第 85 节
作者:这就是结局      更新:2022-08-21 16:40      字数:9322
  had brought to her。
  Ethel used to watch them; and think how beautiful their countenances
  were; and talk them over with her father; who was quite happy about
  them now。  She gave assistance; which Alan never once called unhandy;
  to all his contrivances; and often floundered in upon his conferences
  with Margaret; in a way that would have been very provoking; if she
  had not always blushed and looked so excessively discomfited; and
  they had only to laugh and reassure her。
  Alan was struck by finding that the casual words spoken on the way
  from Cocksmoor had been so strenuously acted on; and he brought on
  himself a whole torrent of Ethel's confused narratives; which Richard
  and Flora would fain have checked; but Margaret let them continue; as
  she saw him a willing listener; and was grateful to him for
  comprehending the ardent girl。
  He declared himself to have a share in the matter; reminding Ethel of
  her appeal to him to bind himself to the service of Cocksmoor。  He
  sent a sovereign at once; to aid in a case of the sudden death of a
  pig; and when securely established in his brotherly right; he begged
  Ethel to let him know what would help her most。  She stood colouring;
  twisting her hands; and wondering what to say; whereupon he relieved
  her by a proposal to leave an order for ten pounds; to be yearly paid
  into her hands; as a fixed income for her school。
  A thousand a year could hardly have been so much to Ethel。  〃Thank
  you!  Oh; this is charming!  We could set up a regular school!
  Cherry Elwood is the very woman!  Alan; you have made our fortune!
  Oh; Margaret; Margaret!  I must go and tell Ritchie and Mary!  This
  is the first real step to our church and all!〃
  〃May I do it?〃 said Alan; turning to Margaret; as Ethel frantically
  burst out of the room; 〃perhaps I should have asked leave?〃
  〃I was going to thank you;〃 said Margaret。  〃It is the very kindest
  thing you could have done by dear Ethel! the greatest comfort to us。
  She will be at peace now; when anything hinders her from going to
  Cocksmoor。〃
  〃I wonder;〃 said Alan; musing; 〃whether we shall ever be able to help
  her more substantially。  I cannot do anything hastily; for you know
  Maplewood is still in the hands of the executors; and I cannot tell
  what claims there may be upon me; but by…and…by; when I return; if I
  find no other pressing duty; might not a church at Cocksmoor be a
  thankoffering for all I have found here?〃
  〃Oh; Alan; what joy it would be!〃
  〃It is a long way off;〃 he said sadly; 〃and perhaps her force of
  perseverance will have prevailed alone。〃
  〃I suppose I must not tell her; even as a vision。〃
  〃It is too uncertain; I do not know the wants of the Maplewood
  people; and I must provide for Hector。  I would not let these vague
  dreams interfere with her resolute work; but; Margaret; what a vision
  it is!  I can see you laying the first stone on that fine heathy
  brow。〃
  〃Oh; your godchild should lay the first stone!〃
  〃She shall; and you shall lead her。  And there shall be Ethel's sharp
  face full of indescribable things as she marshals her children; and
  Richard shall be curate; and read in his steady soft tone; and your
  father shall look sunny with his boys around him; and you〃
  〃Oh; Alan;〃 said Margaret; who had been listening with a smile; 〃it
  is; indeed; a long way off!〃
  〃I shall look to it as the haven where I would be;〃 said the sailor。
  They often spoke together of this scheme; ever decking it in brighter
  colours。  The topic seemed to suit them better than their own future;
  for there was no dwelling on that without an occasional misgiving;
  and the more glad the anticipation; the deeper the sigh that followed
  on Margaret's part; till Mr。 Ernescliffe followed her lead; and they
  seldom spoke of these uncertainties; but outwardly smiled over the
  present; inwardly dwelt on the truly certain hopes。  There were
  readings shared together; made more precious than all; by the
  conversations that ensued。
  The hour for parting came at last。  Ethel never knew what passed in
  the drawing…room; whence every one was carefully excluded。  Dr。 May
  wandered about; keeping guard over the door; and watching the clock;
  till; at the last moment; he knocked; and called in a trembling
  voice; 〃Ernescliffe!  Alan! it is past the quarter!  You must not
  stay!〃
  The other farewells were hurried; Alan seemed voiceless; only nodding
  in reply to Mary's vociferous messages to Harry; and huskily
  whispering to Ethel; 〃Good luck to Cocksmoor!〃
  The next moment the door had shut on him; and Dr。 May and Flora had
