第 101 节
作者:这就是结局      更新:2022-08-21 16:40      字数:9322
  angry; she heard the doctor approach。  She was a gentle; tearful
  woman; one of those who are often called meek; under an erroneous
  idea that meekness consists in making herself exceedingly miserable
  under every kind of grievance; and she now had a sort of melancholy
  satisfaction in believing that the young ladies had fabricated an
  exaggerated complaint of her temper; and that she was going to become
  injured innocence。  To think herself accused of a great wrong;
  excused her from perceiving herself guilty of a lesser one。
  〃Miss Bracy;〃 said Dr。 May; entering with his frank; sweet look; 〃I
  am concerned that I vexed you by taking the children to walk with me
  yesterday。  I thought such little brats would be troublesome to any
  but their spoiling papa; but they would have been in safer hands with
  you。  You would not have been as weak as I was; in regard to sugar…
  plums。〃  Such amends as these confused Miss Bracy; who found it
  pleasanter to be lamentable with Ethel; than to receive a full
  apology for her imagined offence from the master of the house。
  Feeling both small and absurd; she murmured something of 〃oh; no;〃
  and 〃being sure;〃 and hoped he was going; so that she might sit down
  to pity herself; for those girls having made her appear so
  ridiculous。
  No such thing!  Dr。 May put a chair for her; and sat down himself;
  saying; with a smile; 〃You see; you must trust us sometimes; and
  overlook it; if we are less considerate than we might be。  We have
  rough; careless habits with each other; and forget that all are not
  used to them。〃
  Miss Bracy exclaimed; 〃Oh; no; never; they were most kind。〃
  〃We wish to be;〃 said Dr。 May; 〃but there are little neglectsor you
  think there are。  I will not say there are none; for that would be
  answering too much for human nature; or that they are fancifulfor
  that would be as little comfort as to tell a patient that the pain is
  only nervous〃
  Miss Bracy smiled; for she could remember instances when; after
  suffering much at the time; she had found the affront imaginary。
  He was glad of that smile; and proceeded。  〃You will let me speak to
  you; as to one of my own girls?  To them; I should say; use the only
  true cure。  Don't brood over vexations; small or great; but think of
  them as trials that; borne bravely; become blessings。〃
  〃Oh! but Dr。 May!〃 she exclaimed; shocked; 〃nothing in your house
  could call for such feelings。〃
  〃I hope we are not very savage;〃 he said; smiling; 〃but; indeed; I
  still say it is the safest rule。  It would be the only one if you
  were really among unkind people; and; if you take so much to heart an
  unlucky neglect of mine; what would you do if the slight were a true
  one?〃
  〃You are right; but my feelings were always over…sensitive;〃 and this
  she said with a sort of complacency。
  〃Well; we must try to brace them;〃 said Dr。 May; much as if
  prescribing for her。  〃Will not you believe in our confidence and
  esteem; and harden yourself against any outward unintentional piece
  of incivility?〃
  She felt as if she could at that moment。
  〃Or at least; try to forgive and forget them。  Talking them over only
  deepens the sense of them; and discussions do no good to any one。  My
  daughters are anxious to be your best friends; as I hope you know。〃
  〃Oh! they are most kind〃
  〃But; you see; I must say this;〃 added Dr。 May; somewhat hesitating;
  〃as they have no mother toto spare all this;〃 and then; growing
  clearer; he proceeded; 〃I must beg you to be forbearing with them;
  and not perplex yourself and them with arguing on what cannot be
  helped。  They have not the experience that could enable them to
  finish such a discussion without unkindness; and it can only waste
  the spirits; and raise fresh subjects of regret。  I must leave youI
  hear myself called。〃
  Miss Bracy began to be sensible that she had somewhat abused Ethel's
  patience; and the unfortunate speech about the source of her
  sensitiveness did not appear to her so direfully cruel as at first。
  She hoped every one would forget all about it; and resolved not to
  take umbrage so easily another time; or else be silent about it; but
  she was not a person of much resolution。
  The doctor found that Meta Rivers and her brother had brought Flora
  home; and were in the drawing…room; where Margaret was hearing
  another edition of the history of the fair; and a by…play was going
  on; of teasing Blanche about the chain。
  George Rivers was trying to persuade her to make one for him; and her
  refusal came out at last; in an almost passionate key; in the midst
  of the other conversation 〃No! I say…no!〃
