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  of affection from all; even his little god…daughter began to know
  him; and smile at his presence。  Margaret and Ethel especially
  delighted in the look of enjoyment with which their father sat down
  to enter on the evening's conversation after the day's work; and
  Flora was well pleased that Mrs。 Hoxton should find Alan in the
  drawing…room; and ask afterwards about his estate; and that Meta
  Rivers; after being certified that this was their Mr。 Ernescliffe;
  pronounced that her papa thought him particularly pleasing and
  gentlemanlike。  There was something dignified in having a sister on
  the point of being engaged。
  CHAPTER XXVIII。
  Sail forth into the sea; thou ship;
  Through breeze and cloud; right onward steer;
  The moistened eye; the trembling lip;
  Are not the signs of doubt or fear!LONGFELLOW。
  Tranquility only lasted until Mr。 Ernescliffe found it necessary to
  understand on what terms he was to stand。  Every one was tender of
  conscience; anxious to do right; and desirous to yield to the opinion
  that nobody could; or would give。  While Alan begged for a positive
  engagement; Margaret scrupled to exchange promises that she might
  never be able to fulfil; and both agreed to leave all to her father;
  who; in every way; ought to have the best ability to judge whether
  there was unreasonable presumption in such a betrothal; but this very
  ability only served to perplex the poor doctor more and more。  It is
  far easier for a man to decide when he sees only one bearing of a
  case; than when; like Dr。 May; he not only sees them; but is rent by
  them in his inmost heart。  Sympathising in turn with each lover;
  bitterly accusing his own carelessness as the cause of all their
  troubles; his doubts contending with his hopes; his conviction
  clashing with Sir Matthew Fleet's opinion; his conscientious
  sincerity and delicacy conflicting with his affection and eagerness;
  he was perfectly incapable of coming to a decision; and suffered so
  cruelly; that Margaret was doubly distressed for his sake; and Alan
  felt himself guilty of having rendered everybody miserable。
  Dr。 May could not conceal his trouble; and rendered Ethel almost as
  unhappy as himself; after each conversation with her; though her
  hopes usually sprang up again; and she had a happy conviction that
  this was only the second volume of the novel。  Flora was not often
  called into his councils; confidence never came spontaneously from
  Dr。 May to her; there was something that did not draw it forth
  towards her; whether it resided in that half…sarcastic corner of her
  steady blue eye; or in the grave common…sense of her gentle voice。
  Her view of the case was known to be that there was no need for so
  much perplexitywhy should not Alan be the best judge of his own
  happiness?  If Margaret were to be delicate for life; it would be
  better to have such a home to look to; and she soothed and comforted
  Margaret; and talked in a strain of unmixed hope and anticipation
  that often drew a smile from her sister; though she feared to trust
  to it。
  Flora's tact and consideration in keeping the children away when the
  lovers could best be alone; and letting them in when the discussion
  was becoming useless and harassing; her cheerful smiles; her evening
  music that covered all sounds; her removal of all extra annoyances;
  were invaluable; and Margaret appreciated them; as; indeed; Flora
  took care that she should。
  Margaret begged to know her eldest brother's judgment; but had great
  difficulty in dragging it out。  Diffidently as it was proposed; it
  was clear and decided。  He thought that his father had better send
  Sir Matthew Fleet a statement of Margaret's present condition; and
  abide by his answer as to whether her progress warranted the hope of
  her restoration。
  Never was Richard more surprised than by the gratitude with which his
  suggestion was hailed; simple as it was; so that it seemed obvious
  that others should have already thought of it。  After the tossings of
  uncertainty; it was a positive relief to refer the question to some
  external voice; and only Ethel and Norman expressed strong dislike to
  Sir Matthew becoming the arbiter of Margaret's fate; and were
  scarcely pacified by Dr。 May's assurance that he had not revealed the
  occasion of his inquiry。  The letter was sent; and repose returned;
  but hearts beat high on the morning when the answer was expected。
  Dr。 May watched the moment when his daughter was alone; carried the
  letter to her; and kissing her; said; with an oppressed voice; 〃I
  give you joy; my dear。〃
