第 28 节
作者:这就是结局      更新:2022-08-21 16:39      字数:9322
  strange mixture of hope and fear; joy and grief; disappointment and
  relief。  〃You must not give it up on that account; my dear;〃 he said
  at length; 〃I should not let you see this; if it did not happen at a
  time when I can't command myself as I ought。  If you were an only
  son; it might be your duty to stay; being one of many; 'tis nonsense
  to make a rout about parting with you。  If it is better for you; it
  is better for all of us; and we shall do very well when you are once
  fairly gone。  Don't let that influence you for a moment。〃
  Harry paused; not that he doubted; but he was collecting his
  energies〃Then; papa; I choose the navy。〃
  〃Then it is done; Harry。  You have chosen in a dutiful; unselfish
  spirit; and I trust it will prosper with you; for I am sure your
  father's blessingaye; and your mother's too; go with you!  Now
  then;〃 after a pause; 〃go and call Richard。 I want him to write to
  Ernescliffe about that naval school。  You must take your leave of the
  Whichcote foundation on Friday。  I shall go and give Dr。 Hoxton
  notice tomorrow; and get Tom's name down instead。〃
  And when the name of Thomas May was set down; Dr。 Hoxton expressed
  his trust that it would pass through the school as free from the
  slightest blemish as those of Richard; Norman; and Harry May。
  Now that Harry's destiny was fixed; Ethel began to think of Cocksmoor
  again; and she accomplished another walk there with Richard; Flora;
  and Mary; to question Granny Hall about the children's failure。
  The old woman's reply was a tissue of contradictions: the girls were
  idle hussies; all contrary: they plagued the very life out of her;
  and she represented herself as using the most frightful threats; if
  they would not go to school。  Breaking every bone in their skin was
  the least injury she promised them; till Mary; beginning to think her
  a cruel old woman; took hold of her brother's coat…tails for
  protection。
  〃But I am afraid; Mrs。 Hall;〃 said Richard; in that tone which might
  be either ironical or simple; 〃if you served them so; they would
  never be able to get to school at all; poor things。〃
  〃Bless you; sir; d'ye think I'd ever lay a finger near them; it's
  only the way one must talk to children; you see;〃 said she;
  patronising his inexperience。
  〃Perhaps they have found that out;〃 said Richard。  Granny looked much
  entertained; and laughed triumphantly and shrewdly; 〃ay; ay; that
  they have; the lassesthey be sharp enough for anything; that they
  be。  Why; when I tell little Jenny that there's the black man coming
  after her; what does she do but she ups and says; 'Granny; I know
  'tis only the wind in the chimney。'〃
  〃Then I don't think it seems to answer;〃 said Richard。  〃Just suppose
  you were to try for once; really punishing them when they won't obey
  you; perhaps they would do it next time。〃
  〃Why; sir; you see I don't like to take the stick to them; they've
  got no mother; you see; sir。〃
  Mary thought her a kind grandmother; and came out from behind her
  brother。
  〃I think it would be kinder to do it for once。  What do you think
  they will do as they grow older; if you don't keep them in order when
  they are little?〃
  This was foresight beyond Granny Hall; who began to expatiate on the
  troubles she had undergone in their service; and the excellence of
  Sam。  There was certainly a charm in her manners; for Ethel forgot
  her charge of ingratitude; the other sisters were perfectly taken
  with her; nor could they any of them help giving credence to her
  asseverations that Jenny and Polly should come to school next Sunday。
  They soon formed another acquaintance; a sharp…faced woman stood in
  their path; with a little girl in her hand; and arrested them with a
  low curtsey; and not a very pleasant voice; addressing herself to
  Flora; who was quite as tall as Richard; and appeared the person of
  most consequence。
  〃If you please; miss; I wanted to speak to you。 I have got a little
  girl here; and I want to send her to school; only I have no shoes for
  her。〃
  〃Why; surely; if she can run about here on the heath; she can go to
  school;〃 said Flora。
  〃Oh! but there is all the other children to point at her。  The poor
  thing would be daunted; you see; miss; if I could but get some friend
  to give her a pair of shoes; I'd send her in a minute。  I want her to
  get some learning; as I am always saying; I'd never keep her away; if
  I had but got the clothes to send her in。  I never lets her be
  running on the common; like them Halls; as it's a shame to see them
  in nice frocks; as Mrs。 Hall got by going hypercriting about。〃
