第 144 节
作者:这就是结局      更新:2022-08-21 16:40      字数:9322
  holding his hand in one of hers; and resting the other on his
  shoulder; and gazing in silence into his face。  Each was stillshe
  was gathering strengthhe dreaded word or look。
  〃Tell me how and where;〃 she said at last。
  〃It was in the Loyalty Isles; it was feverthe exertions for us。
  His head was lying here;〃 and he pointed to his own breast。  〃He sent
  his love to youhe bade me tell you there would be meeting by and
  by; in the haven where he would be。 I laid his head in the grave
  under the great palmI said some of the prayersthere are
  Christians round it。〃
  He said this in short disconnected phrases; often pausing to gather
  voice; but forced to resume; by her inquiring looks and pressure of
  his hand。
  She asked no more。  〃Kiss me;〃 she said; and when he had done so;
  〃Thank you; go down; please; all of you。  You have brought great
  relief。  Thank you。  But I can't talk yet。  You shall tell me the
  rest by and by。〃
  She sent them all away; even Ethel; who would have lingered。
  〃Go to him; dearest。  Let me be alone。  Don't be uneasy。  This is
  peacebut go。〃
  Ethel found Mary and Harry interlaced into one moving figure; and
  Harry greedily asking for his father and Norman; as if famishing for
  the sight of them。  He wanted to set out to seek the former in the
  town; but his movements were too uncertain; and the girls clung to
  the newly…found; as if they could not trust him away from them。  They
  wandered about; speaking; all three at random; without power of
  attending to the answers。  It was enough to see him; and touch him;
  they could not yet care where he had been。
  Dr。 May was in the midst of them ere they were aware。  One look; and
  he flung his arms round his son; but; suddenly letting him go; he
  hurst away; and banged his study door。  Harry would have followed。
  〃No; don't;〃 said Ethel; then; seeing him disappointed; she came
  nearer; and murmured; 〃'He entered into his chamber and'〃
  Harry silenced her with another embrace; but their father was with
  them again; to verify that he had really seen his boy; and ask; alas!
  whether Alan were with Margaret。  The brief sad answer sent him to
  see how it was with her。  She would not let him stay; she said it was
  infinite comfort; and joy was coming; but she would rather be still;
  and not come down till evening。
  Perhaps others would fain have been still; could they have borne an
  instant's deprivation of the sight of their dear sailor; while
  greetings came thickly on him。  The children burst in; having heard a
  report in the town; and Dr。 Spencer waited at the door for the
  confirmation; but when Ethel would have flown out to him; he waved
  his hand; shut the door; and hurried away; as if a word to her would
  have been an intrusion。
  The brothers had been summoned by a headlong apparition of Will Adams
  in Cocksmoor school; shouting that Master Harry was come home; and
  Norman's long legs out…speeding Richard; had brought him back;
  flushed; and too happy for one word; while; 〃Well; Harry;〃 was
  Richard's utmost; and his care for Margaret seemed to overpower
  everything else; as he went up; and was not so soon sent away。
  Words were few downstairs。  Blanche and Aubrey agreed that they
  thought people would have been much happier; but; in fact; the joy
  was oppressive from very newness。  Ethel roamed about; she could not
  sit still without feeling giddy; in the strangeness of the revulsion。
  Her father sat; as if a word would break the blest illusion; and
  Harry stood before each of them in turn; as if about to speak; but
  turned his address into a sudden caress; or blow on the shoulder; and
  tried to laugh。  Little Gertrude; not understanding; the confusion;
  had taken up her station under the table; and peeped out from beneath
  the cover。
  There was more composure as they sat at dinner; and yet there was
  very little talking or eating。  Afterwards Dr。 May and Norman
  exultingly walked away; to show their Harry to Dr。 Spencer and Mr。
  Wilmot; and Ethel would gladly have tried to calm herself; and
  recover the balance of her mind; by giving thanks where they were
  due; but she did not know what to do with her sisters。  Blanche was
  wild; and Mary still in so shaky a state of excitement; that she went
  off into mad laughing; when Blanche discovered that they were in
  mourning for Harry。
  Nothing would satisfy Blanche but breaking in on Margaret; and
  climbing to the top of the great wardrobe to disinter the coloured
  raiment; beseeching that each favourite might be at once put on; to
  do honour to Harry。  Mary chimed in with her; in begging for the
  wedding merinoswould not Margaret wear her beautiful blue?