  gone to her sister; whom she found not tearful; but begging to be
  left alone。
  When they saw her again; she was cheerful; she kept up her composure
  and animation without flagging; nor did she discontinue her new
  exertions; but seemed decidedly the happier for all that had passed。
  Letters came every day for her; and presents to every one。  Ethel had
  a gold chain and eyeglass; which; it was hoped; might cure her of
  frowning and stooping; though her various ways of dangling her new
  possession caused her to be so much teased by Flora and Norman; that;
  but for regard to Margaret's feelings; she would not have worn it for
  three days。
  To Mary was sent a daguerreotype of Harry; her glory and delight。
  Say; who would; that it had pig's eyes; a savage frown; a pudding
  chin; there were his own tight rings of hair; his gold…banded cap;
  his bright buttons; how could she prize it enough?  She exhibited it
  to the little ones ten times a day; she kissed it night and morning;
  and registered her vow always to sleep with it under her 〃pilow;〃 in
  a letter of thanks; which Margaret defended and despatched; in spite
  of Miss Winter's horrors at its disregard of orthography。
  It was nearly the last letter before the Alcestis was heard of at
  Spithead。  Then she sailed; she sent in her letters to Plymouth; and
  her final greetings by a Falmouth cutterpoor Harry's wild scrawl in
  pencil looking very sea…sick。
  〃Dear papa and all; good…bye。  We are out of sight of land。  Three
  years; and keep up a good heart。  I shall soon be all right。
  〃Your H。 MAY。〃
  It was enclosed in Mr。 Ernescliffe's envelope; and with it came
  tidings that Harry's brave spirit was not failing; even under
  untoward circumstances; but he had struggled on deck; and tried to
  write; when all his contemporaries had given in; in fact; he was a
  fine fellowevery one liked him; and Captain Gordon; though chary of
  commendation; had held him up to the other youngsters as an example
  of knowing what a sailor was meant to be like。
  Margaret smiled; and cried over the news when she imparted itbut
  all serenelyand though she was glad to be alone; and wrote journals
  for Alan; when she could not send letters; she exerted herself to be
  the same sister as usual to the rest of the household; and not to
  give way to her wandering musings。
  From one subject her attention never strayed。  Ethel had never found
  any lack of sympathy in her for her Cocksmoor pursuits; but the
  change now showed that; where once Margaret had been interested
  merely as a kind sister; she now had a personal concern; and she
  threw herself into all that related to it as her own chief interest
  and pursuitbecoming the foremost in devising plans; and arranging
  the best means of using Mr。 Ernescliffe's benefaction。
  The Elwood family had grown in the good opinion of the Mays。  Charity
  had hobbled to church; leaning on her father's arm; and being invited
  to dinner in the kitchen; the acquaintance had been improved; and
  nurse herself had pronounced her such a tidy; good sort of body; that
  it was a pity she had met with such a misfortune。  If Miss Ethel
  brought in nothing but the like of her; they should be welcome; poor
  thing; how tired she was!
  Nurse's opinions were apt to be sagacious; especially when in the
  face of her prejudices; and this gave Margaret confidence。  Cherry
  proved to have been carefully taught by a good clergyman and his
  wife; and to be of very different stamp from the persons to whom the
  girls were accustomed。  They were charmed with her; and eagerly
  offered to supply her with booksrespecting her the more when they
  found that Mr。 Hazlewood had already lent her their chief favourites。
  Other and greater needs they had no power to fill up。
  〃It is so lone without the church bells; you see; miss;〃 said Mrs。
  Elwood。  〃Our tower had a real fine peal; and my man was one of the
  ringers。  I seems quite lost without them; and there was Cherry; went
  a'most every day with the children。〃
  〃Every day!〃 cried Mary; looking at her with respect。
  〃It was so near;〃 said Cherry; 〃I could get there easy; and I got
  used to it when I was at school。〃
  〃Did it not take up a great deal of time?〃 said Ethel。
  〃Why; you see; ma'am; it came morning and night; out of working
  times; and I can't be stirring much。〃
  〃Then you miss it sadly?〃 said Ethel。
  〃Yes; ma'am; it made the day go on well like; and settled a body's
  mind; when I fretted for what could not be helped。  But I try not to
  fret after it now; and Mr。 Hazlewood said; if I did my best wherever
  I was; the Lord would still join our prayers togeth