第 24 节
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  that she would have forgotten all; in proceeding to read it; curled
  up on the floor amongst the heaps of pamphlets; if another gentle
  hint from Richard had not made her finish her task so well; as to
  make Flora declare it was a pleasure to look in; and Harry pronounce
  it to be all neat and ship…shape。
  There was no speaking to Margaret the next morningit was French
  dayand Ethel had made strong resolutions to behave better; and
  whether there were fewer idioms; or that she was trying to
  understand; instead of carping at the master's explanations; they
  came to no battle; Flora led the conversation; and she sustained her
  part with credit; and gained an excellent mark。
  Flora said afterwards to Margaret; 〃I managed nicely for her。  I
  would not let M。 Ballompre blunder upon any of the subjects Ethel
  feels too deeply to talk of in good French; and really Ethel has a
  great talent for languages。  How fast she gets on with Italian!〃
  〃That she does;〃 said Margaret。  〃Suppose you send her up; Florayou
  must want to go and draw or practice; and she may do her arithmetic
  here; or read to me。〃
  It was the second time Margaret had made this proposal; and it did
  not please Flora; who had learned to think herself necessary to her
  sister; and liked to be the one to do everything for her。  She was
  within six weeks of seventeen; and surely she need not be sent down
  again to the school…room; when she had been so good a manager of the
  whole family。  She was fond of study and of accomplishments; but she
  thought she might be emancipated from Miss Winter; and it was not
  pleasant to her that a sister; only eighteen months older; and almost
  dependant on her; should have authority to dispose of her time。
  〃I practise in the evening;〃 she said; 〃and I could draw here; if I
  wished; but I have some music to copy。〃
  Margaret was concerned at the dissatisfaction; though not
  understanding the whole of it: 〃You know; dear Flora;〃 she said;
  〃I need not take up all your time now。〃
  〃Don't regret that;〃 said Flora。  〃I like nothing so well as waiting
  on you; and I can attend to my own affairs very well here。〃
  〃I'll tell you why I proposed it;〃 said Margaret。  〃I think it would
  be a relief for Ethel to escape from Miss Winter's beloved Friday
  questions。〃
  〃Great nonsense they are;〃 said Flora。  〃Why don't you tell Miss
  Winter they are of no use?〃
  〃Mamma never interfered with them;〃 said Margaret。 〃She only kept
  Ethel in her own hands; and if you would be so kind as to change
  sometimes and sit in the school…room; we could spare Ethel; without
  hurting Miss Winter's feelings。〃
  〃Well; I'll call Ethel; if you like; but I shall go and practise in
  the drawing…room。  The old school…room piano is fit for nothing but
  Mary to hammer upon。〃
  Flora went away; evidently annoyed; and Margaret's conjectures on the
  cause of it were cut short by Ethel running in with a slate in one
  hand and two books in the other; the rest having all tumbled down on
  the stairs。
  〃Oh; Margaret; I am so glad to come to you。  Miss Winter has set Mary
  to read 〃To be; or not to be;〃 and it would have driven me distracted
  to have stayed there。  I have got a most beautiful sum in Compound
  Proportion; about a lion; a wolf; and a bear eating up a carcase; and
  as soon as they have done it; you shall hear me say my ancient
  geography; and then we will do a nice bit of Tasso; and if we have
  any time after that; I have got such a thing to tell youonly I must
  not tell you now; or I shall go on talking and not finish my
  lessons。〃
  It was not till all were done; that Ethel felt free to exclaim; 〃Now
  for what I have been longing to tell youRichard is going to〃 But
  the fates were unpropitious。  Aubrey trotted in; expecting to be
  amused; next came Norman; and Ethel gave up in despair; and; after
  having affronted Flora in the morning; Margaret was afraid of
  renewing the offence; by attempting to secure Ethel as her companion
  for the afternoon; so not till after the walk could Margaret contrive
  to claim the promised; communication; telling Ethel to come and
  settle herself cosily by her。
  〃I should have been very glad of you last evening;〃 said she; 〃for
  papa went to sleep; and my book was out of reach。〃
  〃Oh; I am sorry; how I pity you; poor Margaret!〃
  〃I suppose I have grown lazy;〃 said Margaret; 〃for I don't mind those
  things now。  I am never sorry for a quiet time to recollect and
  consider。〃
  〃It must be like the waiting in the dark between the slides of a
  magic lantern;〃 said Ethel; 〃I never like to be quiet。 I get so
  unhappy。〃
