第 34 节
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  find himself; a tall schoolboy; watched and soothed with motherly
  tenderness and affection; with complete comprehension of his
  feelings; and delicate care of them。  His father's solicitude and
  sympathy were round him day and night; and this; in the midst of so
  much toil; pain; grief; and anxiety of his own; that Norman might
  well feel overwhelmed with the swelling; inexpressible feelings of
  grateful affection。
  How could his father know exactly what he would likesay the very
  things he was thinkingsee that his depression was not wilful
  repiningfind exactly what best soothed him!  He wondered; but he
  could not have said so to any one; only his eye brightened; and; as
  his sisters remarked; he never seemed half so uncomfortable when papa
  was in the room。  Indeed; the certainty that his father felt the
  sorrow as acutely as himself; was one reason of his opening to him。
  He could not feel that his brothers and sisters did so; for;
  outwardly; their habits were unaltered; their spirits not lowered;
  their relish for things around much the same as before; and this had
  given Norman a sense of isolation。  With his father it was different。
  Norman knew he could never appreciate what the bereavement was to
  himhe saw its traces in almost every word and look; and yet
  perceived that something sustained and consoled him; though not in
  the way of forgetfulness。  Now and then Norman caught at what gave
  this comfort; and it might be hoped he would do so increasingly;
  though; on this Christmas Day; Margaret felt very sad about him; as
  she watched him sitting over the fire; cowering with chilliness and
  headache; while every one was gone to church; and saw that the
  reading of the service with her had been more of a trouble than a
  solace。
  She tried to think it bodily ailment; and strove hard not to pine for
  her mother; to comfort them both; and say the fond words of
  refreshing cheering pity that would have made all light to bear。
  Margaret's home Christmas was so spent in caring for brother; father;
  and children; that she had hardly time to dwell on the sad change
  that had befallen herself。
  Christmas was a season that none of them knew well how to meet:
  Blanche was overheard saying to Mary that she wished it would not
  come; and Mary; shaking her head; and answering that she was afraid
  that was naughty; but it was very tiresome to have no fun。  Margaret
  did her best upstairs; and Richard downstairs; by the help of prints
  and hymns; to make the children think of the true joy of Christmas;
  and in the evening their father gathered them round; and told them
  the stories of the Shepherds and of the Wise Men; till Mary and
  Blanche agreed; as they went up to bed; that it had been a very happy
  evening。
  The next day Harry discomfited the schoolroom by bursting in with the
  news that 〃Louisa and Fanny Anderson were bearing down on the front
  door。〃  Ethel and Flora were obliged to appear in the drawing…room;
  where they were greeted by two girls; rather older than themselves。
  A whole shower of inquiries for Dr。 May; for Margaret; and for the
  dear little baby; were first poured out; then came hopes that Norman
  was well; as they had not seen him at church yesterday。
  〃Thank you; he was kept at home by a bad headache; but it is better
  to…day。〃
  〃We came to congratulate you on his successwe could not help it
  it must have been such a pleasure to you。〃
  〃That it was!〃 exclaimed Ethel; pleased at participation in her
  rejoicing。  〃We were so surprised。〃
  Flora gave a glance of warning; but Ethel's short…sighted eyes were
  beyond the range of correspondence; and Miss Anderson continued。  〃It
  must have been a delightful surprise。  We could hardly believe it
  when Harvey came in and told us。  Every one thought Forder was sure;
  but they all were put out by the questions of general information
  those were all Mr。 Everard's doing。〃
  〃Mr。 Everard was very much struck with Norman's knowledge and
  scholarship too;〃 said Flora。
  〃So every one says。  It was all Mr。 Everard's doing。  Miss Harrison
  told mamma; but; for my part; I am very glad for the sake of
  Stoneborough; I like a town boy to be at the head。〃
  〃Norman was sorry for Forder and Cheviot;〃 began Ethel。  Flora tried
  to stop her; but Louisa Anderson caught at what she said; and looked
  eagerly for more。  〃He felt;〃 said she; only thinking of exalting her
  generous brother; 〃as if it was hardly right; when they are so much
  his seniors; that he could scarcely enjoy it。〃
  〃Ah! that is just what people say;〃 replied Louisa。  〃But it must be
