第 54 节
作者:这就是结局      更新:2022-08-21 16:40      字数:9322
  lasted for some moments; and was first broken by Flora; as if she had
  caught at a probability。  〃Some one might have used the first
  blotting…paper that came to hand。〃
  〃Come here; Tom;〃 said the doctor; in a voice not loud; but trembling
  with anxiety; then laying his hand on his shoulder; 〃Look in my
  face。〃  Tom hung his head; and his father put his hand under his
  chin; and raised the pale terrified face。  〃Don't be afraid to tell
  us the meaning of this。  If any of your friends have done it; we will
  keep your secret。  Look up; and speak out。  How did your blotting…
  paper come there?〃
  Tom had been attempting his former system of silent sullenness; but
  there was anger at Mary; and fear of his father to agitate him; and
  in his impatient despair at thus being held and questioned; he burst
  out into a violent fit of crying。
  〃I can't have you roaring here to distress Margaret;〃 said Dr。 May。
  〃Come into the study with me。〃
  But Tom; who seemed fairly out of himself; would not stir; and a
  screaming and kicking scene took place; before he was carried into
  the study by his brothers; and there left with his father。  Mary;
  meantime; dreadfully alarmed; and perceiving that; in some way; she
  was the cause; had thrown herself upon Margaret; sobbing
  inconsolably; as she begged to know what was the matter; and why papa
  was angry with Tomhad she made him so?
  Margaret caressed and soothed her to the best of her ability; trying
  to persuade her that; if Tom had done wrong; it was better for him it
  should be known; and assuring her that no one could think her unkind;
  nor a tell…tale; then dismissing her to bed; and Mary was not
  unwilling to go; for she could not bear to meet Tom again; only
  begging in a whisper to Ethel; 〃that; if dear Tom had not done it;
  she would come and tell her。〃
  〃I am afraid there is no hope of that!〃 sighed Ethel; as the door
  closed on Mary。
  〃After all;〃 said Flora; 〃he has not said anything。  If he has only
  done it; and not confessed; that is not so badit is only the usual
  fashion of boys。〃
  〃Has he been asked?  Did he deny it?〃 said Ethel; looking in Norman's
  face; as if she hardly ventured to put the question; and she only
  received sorrowful signs as answers。  At the same moment Dr。 May
  called him。  No one spoke。  Margaret rested her head on the sofa; and
  looked very mournful; Richard stood by the fire without moving limb
  or feature; Flora worked fast; and Ethel leaned back on an arm…chair;
  biting the end of a paper…knife。
  The doctor and Norman came back together。  〃I have sent him up to
  bed;〃 said Dr。 May。  〃I must take him to Harrison to…morrow morning。
  It is a terrible business!〃
  〃Has he confessed it?〃 said Margaret。
  〃I can hardly call such a thing a confessionI wormed it out bit by
  bitI could not tell whether he was telling truth or not; till I
  called Norman in。〃
  〃But he has not said anything more untrue〃
  〃Yes; he has though!〃 said Dr。 May indignantly。  〃He said Ned
  Anderson put the paper there; and had been taking up the ink with it…
  …'twas his doingthen when I came to cross…examine him I found that
  though Anderson did take up the ink; it was Tom himself who knocked
  it downI never heard anything like itI never could have believed
  it!〃
  〃It must all be Ned Anderson's doing!〃 cried Flora。  〃They are enough
  to spoil anybody。〃
  〃I am afraid they have done him a great deal of harm;〃 said Norman。
  〃And what have you been about all the time?〃 exclaimed the doctor;
  too keenly grieved to be just。  〃I should have thought that with you
  at the head of the school; the child might have been kept out of
  mischief; but there have you been going your own way; and leaving him
  to be ruined by the very worst set of boys!〃
  Norman's colour rose with the extreme pain this unjust accusation
  caused him; and his voice; though low; was not without irritation; 〃I
  have tried。  I have not done as much as I ought; perhaps; but〃
  〃No; I think not; indeed!〃 interrupted his father。  〃Sending a boy
  there; brought up as he had been; without the least tendency to
  deceit〃
  Here no one could see Norman's burning cheeks; and brow bent
  downwards in the effort to keep back an indignant reply; without
  bursting out in exculpation; and Richard looked up; while the three
  sisters all at once began; 〃Oh; no; no; papa〃and left Margaret to
  finish〃Poor little Tom had not always been quite sincere。〃
  〃Indeed! and why was I left to send him to school without knowing it?