  〃I am glad of resting and recollecting;〃 said Margaret。  〃It has all
  been so like a dream; that merry morning; and then; slowly waking to
  find myself here in dear mamma's place; and papa watching over me。
  Sometimes I think I have not half understood what it really is; and
  that I don't realise; that if I was up and about; I should find the
  house without her。〃
  〃Yes; that is the aching part!〃 said Ethel。  〃I am happy; sitting on
  her bed here with you。  You are a little of her; besides being my own
  dear Peg…top!  You are very lucky to miss the mealtimes and the
  evenings。〃
  〃That is the reason I don't feel it wrong to like to have papa
  sitting with me all the evening;〃 said Margaret; 〃though it may make
  it worse for you to have him away。  I don't think it selfish in me to
  keep him。  He wants quiet so much; or to talk a little when it suits
  him; we are too many now; when he is tired。〃
  〃Oh; it is best;〃 said Ethel。  〃Nothing that you do is selfishdon't
  talk of it; dear Margaret。  It will be something like old times when
  you come down again。〃
  〃But all this time you are not telling me what I want so much to
  hear;〃 said Margaret; 〃about Cocksmoor。  I am so glad Richard has
  taken it up。〃
  〃That he has。  We are to go every Friday; and hire a room; and teach
  the children。  Once a week will do a great deal; if we can but make
  them wish to learn。  It is a much better plan than mine; for if they
  care about it; they can come to school here on Sunday。〃
  〃It is excellent;〃 said Margaret; 〃and if he is at home till Easter;
  it will give it a start; and put you in the way of it; and get you
  through the short days and dark evenings; when you could not so well
  walk home without him。〃
  〃Yes; and then we can all teach; Flora; and Mary; and you; when you
  are well again。 Richard says it will be disagreeable; but I don't
  think sothey are such unsophisticated people。  That Granny Hall is
  such a funny old woman; and the whole place wants nothing but a
  little care; to do very well。〃
  〃You must prepare for disappointments; dear Ethel。〃
  〃I know; I know nothing is done without drawbacks; but I am so glad
  to make some beginning。〃
  〃So am I。  Do you know; mamma and I were one day talking over those
  kind of things; and she said she had always regretted that she had so
  many duties at home; that she could not attend as much to the poor as
  she would like; but she hoped now we girls were growing up; we should
  be able to do more。
  〃Did she?〃 was all Ethel said; but she was deeply gratified。
  〃I've been wanting to tell you。  I knew you would like to hear it。
  It seems to set us to work so happily。〃
  〃I only wish we could begin;〃 said Ethel; 〃but Richard is so slow!
  Of course we can't act without papa's consent and Mr。 Wilmot's help;
  and he says papa must not be worried about it; he must watch for his
  own time to speak about it。〃
  〃Yes〃 said Margaret。
  I knowI would not have it otherwise; but what is tiresome is this。
  Richard is very good; but he is so dreadfully hard to stir up; and
  what's worse; so very much afraid of papa; that while he is thinking
  about opportunities; they will all go by; and then it will be Easter;
  and nothing done!〃
  〃He is not so much afraid of papa as he was;〃 said Margaret。  〃He has
  felt himself useful and a comfort; and papa is gentler; and that has
  cheered him out of the desponding way that kept him back from
  proposing anything。〃
  〃Perhaps;〃 said Ethel; 〃but I wish it was you。  Can't you? you always
  know how to manage。〃
  〃No; it is Richard's affair; and he must do as he thinks fit。  Don't
  sigh; dear Ethelperhaps he may soon speak; and; if not; you can be
  preparing in a quiet way all the time。  Don't you remember how dear
  mamma used to tell us that things; hastily begun; never turn out
  well?〃
  〃But this is not hasty。  I've been thinking about it these six
  weeks;〃 said Ethel。  〃If one does nothing but think; it is all no
  better than a vision。  I want to be doing。〃
  〃Well; you can be doinglaying a sound foundation;〃 said Margaret。
  〃The more you consider; and the wiser you make yourself; the better
  it will be when you do set to work。〃
  〃You mean by curing myself of my slovenly ways and impatient temper?〃
  〃I don't know that I was exactly thinking of that;〃 said Margaret;
  〃but that ought to be the way。  If we are not just the thing in our
  niche at home; I don't think we can do much real good elsewhere。〃
  〃It would be hollow; show…goodness;〃 said Ethel。  〃Yes; that is true;
  and it comes across me now; and then what a horrid wretch I am; to be
  wanting to undertake so much; when I leave so much undone。  But; do
  you know; Margare