第 51 节
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  your whole time and thoughts to it; and when you had done soif you
  could get all the honours in the Universitywhat would it come to?
  You can't take a first…class。〃
  〃I don't want one;〃 said Ethel; 〃I only can't bear not to do as
  Norman does; and I like Greek so much。〃
  〃And for that would you give up being a useful; steady daughter and
  sister at home?  The sort of woman that dear mamma wished to make
  you; and a comfort to papa。〃
  Ethel was silent; and large tears were gathering。
  〃You own that that is the first thing?〃
  〃Yes;〃 said Ethel faintly。
  〃And that it is what you fail in most?〃
  〃Yes。〃
  〃Then; Ethel dearest; when you made up your mind to Cocksmoor; you
  knew those things could not be done without a sacrifice?〃
  〃Yes; but I didn't think it would be this。〃
  Margaret was wise enough not to press her; and she sat down and
  sighed pitifully。  Presently she said; 〃Margaret; if you would only
  let me leave off that stupid old French; and horrid dull reading with
  Miss Winter; I should have plenty of time for everything; and what
  does one learn by hearing Mary read poetry she can't understand?〃
  〃You work; don't you?  But indeed; Ethel; don't say that I can let
  you leave off anything。  I don't feel as if I had that authority。  If
  it be done at all; it must be by papa's consent; and if you wish me
  to ask him about it; I will; only I think it would vex Miss Winter;
  and I don't think dear mamma would have liked Greek and Cocksmoor to
  swallow up all the little common ladylike things。〃
  Ethel made two or three great gulps; 〃Margaret; must I give up
  everything; and forget all my Latin and Greek?〃
  〃I should think that would be a great pity;〃 said Margaret。  〃If you
  were to give up the verse…making; and the trying to do as much as
  Norman; and fix some time in the dayhalf an hour; perhapsfor your
  Greek; I think it might do very well。〃
  〃Thank you;〃 said Ethel; much relieved; 〃I'm glad you don't want me
  to leave it all off。  I hope Norman won't be vexed;〃 she added;
  looking a little melancholy。
  But Norman had not by any means the sort of sentiment on the subject
  that she had。  〃Of course; you know; Ethel;〃 said he; 〃it must have
  come to this some time or other; and if you find those verses too
  hard; and that they take up too much of your time; you had better
  give them up。〃
  Ethel did not like anything to be said to be too hard for her; and
  was very near pleading she only wanted time; but some recollection
  came across her; and presently she said; 〃I suppose it is a wrong
  sort of ambition to want to learn more; in one's own way; when one is
  told it is not good for one。  I was just going to say I hated being a
  woman; and having these tiresome little triflesmy dutyinstead of
  learning; which is yours; Norman。〃
  〃I'm glad you did not;〃 said Norman; 〃for it would have been very
  silly of you; and I assure you; Ethel; it is really time for you to
  stop; or you would get into a regular learned lady; and be good for
  nothing。  I don't mean that knowing more than other people would make
  you so; but minding nothing else would。〃
  This argument from Norman himself did much to reconcile Ethel's mind
  to the sacrifice she had made; and when she went to bed; she tried to
  work out the question in her own mind; whether her eagerness for
  classical learning was a wrong sort of ambition; to know what other
  girls did not; and whether it was right to crave for more knowledge
  than was thought advisable for her。  She only bewildered herself; and
  went to sleep before she had settled anything; but that she knew she
  must make all give way to papa first; and; secondly; to Cocksmoor。
  Meanwhile Margaret had told her father all that had passed。  He was
  only surprised to hear that Ethel had kept up so long with Norman;
  and thought that it was quite right that she should not undertake so
  much; agreeing more entirely than Margaret had expected with Miss
  Winter's view; that it would be hurtful to body as well as mind。
  〃It is perfectly ridiculous to think of her attempting it!〃 he said。
  〃I am glad you have put a stop to it。〃
  〃I am glad I have;〃 said Margaret; 〃and dear Ethel behaved so very
  well。  If she had resisted; it would have puzzled me very much; I
  must have asked you to settle it。  But it is very odd; papa; Ethel is
  the one of them all who treats me most as if I had real authority
  over her; she lets me scold her; asks my leave; never seems to
  recollect for a moment how little older I am; and how much cleverer
  she is。  I am sure I never should have submitted so readily。  And