  The place of all others to foster deceit。〃
  〃It was my fault; papa;〃 said Margaret。
  〃And mine;〃 put in Richard; and she continued; 〃Ethel told us we were
  very wrong; and I wish we had followed her advice。  It was by far the
  best; but we were afraid of vexing you。〃
  〃Every one seems to have been combined to hide what they ought not!〃
  said Dr。 May; though speaking to her much more softly than to Norman;
  to whom he turned angrily again。  〃Pray; how came you not to identify
  this paper?〃
  〃I did not know it;〃 said Norman; speaking with difficulty。  〃He
  ought never to have been sent to school;〃 said the doctor〃that
  tendency was the very worst beginning。〃
  〃It was a great pity; I was very wrong;〃 said Margaret; in great
  concern。
  〃I did not mean to blame you; my dear;〃 said her father
  affectionately。  〃I know you only meant to act for the best; but
  〃and he put his hand over his face; and then came the sighing groan;
  which pained Margaret ten thousand times more than reproaches; and
  which; in an instant; dispersed all the indignation burning within
  Norman; though the pain remained at his father's thinking him guilty
  of neglect; but he did not like; at that moment; to speak in self…
  justification。
  After a short space; Dr。 May desired to hear what were the deceptions
  to which Margaret had alluded; and made Norman tell what he knew of
  the affair of the blotted book。  Ethel spoke hopefully when she had
  heard it。  〃Well; do you know; I think be will do better now。  You
  see; Edward made him conceal it; and he has been going on with it on
  his mind; and in that boy's power ever since; but now it is cleared
  up and confessed; he will begin afresh and do better。  Don't you
  think so; Norman? don't you; papa?〃
  〃I should have more hope if I had seen anything like confession or
  repentance;〃 said Dr。 May; 〃but that provoked me more than allI
  could only perceive that he was sorry to be found out; and afraid of
  punishment。〃
  〃Perhaps; when he has recovered the first fright; he will come to his
  better self;〃 said Margaret; for she guessed; what indeed was the
  case; that the doctor's anger on this first shock of the discovery of
  the fault he most abhorred had been so great; that a fearful cowering
  spirit would be completely overwhelmed; and; as there had been no
  sorrow shown for the fault; there had been none of that softening and
  relenting that won so much love and confidence。
  Every one felt that talking only made them more unhappy; they tried
  to return to their occupations; and so passed the time till night。
  Then; as Richard was carrying Margaret upstairs; Norman lingered to
  say; 〃Papa; I am very sorry you should think I neglected Tom。  I dare
  say I might have done better for him; but; indeed; I have tried。〃
  〃I am sure you have; Norman。  I spoke hastily; my boyyou will not
  think more of it。  When a thing like this comes on a man; he hardly
  knows what he says。〃
  〃If Harry were here;〃 said Norman; anxious to turn from the real loss
  and grief; as well as to talk away that feeling of being apologised
  to; 〃it would all do better。  He would make a link with Tom; but I
  have so little; naturally; to do with the second form; that it is not
  easy to keep him in sight。〃
  〃Yes; yes; I know that very well。  It is no one's fault but my own; I
  should not have sent him there without knowing him better。  But you
  see how it is; NormanI have trusted to her; till I have grown
  neglectful; and it is well if it is not the ruin of him!〃
  〃Perhaps he will take a turn; as Ethel says;〃 answered Norman
  cheerfully。  〃Good…night; papa。〃
  〃I have a blessing to be thankful for in you; at least;〃 murmured the
  doctor to himself。  〃What other young fellow of that age and spirit
  would have borne so patiently with my injustice?  Not I; I am sure! a
  fine father I show myself to these poor childrenneglect;
  helplessness; temperOh; Maggie!〃
  Margaret had so bad a headache the next day that she could not come
  downstairs。  The punishment was; they heard; a flogging at the time;
  and an imposition so long; that it was likely to occupy a large
  portion of the play…hours till the end of the half…year。  His father
  said; and Norman silently agreed; 〃a very good thing; it will keep
  him out of mischief;〃 but Margaret only wished she could learn it for
  him; and took upon herself all the blame from beginning to end。  She
  said little to her father; for it distressed him to see her grieved;
  he desired her not to dwell on the subject; caressed her; called her
  his comfort and support; and did all he could to console her; but it
  was beyond his power; her sisters; by listening to her; only made her
  worse。  〃Dear; dear papa;〃 she exclaimed; 〃how kind he is!  But he
  can never depend upon me againI have