  She read with suspended breath and palpitating heart。  Sir Matthew
  thought her improvement sure; though slow; and had barely a doubt
  that; in a year; she would have regained her full strength and
  activity。
  〃You will show it to Alan;〃 said Dr。 May; as Margaret lifted her eyes
  to his face inquiringly。
  〃Will not you?〃 she said。
  〃I cannot;〃 he answered。  〃I wish I was more helpful to you; my
  child;〃 he added wistfully; 〃but you will rest on him; and be happy
  together while he stays; will you not?〃
  〃Indeed I will; dear papa。〃
  Mr。 Ernescliffe was with her as the doctor quitted her。  She held the
  letter to him; 〃But;〃 she said slowly; 〃I see that papa does not
  believe it。〃
  〃You promised to abide by it!〃 he exclaimed; between entreaty and
  authority。
  〃I do; if you choose so to risk your hopes。〃
  〃But;〃 cried he; as he glanced hastily over the letter; 〃there can be
  no doubt!  These words are as certain as language can make them。  Why
  will you not trust them?〃
  〃I see that papa does not。〃
  〃Despondency and self…reproach made him morbidly anxious。  Believe
  so; my Margaret!  You know he is no surgeon!〃
  〃His education included that line;〃 said Margaret。  〃I believe he has
  all but the manual dexterity。  However; I would fain have faith in
  Sir Matthew;〃 she added; smiling; 〃and perhaps I am only swayed by
  the habit of thinking that papa must know best。〃
  〃He does in indifferent cases; but it is an old axiom; that a medical
  man should not prescribe for his own family; above all; in such a
  case; where it is but reasonable to believe an unprejudiced stranger;
  who alone is cool enough to be relied on。  I absolutely depend on
  him!〃
  Margaret absolutely depended on the bright cheerful look of
  conviction。  〃Yes;〃 she said; 〃we will try to make papa take pleasure
  in the prospect。  Perhaps I could do more if I made the attempt。〃
  〃I am sure you could; if you would let me give you more support。  If
  I were but going to remain with you!〃
  〃Don't let us be discontented;〃 said Margaret; smiling; 〃when so much
  more has been granted than I dare to hope。  Be it as it may; let us
  be happy in what we have。〃
  〃It makes you happy?〃 said he; archly reading her face to draw out
  the avowal; but he only made her hide it; with a mute caress of the
  hand that held hers。  She was glad enough to rest in the present; now
  that everything concurred to satisfy her conscience in so doing; and
  come what might; the days now spent together would be a possession of
  joy for ever。
  Captain Gordon contrived to afford his lieutenant another fortnight's
  leave; perhaps because he was in dread of losing him altogether; for
  Alan had some doubts; and many longings to remain。  Had it been
  possible to marry at once; he would have quitted the navy
  immediately; and he would have given worlds to linger beside
  Margaret's couch; and claim her the first moment possible; believing
  his care more availing than all。  He was; however; so pledged to
  Captain Gordon; that; without strong cause; he would not have been
  justified in withdrawing; besides; Harry was under his charge; and
  Dr。 May and Margaret both thought; with the captain; that an active
  life would be a better occupation for him than watching her。  He
  would never be able to settle down at his new home comfortably
  without her; and he would be more in the way of duty while pursuing
  his profession; so Margaret nerved herself against using her
  influence to detain him; and he thanked her for it。
  Though hope and affection could not an once repair an injured spine;
  they had wonderful powers in inciting Margaret to new efforts。  Alan
  was as tender and ready of hand as Richard; and more clever and
  enterprising; and her unfailing trust in him prevented all alarms and
  misgivings; so that wonders were effected; and her father beheld her
  standing with so little support; looking so healthful and so blithe;
  that his forebodings melted away; and he talked joyously of the
  future。
  The great achievement was taking her round the garden。  She could not
  bear the motion of wheels; but Alan adopted the hammock principle;
  and; with the aid of Richard and his crony; the carpenter; produced a
  machine in which no other power on earth could have prevailed on her
  to trust herself; but in which she was carried round the garden so
  successfully; that there was even a talk of next Sunday; and of the
  Minster。
  It was safely accomplished; and tired as she was; Margaret felt; as
  she whispered to Alan; that he had now crowned all the joy that he
  had brought to her。
  Ethel used to watch them; and think how beautiful their countenances
  were; and talk them over with her