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Dr。 May smiled a little at the simplicity with which this last was
said; but his smile ended in one of his heavy sighs。 〃So you took
her for your counsellor; my boy。 That was the way to find out what
was right。〃
〃Well; there was something in the place and; in watching poor Lake's
windows; that made me not able to dwell so much on getting on; and
having prizes and scholarships。 I thought that caring for those had
been driven out of me; and you know I never felt as if it were my
right when I was made dux; but now I find it is all come back。 It
does not do for me to be first; I have been what she called elated;
and been more peremptory than need with the lower boys; and gone on
in my old way with Richard; and so I suppose this disgrace has come
to punish me。 I wish it were not disgrace; because of our name at
school; and because it will vex Harry so much; but since it is come;
considering all things; I suppose I ought not to struggle to justify
myself at other people's expense。〃
His eyes were so dazzled with tears that he could hardly see to
drive; nor did his father speak at first。 〃I can't say anything
against it; Norman; but I am sorry; and one thing more you should
consider。 If Dr。 Hoxton should view this absurd business in the way
he seems to do; it will stand in your way for ever in testimonials;
if you try for anything else。〃
〃Do you think it will interfere with my having a Confirmation
ticket?〃
〃Why no; I should not thinksuch a boyish escapade could be no
reason for refusing you one。〃
〃Very well then; it had better rest。 If there should be any
difficulty about my being confirmed; of course we will explain it。〃
〃I wish every one showed themselves as well prepared!〃 half muttered
the doctor; then; after long musing; 〃Well; Norman; I give up the
scholarship。 Poor Mrs。 Anderson wants it more than we do; and if the
boy is a shabby fellow the more he wants a decent education。 But
what do you say to this? I make Hoxton do you full justice; and
reinstate you in your proper place; and then I take you away at once…
…send you to a tutoranything; till the end of the long vacation。〃
〃Thank you;〃 said Norman; pausing。 〃I don't know; papa。 I am very
much obliged to you; but I think it would hardly do。 You would be
uncomfortable at seeming to quarrel with Dr。 Hoxton; and it would be
hardly creditable for me to go off in anger。〃
〃You are right; I believe;〃 said Dr。 May。 〃You judge wisely; though
I should not have ventured to ask it of you。 But what is to become
of the discipline of the school? Is that all to go to the dogs?〃
〃I could not do anything with them if I were restored in this way;
they would be more set against me。 It is bad enough as it is; but;
even for my own peace; I believe it is better to leave it alone。 All
my comfort in school is over; I know!〃 and he sighed deeply。
〃It is a most untoward business!〃 said the doctor。 〃I am very sorry
your schooldays should be cloudedbut it can't be helped; and you
will work yourself into a character again。 You are full young; and
can stay for the next Randall。〃
Norman felt as if; while his father looked at him as he now did; the
rest of the world were nothing to him; but; perhaps; the driving past
the school brought him to a different mind; for he walked into the
house slowly and dejectedly。
He told his own story to Ethel; in the garden; not without much
difficulty; so indignant were her exclamations; and it was impossible
to make her see that his father's interference would put him in an
awkward position among the boys。 She would argue vehemently that she
could not bear Mr。 Wilmot to think ill of him; that it was a great
shame of Dr。 Hoxton; and that it was dreadful to let such a boy as
Harvey Anderson go unpunished。 〃I really do think it is quite wrong
of you to give up your chance of doing good; and leave him in his
evil ways!〃 That was all the comfort she gave Norman; and she walked
in to pour out a furious grumbling upon Margaret。
Dr。 May had been telling the elder ones; and they were in
conversation after he had left themMargaret talking with animation;
and Flora sitting over her drawing; uttering reluctant assents。 〃Has
he told you; poor fellow?〃 asked Margaret。
〃Yes;〃 said Ethel。 〃Was there ever such a shame?〃
〃That is just what I say;〃 observed Flora。 〃I cannot see why the
Andersons are to have a triumph over all of us。〃
〃I used to think Harvey the best of the two;〃 said Ethel。 〃Now I
think he is a great deal the worst。 Taking advantage of such a