  very gratifying to you; and it makes him certain of the Randal
  scholarship too; I suppose。  It is a great thing for him!  He must
  have worked very hard。〃
  〃Yes; that he has;〃 said Flora; 〃he is so fond of study; and that
  goes halfway。〃
  〃So is dear Harvey。  How earnest he is over his books!  Mamma
  sometimes says; 'Now Harvey; dear; you'll be quite stupified; you'll
  be ill; I really shall get Dr。 May to forbid you。'  I suppose Norman
  is very busy too; it is quite the fashion for boys not to be idle
  now。〃
  〃Poor Norman can't help it;〃 said Ethel piteously。  〃Papa will not
  hear of his doing any Latin or Greek these whole holidays。〃
  〃He thinks he will come to it better again for entire rest;〃 said
  Flora; launching another look at her sister; which again fell short。
  A great deal of polite inquiry whether they were uneasy about him
  followed; mixed with a little boasting of dear Harvey's diligence。
  〃By…the…bye; Ethel; it is you that are the great patroness of the
  wild Cocksmoor childrenare not you?〃
  Ethel coloured; and mumbled; and Flora answered for her; 〃Richard and
  Ethel have been there once or twice。  You know our under nursery…maid
  is a Cocksmoor girl。〃
  〃Well; mamma said she could not think how Miss May could take one
  from thence。  The whole place is full of thieves; and do you know;
  Bessie Boulder has lost her gold pencil…case。〃
  〃Has she?〃 said Flora。
  〃And she had it on Sunday when she was teaching her class。〃
  〃Oh!〃 cried Ethel vehemently; 〃surely she does not suspect any of
  those poor children!〃
  〃I only know such a thing never happened at school before;〃 said
  Fanny; 〃and I shall never take anything valuable there again。〃
  〃But is she sure she lost it at school?〃
  〃Oh; yes; quite certain。  She will not accuse any one; but it is not
  comfortable。  And how those children do behave at church!〃
  〃Poor things! they have been sadly neglected;〃 said Flora。
  〃They are quite spoiling the rest; and they are such figures!  Why
  don't you; at least; make them cut their hair?  You know it is the
  rule of the school。〃
  〃I know; but half the girls in the first class wear it long。〃
  〃Oh; yes; but those are the superior people; that one would not be
  strict with; and they dress it so nicely too。  Now these are like
  little savages。〃
  〃Richard thinks it might drive them away to insist at first;〃 said
  Ethel; 〃we will try to bring it about in time。〃
  〃Well; Mrs。 Ledwich is nearly resolved to insist; so you had better
  be warned; Ethel。  She cannot suffer such untidiness and rags to
  spoil the appearance of the school; and; I assure you; it is quite
  unpleasant to the teachers。〃
  〃I wish they would give them all to me!〃 said Ethel。  〃But I do hope
  Mrs。 Ledwich will have patience with them; for they are only to be
  gained gently。〃
  The visitors took their leave; and the two sisters began exclaiming
  Ethel at their dislike of her proteges; and Flora at what they had
  said of Norman。  〃And you; Ethel; how could you go and tell them we
  were surprised; and Norman thought it was hard on the other boys?
  They'll have it all over the town that he got it unjustly; and knows
  it; as they say already it was partiality of Mr。 Everard's。〃
  〃Oh; no; no; they never can be so bad!〃 cried Ethel; 〃they must have
  understood better that it was his noble humility and generosity。〃
  〃They understand anything noble!  No; indeed!  They think every one
  like their own beautiful brother!  I knew what they came for all the
  time; they wanted to know whether Norman was able to work these
  holidays; and you told them the very thing they wanted to hear。  How
  they will rejoice with that Harvey; and make sure of the Randall!〃
  〃Oh; no; no!〃 cried Ethel; 〃Norman must get that!〃
  〃I don't think he will;〃 said Flora; 〃losing all this time; while
  they are working。  It cannot be helped; of course; but it is a great
  pity。〃
  〃I almost wish he had not been put up at all; if it is to end in this
  way;〃 said Ethel。  〃It is very provoking; and to have them triumphing
  as they will!  There's no bearing it!〃
  〃Norman; certainly; is not at all well; poor fellow;〃 said Flora;
  〃and I suppose he wants rest; but I wish papa would let him do what
  he can。  It would be much better for him than moping about as he is
  always doing now; and the disappointment of losing his place will be
  grievous; though now he fancies he does not care for it。〃
  〃I wonder when he will ever care for anything again。  All I read and
  tell him only seems to tease him; though he tries to thank me。〃
  〃There is a strange apathy about him;〃 said Flora; 〃but I believe it
  is chiefly for want of exertion。  I should like to rouse him if p