  〃No; my dear; I cannot;〃 said Margaret gently。
  Mary looked at her and was again in a flood of tears; incoherently
  protesting; together with Ethel; that they would not change。
  〃No; dears;〃 said Margaret。  〃I had rather you did so。  You must not
  be unkind to Harry。  He will not think I do not welcome him。  I am
  only too glad that Richard would not let my impatience take away my
  right to wear this。〃
  Ethel knew that it was for life。
  Mary could not check her tears; and would go on making heroic
  protests against leaving off her black; sobbing the more at each。
  Margaret's gentle caresses seemed to make her worse; and Ethel;
  afraid that Margaret's own composure would be overthrown; exclaimed;
  〃How can you be so silly?  Come away!〃 and rather roughly pulled her
  out of the room; when she collapsed entirely at the top of the
  stairs; and sat crying helplessly。
  〃I can't think what's the use of Harry's coming home;〃 Gertrude was
  heard saying to Richard。  〃It is very disagreeable;〃 whereat Mary
  relapsed into a giggle; and Ethel felt frantic。
  〃Richard!  Richard! what is to be done with Mary?  She can't help it;
  I believe; but this is not the way to treat the mercy that〃
  〃Mary had better go and lie down in her own room;〃 said Richard;
  tenderly and gravely。
  〃Oh; please! please!〃 began Mary; 〃I shall not see him when he comes
  back!〃
  〃If you can't behave properly when he does come;〃 said Richard;
  〃there is no use in being there。〃
  〃Remember; Ritchie;〃 said Ethel; thinking him severe; 〃she has not
  been well this long time。〃
  Mary began to plead; but; with his own pretty persuasive manner; he
  took her by the hand; and drew her into his room; and when he came
  down; after an interval; it was to check Blanche; who would have gone
  up to interrupt her with queries about the perpetual blue merino。  He
  sat down with Blanche on the staircase window…seat; and did not let
  her go till he had gently talked her out of flighty spirits into the
  soberness of thankfulness。
  Ethel; meanwhile; had still done nothing but stray about; long for
  loneliness; find herself too unsteady to finish her letters to Flora
  and Tom; and; while she tried to make Gertrude think Harry a pleasant
  acquisition; she hated her own wild heart; that could not rejoice;
  nor give thanks; aright。
  By and by Mary came down; with her bonnet on; quite quiet now。  〃I am
  going to church with Ritchie;〃 she said。  Ethel caught at the notion;
  and it spread through the house。  Dr May; who just then came in with
  his two sons; looked at Harry; saying; 〃What do you think of it?
  Shall we go; my boy?〃  And Harry; as soon as he understood; declared
  that he should like nothing better。  It seemed what they all needed;
  even Aubrey and Gertrude begged to come; and; when the solemn old
  minster was above their heads; and the hallowed stillness around
  them; the tightened sense of half…realised joy began to find relief
  in the chant of glory。  The voices of the sanctuary; ever uplifting
  notes of praise; seemed to gather together and soften their emotions;
  and agitation was soothed away; and all that was oppressive and
  tumultuous gave place to sweet peace and thankfulness。  Ethel dimly
  remembered the like sense of relief; when her mother had hushed her
  wild ecstasy; while sympathising with her joy。  Richard could not
  trust his voice; but Mr。 Wilmot offered the special thanksgiving。
  Harry was; indeed; 〃at home;〃 and his tears fell fast over his book;
  as he heard his father's 〃Amen;〃 so fervent and so deep; and he gazed
  up and around; with fond and earnest looks; as thoughts and
  resolutions; formed there of old; came gathering thick upon him。  And
  there little Gertrude seemed first to accept him。  She whispered to
  her papa; as they stood up to go away; that it was very good in God
  Almighty to have sent Harry home; and; as they left the cloister; she
  slipped into Harry's hand a daisy from the grave; such a gift as she
  had never carried to any one else; save her father and Margaret; and
  she shrank no longer from being lifted up in his arms; and carried
  home through the twilight street。
  He hurried into the drawing…room; and was heard declaring that all
  was right; for Margaret was on the sofa; but he stopped short;
  grieved at her altered looks。  She smiled as he stooped to kiss her;
  and then made him stand erect; and measure himself against Norman;
  whose height he had almost reached。  The little curly midshipman had
  come back; as nurse said; 〃a fine…growed young man;〃 his rosy cheeks;
  brown and ruddy; and his countenance
  〃You are much more li