mistake as this! How will he ever look Norman in the face!〃
〃Really;〃 said Margaret; 〃I see no use in aggravating ourselves by
talking of the Andersons。〃
〃I can't think how papa can consent;〃 proceeded Flora。 〃I am sure;
if I were in his place; I should not!〃
〃Papa is so much pleased with dear Norman's behaviour that it quite
makes up for all the disappointment;〃 said Margaret。 〃Besides; he is
very much obliged to him in one way; he would not have liked to have
to battle the matter with Dr。 Hoxton。 He spoke of Norman's great
good judgment。〃
〃Yes; Norman can persuade papa to anything;〃 said Flora。
〃Yes; I wish papa had not yielded;〃 said Ethel。 〃It would have been
just as noble in dear Norman; and we should not have the apparent
disgrace。〃
〃Perhaps it is best as it is; after all;〃 said Flora。
〃Why; how do you mean? 〃 said Ethel。
〃I think very likely things might have come out。 Now don't look
furious; Ethel。 Indeed; I can't help it; but really I don't think it
is explicable why Norman should wish to hush it up; unless there were
something behind!〃
〃Flora!〃 cried Ethel; too much shocked to bring out another word。
〃If you are unfortunate enough to have such suspicions;〃 said
Margaret quietly; 〃I think it would be better to be silent。〃
〃As if you did not know Norman!〃 stammered Ethel。
〃Well;〃 said Flora; 〃I don't wish to think so。 You know I did not
hear Norman himself; and when papa gives his vehement accounts of
things; it always puzzles us of the cooler…minded sort。〃
〃It is as great a shame as ever I heard!〃 cried Ethel; recovering her
utterance。 〃Who would you trust; if not your own father and
brother?〃
〃Yes; yes;〃 said Flora; not by any means wishing to displease her
sisters。 〃If there is such a thing as an excess of generosity; it is
sure to be among ourselves。 I only know it does not suit me。 It
will make us all uncomfortable whenever we meet the Andersons or Mr。
Wilmot; or any one else; and as to such tenderness to Harvey
Anderson; I think it is thrown away。〃
〃Thrown away on the object; perhaps;〃 said Margaret; 〃but not in
Norman。〃
〃To be sure;〃 broke out Ethel。 〃Better be than seem! Oh; dear!
I am sorry I was vexed with dear old June when he told me。 I had
rather have him now than if he had gained everything; and every one
was praising himthat I had! Harvey Anderson is welcome to be dux
and Randall scholar for what I care; while Norman iswhile he is;
just what we thought of the last time we read that Gospelyou know;
Margaret?〃
〃He isthat he is;〃 said Margaret; 〃and; indeed; it is most
beautiful to see how what has happened has brought him at once to
what she wished; when; perhaps; otherwise it would have been a work
of long time。〃
Ethel was entirely consoled。 Flora thought of the words 〃tete
exaltee〃 and considered herself alone to have sober sense enough to
see things in a true lightnot that she went the length of believing
that Norman had any underhand motives; but she thought it very
discreet in her to think a prudent father would not have been
satisfied with such a desire to avoid investigation。
Dr。 May would not trust himself to enter on the subject with Dr。
Hoxton in conversation; he only wrote a note。
〃June 16th。
〃Dear Dr。 Hoxton;
〃My son has appealed to me to confirm his account of himself on
Thursday evening last。 I therefore distinctly state that he came in
at half…past nine; with his hands full of plants from the river; and
that he then went out again; by my desire; to look for his little
brother。
Yours very truly;
R。 May。〃
A long answer came in return; disclaiming all doubt of Norman's
veracity; and explaining Dr。 Hoxton's grounds for having degraded
him。 There had been misconduct in the school; he said; for some time
past; and he did not consider that it was any very serious reproach;
to a boy of Norman's age; that he had not had weight enough to keep
up his authority; and had been carried away by the general feeling。
It had been necessary to make an example for the sake of principle;
and though very sorry it should have fallen on one of such high
promise and general good conduct; Dr。 Hoxton trusted that it would
not be any permanent injury to his prospects; as his talents had
raised him to his former position in the school so much earlier than
usual。
〃The fact was;〃 said Dr。 May; 〃that old Hoxton did it in a passion;
feeling he must punish somebody; and now; finding there's no uproar
about it; he begins to be sorry。 I won't answer this note。 I'll
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