第 117 节
作者:这就是结局      更新:2022-08-21 16:40      字数:9322
  he would not hear; and; at the same moment; Mr。 Ogilvie entered the
  room。
  Had Ethel been at home; she would have pondered much over her
  brother's meaninghere she had no leisure。  Not only was she fully
  occupied with the new scenes around her; but her Scottish cousin took
  up every moment open to conversation。  He was older than Norman; and
  had just taken his degree; and he talked with that superior aplomb;
  which a few years bestow at their time of life; without conceit; but
  more hopeful and ambitious; and with higher spirits than his cousin。
  Though industrious and distinguished; he had not avoided society or
  amusement; was a great cricketer and tennis…player; one of the
  〃eight〃 whose success in the boat races was one of Norman's prime
  interests; and he told stories of frolics that reminded Ethel of her
  father's old Cambridge adventures。
  He was a new variety in her eyes; and entertained her greatly。  Where
  the bounds of banter ended; was not easy to define; but whenever he
  tried a little mystification; she either entered merrily into the
  humour; or threw it over with keen wit that he kept constantly on the
  stretch。  They were always discovering odd; unexpected bits of
  knowledge in each other; and a great deal more accordance in views
  and opinions than appealed on the surface; for his enthusiasm usually
  veiled itself in persiflage on hers; though he was too good and
  serious to carry it too far。
  At Blenheim; perhaps he thought he had given an overdose of nonsense;
  and made her believe; as Meta really did; that the Duchess Sarah was
  his model woman; for as they walked in the park in search of Phoebe
  Mayflower's well; he gathered a fern leaf; to show her the
  Glenbracken badge; and talked to her of his home; his mother; and his
  sister Marjorie; and the little church in the rocky glen。  He gave
  the history of the stolen meetings of the little knot of churchmen
  during the days of persecution; and showed a heart descended straight
  from the
  Ogilvie who was 〃out with Montrose;〃 now that the upper structure of
  young England was for a little while put aside。
  After this; she took his jokes much more coolly; and made thrusts
  beneath them; which he seemed to enjoy; and caused him to unfold
  himself the more。  She liked him all the better for finding that he
  thought Norman had been a very good friend to him; and that he
  admired her brother heartily; watching tenderly over his tendencies
  to make himself unhappy。  He confided to her that; much as he
  rejoiced in the defeats of Anderson; he feared that the reading and
  thought consequent on the discussions; had helped to overstrain
  Norman's mind; and he was very anxious to carry him away from all
  study; and toil; and make his brains rest; and his eyes delight
  themselves upon Scottish mountains。
  Thereupon came vivid descriptions of the scenery; especially his own
  glen with the ruined tower; and ardent wishes that his cousin Ethel
  could see them also; and know Marjorie。  She could quite echo the
  wish; Edinburgh and Loch Katrine had been the visions of her life;
  and now that she had once taken the leap and left home; absence did
  not seem impossible; and; with a start of delight; she hailed her own
  conviction that he intended his mother to invite the party to
  Glenbracken。
  After Norman's visit; Mr。 Ogilvie declared that he must come home
  with him and pay his long…promised visit to Stoneborough。  He should
  have come long ago。  He had been coming last winter; but the wedding
  had prevented him; he had always wished to know Dr。 May; whom his
  father well remembered; and now nothing should keep him away!