  that always makes it more difficult to me to direct her; I don't like
  to take upon me with her; because it seems wrong to have her obeying
  me as if she were a mere child。〃
  〃She is a fine creature;〃 said Dr。 May emphatically。  〃It just shows
  the fact; the higher the mind the readier the submission。  But you
  don't mean that you have any difficulty with the others?〃
  〃Oh; no; no。  Flora never could need any interference; especially
  from me; and Mary is a thorough good girl。  I only meant that Ethel
  lays herself out to be ruled in quite a remarkable way。  I am sure;
  though she does love learning; her real love is for goodness and for
  you; papa。〃
  Ethel would have thought her sacrifice well paid for; had she seen
  her father's look of mournful pleasure。
  CHAPTER XIX。
  0 ruthful scene! when from a nook obscure;
  His little sister doth his peril see;
  All playful as she sate; she grows demure;
  She finds full soon her wonted spirits flee;
  She meditates a prayer to set him free。
  SHENSTONE。
  The setting sun shone into the great west window of the school at
  Stoneborough; on its bare walls; the masters' desks; the forms
  polished with use; and the square; inky; hacked and hewed chests;
  carved with the names of many generations of boys。
  About six or eight little boys were clearing away the books or papers
  that they; or those who owned them as fags; had left astray; and a
  good deal of talk and laughing was going; on among them。  〃Ha!〃
  exclaimed one; 〃here has Harrison left his book behind him that he
  was showing us the gladiators in!〃 and; standing by the third
  master's desk; he turned over a page or two of Smith's 'Antiquities';
  exclaiming; 〃It is full of pictureshere's an old man blowing the
  bellows〃
  〃Let me see!〃 cried Tom May; precipitating himself across the benches
  and over the desk; with so little caution; that there was an outcry;
  and; to his horror; he beheld the ink spilled over Mr。 Harrison's
  book; while; 〃There; August! you've been and done it!〃  〃You'll catch
  it! 〃 resounded on all sides。
  〃What good will staring with your mouth open do!〃 exclaimed Edward
  Anderson; the eldest present。  〃Here! a bit of blotting…paper this
  moment!〃
  Tom; dreadfully frightened; handed a sheet torn from an old paper…
  case that he had inherited from Harry; saying despairingly; 〃It won't
  take it out; will it?〃
  〃No; little stupid head; but don't you see; I'm stopping it from
  running down the edges; or soaking in。  He won't be the wiser till he
  opens it again at that place。〃
  〃When he does; he will;〃 said the bewildered Tom。
  〃Let him。  It won't tell tales。〃
  〃He's coming!〃 cried another boy; 〃he is close at the door。〃
  Anderson hastily shut the book over the blotting…paper; which he did
  not venture to retain in his hand; dragged Tom down from the desk;
  and was apparently entirely occupied with arranging his own box; when
  Mr。 Harrison came in。  Tom crouched behind the raised lid; quaking in
  every limb; conscious he ought to confess; but destitute of
  resolution to do so; and; in a perfect agony as the master went to
  his desk; took up the book; and carried it away; so unconscious; that
  Larkins; a great wag; only waited till his back was turned; to
  exclaim; 〃Ha! old fellow; you don't know what you've got there!〃
  〃Hallo!  May junior; will you never leave off staring? you won't see
  a bit farther for it;〃 said Edward Anderson; shaking him by the ear;
  〃come to your senses; and know your friends。〃
  〃He'll open it!〃 gasped Tom。
  〃So he will; but I'd bet ninety to one; it is not at that page; or if
  he does; it won't tell tales; unless; indeed; he happened to see you
  standing there; crouching and shaking。  That's the right way to bring
  him upon you。〃
  〃But suppose he opens it; and knows who was in school?〃
  〃What then?  D'ye think we can't stand by each other; and keep our
  own counsel?〃
  〃But the blotting…papersuppose he knows that!〃
  There was a laugh all round at this; 〃as if Harrison knew everyone's
  blotting…paper!〃
  〃Yes; but Harry used to write his name all over hisseeand draw
  Union Jacks on it。〃
  〃If he did; the date is not there。  Do you think the ink is going to
  say March 2nd?  Why should not July have done it last half?〃
  〃July would have told if he had;〃 said Larkins。  〃That's no go。〃
  〃Ay!  That's the waythe Mays are all like girlscan't keep a
  secretnot one of them。  There; I've done more for you than ever one
  of them would have doneown itand he strode up to Tom; and grasped
  his wrists; to force the confession from him。〃
  〃Butbut he'll ask when he finds it out〃
  〃Let him。  We know not