta。
〃Ah! my dear; you will never have the same cause!〃
They could say no more; for George awoke; and the argument of his
exclusion had to be gone through again。 He could not enter into it
by any means; and when Dr。 May would have made him understand that
poor Flora could not acquit herself of neglect; and that even his
affection was too painful for her in the present state; he broke into
a vehement angry defence of her devotion to h