  Flora looked on amused and pleased at Ethel's developmenther
  abruptness softened into piquancy; and her countenance so
  embellished; that the irregularity only added to the expressiveness。
  There was no saying what Ethel would come to!  She had not said that
  she would not go to the intended ball; and her grimaces at the
  mention of it were growing fainter every day。
  The discussion about Harvey Anderson was never revived; Flora sent
  the invitation without another wordhe came with half a dozen other
  gentlemenEthel made him a civil greeting; but her head was full of
  boats and the procession day; about which Mr。 Ogilvie was telling
  her; and she thought of him no more。
  〃A lucky step!〃 thought Flora。  〃A grand thing for Ethela capital
  connection for us all。  Lady Glenbracken will not come too much into
  my sphere either。  Yes; I am doing well by my sisters。〃
  It would make stay…at…home people giddy to record how much pleasure;
  how much conversation and laughter were crowded into those ten days;
  and with much thought and feeling beside them; for these were not
  girls on whom grave Oxford could leave no impression but one of
  gaiety。
  The whole party was very full of merriment。  Norman May; especially;
  on whom Flora contrived to devolve that real leadership of
  conversation that should rightly have belonged to George Rivers; kept
  up the ball with wit and drollery far beyond what he usually put
  forth; enlivened George into being almost an agreeable man; and drew
  out little Meta's vivacity into sunny sparkles。
  Meta generally had Norman for her share; and seemed highly contented
  with his lionisings; which were given much more quietly and copiously
  than those which his cousin bestowed upon his sister。  Or if there
  were anything enterprising to be done; any tower to be mounted; or
  anything with the smallest spice of danger in it; Meta was charmed;
  and with her lightness and airiness of foot and figure; and perfectly
  feminine ways; showed a spirit of adventure that added to the general
  diversion。  But if she were to be helped up or down anywhere; she
  certainly seemed to find greater security in Norman May's assistance;
  though it was but a feather…like touch that she ever used to aid her
  bounding step。
  Both as being diffident; and; in a manner at home; Norman was not as
  constantly her cavalier as was Mr。 Ogilvie to his sister; and; when
  supplanted; his wont was either to pioneer for Flora; or; if she did
  not need him; to walk alone; grave and abstracted。  There was a
  weight on his brow; when nothing was going on to drive it away; and
  whether it were nervousness as to the performance in store for him;
  anxiety about Harry; or; as Mr。 Ogilvie said; too severe application;
  some burden hung upon him; that was only lightened for the time by
  his participation in the enjoyment of the party。
  On Sunday evening; when they had been entering into the almost
  vision…like delight of the choicest of music; and other
  accompaniments of church service; they went to walk in Christchurch
  Meadows。  They had begun altogether by comparing feelingsEthel
  wondering whether Stoneborough Minster would ever be used as it might
  be; and whether; if so; they should be practically the better for it;
  and proceeding with metaphysics on her side; and satire on Norman
  Ogilvie's; to speculate whether that which is; is best; and the
  rights and wrongs of striving for change and improvements; what
  should begin from above; and what from beneathwith illustrations
  often laughter…moving; though they were much in earnest; as the young
  heir of Glenbracken looked into his future life。
  Flora had diverged into wondering who would have the living after
  poor old Mr。 Ramsden; and walked; keeping her husband amused with
  instances of his blunders。
  Meta; as with Norman she parted from the rest; thought her own dear
  Abbotstoke church; and Mr Charles Wilmot; great subjects for content
  and thanksgiving; though it was a wonderful treat to see and hear
  such as she had enjoyed to…day; and she thought it was a joy; to
  carry away abidingly; to know that praise and worship; as near
  perfection as this earth could render them; were being offered up。
  Norman understood her thought; but responded by more of a sigh than
  was quite comfortable。
  Meta went on with her own thoughts; on the connection between worship
  and good works; how the one leads to the other; and how praise with
  pure lips is; after all; the great purpose of existence。 Her last
  thought she spoke aloud。
  〃I suppose everything; our own happiness and all; are given to us to
  turn into praise;〃 she said。
  〃Yes〃 echoed Norman; but as if his thoughts were not quite with
  hers; or rather in another part of the same subject; then recalling
  himself; 〃Happy such as can do so。〃
  〃If one only could〃 said Meta。
  〃You candon't say otherwise;〃 exclaimed Norman; 〃I know; at least;
  that you and my father can。〃
  〃Dr。 May does so; more than any one I know;〃 said Meta。
  〃Yes;〃 said Norman again; 〃it is his secret of joy。  To him; it is
  never; I am half sick of shadows。〃
  〃To him they are not shadows; but foretastes;〃 said Meta。  Silence
  again; and when she spoke; she said; 〃I have always thought it must
  be such a happiness to have power of any kind that can be used in
  direct service; or actual doing good。〃
  〃No;〃 said Norman。  〃Whatever becomes a profession; becomes an
  unreality。〃
  〃Surely not; in becoming a duty;〃 said Meta。
  〃Not for all;〃 he answered; 〃but where the fabric erected by
  ourselves; in the sight of the world; is but an outer case; a shell
  of mere words; blown up for