  〃What is your name? 〃 said Richard; cutting her short。
  〃Watts; if you please; sir; we heard there was good work up here;
  sir; and so we came; but I'd never have set foot in it if I had known
  what a dark heathenish place it is; with never a Gospel minister to
  come near it;〃 and a great deal more to the same purpose。
  Mary whispered to Flora something about having outgrown her boots;
  but Flora silenced her by a squeeze of the hand; and the two friends
  of Cocksmoor felt a good deal puzzled。
  At last Flora said; 〃You will soon get her clothed if she comes
  regularly to school on Sundays; for she will be admitted into the
  club; I will recommend her if she has a good character and comes
  regularly。  Good…morning; Mrs。 Watts。  Now we must go; or it will be
  dark before we get home。〃  And they walked hastily away。
  〃Horrid woman!〃 was Ethel's exclamation。
  〃But Flora;〃 said innocent Mary; 〃why would you not let me give the
  little girl my boots?〃
  〃Perhaps I may; if she is good and comes to school; said Flora。
  〃I think Margaret ought to settle what you do with your boots;〃 said
  Richard; not much to Flora's satisfaction。
  〃It is the same;〃 she said。 〃If I approve; Margaret will not object。〃
  〃How well you helped us out; Flora;〃 said Ethel; 〃I did not know in
  the least what to say。〃
  〃It will be the best way of testing her sincerity; said Flora; and at
  least it will do the child good; but I congratulate you on the
  promising aspect of Cocksmoor。〃
  〃We did not expect to find a perfect place;〃 said Ethel; if it were;
  it would be of no use to go to it。〃
  Ethel could answer with dignity; but her heart sank at the aspect of
  what she had undertaken。  She knew there would be evil; but she had
  expected it in a more striking and less disagreeable form。
  That walk certainly made her less impatient; though it did not relax
  her determination; nor the guard over her lion and bear; which her
  own good feeling; aided by Margaret's council; showed her were the
  greatest hindrances to her doing anything good and great。
  Though she was obliged to set to work so many principles and
  reflections to induce herself to wipe a pen; or to sit straight on
  her chair; that it was like winding up a steam…engine to thread a
  needle; yet the work was being doneshe was struggling with her
  faults; humbled by them; watching them; and overcoming them。
  Flora; meanwhile; was sitting calmly down in the contemplation of the
  unexpected services she had rendered; confident that her character
  for energy and excellence was established; believing it herself; and
  looking back on her childish vanity and love of domineering as long
  past and conquered。  She thought her grown…up character had begun;
  and was too secure to examine it closely。
  CHAPTER XI。
  One thing is wanting in the beamy cup
  Of my young life! one thing to be poured in;
  Ay; and one thing is wanting to fill up
  The measure of proud joy; and make it sin。F。 W。 F。
  Hopes that Dr。 May would ever have his mind free; seemed as
  fallacious as mamma's old promise to Margaret; to make doll's clothes
  for her whenever there should be no live dolls to be worked for in
  the nursery。
  Richard and Ethel themselves had their thoughts otherwise engrossed。
  The last week before the holidays was an important one。  There was an
  examination; by which the standing of the boys in the school was
  determined; and this time it was of more than ordinary importance; as
  the Randall scholarship of ?00 a year for three years would be open
  in the summer to the competition of the first six boys。  Richard had
  never come within six of the top; but had been past at every
  examination by younger boys; till his father could bear it no longer;
  and now Norman was too young to be likely to have much chance of
  being of the number。  There were eight decidedly his seniors; and
  Harvey Anderson; a small; quick…witted boy; half a year older; who
  had entered school at the same time; and had always been one step
  below him; had; in the last three months; gained fast upon him。
  Harry; however; meant Norman to be one of the six; and declared all
  the fellows thought he would be; except Andersen's party。  Mr。
  Wilmot; in a call on Ethel and Flora; told them that he thought their
  brother had a fair chance; but he feared he was over…working himself;
  and should tell the doctor so; whenever he could catch him; but this
  was difficult; as there was a great deal of illness just then; and he
  was less at home than usual。
  All this excited the home party; but Norman only seemed annoyed by
  talk about it; and though always with a book in his hand; was so
  dreamy