  〃Another no; and that will be yes。〃
  〃No! I won't!  I don't like you well enough!〃
  Margaret gravely sent Blanche and the other children away to take
  their walk; and the brother and sister soon after took leave; when
  Flora called Ethel to hasten to the Ladies' Committee; that they
  might arrange the disposal of the one hundred and fifty pounds; the
  amount of their gains。
  〃To see the fate of Cocksmoor;〃 said Ethel。
  〃Do you think I cannot manage the Stoneborough folk?〃 said Flora;
  looking radiant with good humour; and conscious of power。  〃Poor
  Ethel!  I am doing you good against your will!  Never mind; here is
  wherewith to build the school; and the management will be too happy
  to fall into our hands。  Do you think every one is as ready as you
  are; to walk three miles and back continually?〃
  There was sense in this; there always was sense in what Flora said;
  but it jarred on Ethel; and it seemed almost unsympathising in her to
  be so gay; when the rest were wearied or perturbed。  Ethel would have
  been very glad of a short space to recollect herself; and recover her
  good temper; but it was late; and Flora hurried her to put on her
  bonnet; and come to the committee。  〃I'll take care of your
  interests;〃 she said; as they set out。  〃You look as doleful as if
  you thought you should be robbed of Cocksmoor; but that is the last
  thing that will happen; you will see。〃
  〃It would not be acting fairly to let them build for us; and then for
  us to put them out of the management;〃 said Ethel。
  〃My dear; they want importance; not action。  They will leave the real
  power to us of themselves。〃
  〃You like to build Cocksmoor with such instruments;〃 said Ethel;
  whose ruffled condition made her forget her resolution not to argue
  with Flora。
  〃Bricks are made of clay!〃 said Flora。  〃There; that was said like
  Norman himself!  On your plan; we might have gone on for forty years;
  saving seven shillings a year; and spending six; whenever there was
  an illness in the place。〃
  〃You; who used to dislike these people more than even I did!〃 said
  Ethel。
  〃That was when I was an infant; my dear; and did not know how to deal
  with them。  I will take careI will even save Cherry Elwood for you;
  if I can。  Alan Ernescliffe's ten pounds is a noble weapon。〃
  〃You always mean to manage everything; and then you have no time!〃
  said Ethel; sensible all the time of her own ill…humour; and of her
  sister's patience and amiability; yet propelled to speak the
  unpleasant truths that in her better moods were held back。
  Still Flora was good…tempered; though Ethel would almost have
  preferred her being provoked; 〃I know;〃 she said; 〃I have been using
  you ill; and leaving the world on your shoulders; but it was all in
  your service and Cocksmoor's; and now we shall begin to be reasonable
  and useful again。〃
  〃I hope so;〃 said Ethel。
  〃Really; Ethel; to comfort you; I think I shall send you with Norman
  to dine at Abbotstoke Grange on Wednesday。  Mr。 Rivers begged us to
  come; he is so anxious to make it lively for his son。〃
  〃Thank you; I do not think Mr。 George Rivers and I should be likely
  to get on together。  What a bad style of wit!  You heard what Mary
  said about him? and Ethel repeated the doubt between hating and
  detesting。
  〃Young men never know how to talk to little girls;〃 was Flora's
  reply。
  At this moment they came up with one of the Miss Andersons; and Flora
  began to exchange civilities; and talk over yesterday's events with
  great animation。  Her notice always gave pleasure; brightened as it
  was by the peculiarly engaging address which she had inherited from
  her father; and which; therefore; was perfectly easy and natural。
  Fanny Anderson was flattered and gratified; rather by the manner than
  the words; and; on excellent terms; they entered the committee…room;
  namely; the schoolmistress's parlour。
  There were nine ladies on the committeenine muses; as the doctor
  called them; because they produced anything but harmony。  Mrs。
  Ledwich was in the chair; Miss Rich was secretary; and had her pen
  and ink; and account…book ready。  Flora came in; smiling and
  greeting; Ethel; grave; earnest; and annoyed; behind her; trying to
  be perfectly civil; but not at all enjoying the congratulations on
  the successful bazaar。  The ladies all talked and discussed their
  yesterday's adventures; gathering in little knots; as they traced the
  fate of favourite achievements of their skill; while Ethel;
  lugubrious and impatient; beside Flora; the only one not engaged;
  and; therefore; conscious of the hubbub of clacking tongues。
  At last Mrs。 Ledwich glanced at the mistres