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lasted for some moments; and was first broken by Flora; as if she had
caught at a probability。 〃Some one might have used the first
blotting…paper that came to hand。〃
〃Come here; Tom;〃 said the doctor; in a voice not loud; but trembling
with anxiety; then laying his hand on his shoulder; 〃Look in my
face。〃 Tom hung his head; and his father put his hand under his
chin; and raised the pale terrified face。 〃Don't be afraid to tell
us the meaning of this。 If any of your friends have done it; we will
keep your secret。 Look up; and speak out。 How did your blotting…
paper come there?〃
Tom had been attempting his former system of silent sullenness; but
there was anger at Mary; and fear of his father to agitate him; and
in his impatient despair at thus being held and questioned; he burst
out into a violent fit of crying。
〃I can't have you roaring here to distress Margaret;〃 said Dr。 May。
〃Come into the study with me。〃
But Tom; who seemed fairly out of himself; would not stir; and a
screaming and kicking scene took place; before he was carried into
the study by his brothers; and there left with his father。 Mary;
meantime; dreadfully alarmed; and perceiving that; in some way; she
was the cause; had thrown herself upon Margaret; sobbing
inconsolably; as she begged to know what was the matter; and why papa
was angry with Tomhad she made him so?
Margaret caressed and soothed her to the best of her ability; trying
to persuade her that; if Tom had done wrong; it was better for him it
should be known; and assuring her that no one could think her unkind;
nor a tell…tale; then dismissing her to bed; and Mary was not
unwilling to go; for she could not bear to meet Tom again; only
begging in a whisper to Ethel; 〃that; if dear Tom had not done it;
she would come and tell her。〃
〃I am afraid there is no hope of that!〃 sighed Ethel; as the door
closed on Mary。
〃After all;〃 said Flora; 〃he has not said anything。 If he has only
done it; and not confessed; that is not so badit is only the usual
fashion of boys。〃
〃Has he been asked? Did he deny it?〃 said Ethel; looking in Norman's
face; as if she hardly ventured to put the question; and she only
received sorrowful signs as answers。 At the same moment Dr。 May
called him。 No one spoke。 Margaret rested her head on the sofa; and
looked very mournful; Richard stood by the fire without moving limb
or feature; Flora worked fast; and Ethel leaned back on an arm…chair;
biting the end of a paper…knife。
The doctor and Norman came back together。 〃I have sent him up to
bed;〃 said Dr。 May。 〃I must take him to Harrison to…morrow morning。
It is a terrible business!〃
〃Has he confessed it?〃 said Margaret。
〃I can hardly call such a thing a confessionI wormed it out bit by
bitI could not tell whether he was telling truth or not; till I
called Norman in。〃
〃But he has not said anything more untrue〃
〃Yes; he has though!〃 said Dr。 May indignantly。 〃He said Ned
Anderson put the paper there; and had been taking up the ink with it…
…'twas his doingthen when I came to cross…examine him I found that
though Anderson did take up the ink; it was Tom himself who knocked
it downI never heard anything like itI never could have believed
it!〃
〃It must all be Ned Anderson's doing!〃 cried Flora。 〃They are enough
to spoil anybody。〃
〃I am afraid they have done him a great deal of harm;〃 said Norman。
〃And what have you been about all the time?〃 exclaimed the doctor;
too keenly grieved to be just。 〃I should have thought that with you
at the head of the school; the child might have been kept out of
mischief; but there have you been going your own way; and leaving him
to be ruined by the very worst set of boys!〃
Norman's colour rose with the extreme pain this unjust accusation
caused him; and his voice; though low; was not without irritation; 〃I
have tried。 I have not done as much as I ought; perhaps; but〃
〃No; I think not; indeed!〃 interrupted his father。 〃Sending a boy
there; brought up as he had been; without the least tendency to
deceit〃
Here no one could see Norman's burning cheeks; and brow bent
downwards in the effort to keep back an indignant reply; without
bursting out in exculpation; and Richard looked up; while the three
sisters all at once began; 〃Oh; no; no; papa〃and left Margaret to
finish〃Poor little Tom had not always been quite sincere。〃
〃Indeed! and why was I left to send him to school without knowing it?
The place of all others to foster deceit。〃
〃It was my fault; papa;〃 said Margaret。
〃And mine;〃 put in Richard; and she continued; 〃Ethel told us we were
very wrong; and I wish we had followed her advice。 It was by far the
best; but we were afraid of vexing you。〃
〃Every one seems to have been combined to hide what they ought not!〃
said Dr。 May; though speaking to her much more softly than to Norman;
to whom he turned angrily again。 〃Pray; how came you not to identify
this paper?〃
〃I did not know it;〃 said Norman; speaking with difficulty。 〃He
ought never to have been sent to school;〃 said the doctor〃that
tendency was the very worst beginning。〃
〃It was a great pity; I was very wrong;〃 said Margaret; in great
concern。
〃I did not mean to blame you; my dear;〃 said her father
affectionately。 〃I know you only meant to act for the best; but
〃and he put his hand over his face; and then came the sighing groan;
which pained Margaret ten thousand times more than reproaches; and
which; in an instant; dispersed all the indignation burning within
Norman; though the pain remained at his father's thinking him guilty
of neglect; but he did not like; at that moment; to speak in self…
justification。
After a short space; Dr。 May desired to hear what were the deceptions
to which Margaret had alluded; and made Norman tell what he knew of
the affair of the blotted book。 Ethel spoke hopefully when she had
heard it。 〃Well; do you know; I think be will do better now。 You
see; Edward made him conceal it; and he has been going on with it on
his mind; and in that boy's power ever since; but now it is cleared
up and confessed; he will begin afresh and do better。 Don't you
think so; Norman? don't you; papa?〃
〃I should have more hope if I had seen anything like confession or
repentance;〃 said Dr。 May; 〃but that provoked me more than allI
could only perceive that he was sorry to be found out; and afraid of
punishment。〃
〃Perhaps; when he has recovered the first fright; he will come to his
better self;〃 said Margaret; for she guessed; what indeed was the
case; that the doctor's anger on this first shock of the discovery of
the fault he most abhorred had been so great; that a fearful cowering
spirit would be completely overwhelmed; and; as there had been no
sorrow shown for the fault; there had been none of that softening and
relenting that won so much love and confidence。
Every one felt that talking only made them more unhappy; they tried
to return to their occupations; and so passed the time till night。
Then; as Richard was carrying Margaret upstairs; Norman lingered to
say; 〃Papa; I am very sorry you should think I neglected Tom。 I dare
say I might have done better for him; but; indeed; I have tried。〃
〃I am sure you have; Norman。 I spoke hastily; my boyyou will not
think more of it。 When a thing like this comes on a man; he hardly
knows what he says。〃
〃If Harry were here;〃 said Norman; anxious to turn from the real loss
and grief; as well as to talk away that feeling of being apologised
to; 〃it would all do better。 He would make a link with Tom; but I
have so little; naturally; to do with the second form; that it is not
easy to keep him in sight。〃
〃Yes; yes; I know that very well。 It is no one's fault but my own; I
should not have sent him there without knowing him better。 But you
see how it is; NormanI have trusted to her; till I have grown
neglectful; and it is well if it is not the ruin of him!〃
〃Perhaps he will take a turn; as Ethel says;〃 answered Norman
cheerfully。 〃Good…night; papa。〃
〃I have a blessing to be thankful for in you; at least;〃 murmured the
doctor to himself。 〃What other young fellow of that age and spirit
would have borne so patiently with my injustice? Not I; I am sure! a
fine father I show myself to these poor childrenneglect;
helplessness; temperOh; Maggie!〃
Margaret had so bad a headache the next day that she could not come
downstairs。 The punishment was; they heard; a flogging at the time;
and an imposition so long; that it was likely to occupy a large
portion of the play…hours till the end of the half…year。 His father
said; and Norman silently agreed; 〃a very good thing; it will keep
him out of mischief;〃 but Margaret only wished she could learn it for
him; and took upon herself all the blame from beginning to end。 She
said little to her father; for it distressed him to see her grieved;
he desired her not to dwell on the subject; caressed her; called her
his comfort and support; and did all he could to console her; but it
was beyond his power; her sisters; by listening to her; only made her
worse。 〃Dear; dear papa;〃 she exclaimed; 〃how kind he is! But he
can never depend upon me againI have