第 19 节
作者:这就是结局      更新:2022-08-21 16:39      字数:9322
  〃Oh; nothing; only Miss Winter is so tiresome。〃
  〃What was it?〃
  〃Everything; it was all horrid。  I was cross; I know; but she and M。
  Ballompre made me so;〃 and Ethel was in the midst of the narration of
  her grievances; when Norman came in。  The school was half a mile off;
  but he had not once failed to come home; in the interval allowed for
  play after dinner; to inquire for his sister。
  〃Well; Norman; you are out of breath; sit down and rest。  What is
  doing at school; are you dux of your class?〃
  〃Yes;〃 said the boy wearily。
  〃What mark for the verses?〃 said Ethel。
  〃Quam bene。〃
  〃Not optime?〃
  〃No; they were tame;〃 Dr。 Hoxton said。
  〃What is Harry doing?〃 said Margaret。
  〃He is fourth in his form。  I left him at football。〃
  〃Dinner!〃 said Flora at the door。  〃What will you have; Margaret?〃
  〃I'll fetch it;〃 said Norman; who considered it his privilege to wait
  on Margaret at dinner。  When he had brought the tray; he stood
  leaning against the bed…post; musing。  Suddenly; there was a
  considerable clatter of fire…irons; and his violent start surprised
  Margaret。
  〃Ethel has been poking the fire;〃 she said; as if no more was needed
  to account for their insecurity。  Norman put them up again; but a
  ringing sound betrayed that it was not with a firm touch; and when; a
  minute after; he came to take her plate; she saw that he was trying
  with effort to steady his hand。
  〃Norman; dear; are you sure you are well?〃
  〃Yes; very well;〃 said he; as if vexed that she had taken any notice。
  〃You had better not come racing home。  I'm not worth inquiries now; I
  am so much better;〃 said she; smiling。
  He made no reply; but this was not consenting silence。
  〃I don't like you to lose your football;〃 she proceeded。
  〃I could not〃 and he stopped short。
  〃It would be much better for you;〃 said she; looking up in his face
  with anxious affectionate eyes; but he shunned her glance and walked
  away with her plate。
  Flora had been in such close attendance upon Margaret; that she
  needed some cheerful walks; and though she had some doubts how
  affairs at home would go on without her; she was overruled; and sent
  on a long expedition with Miss Winter and Mary; while Ethel remained
  with Margaret。
  The only delay before setting out; was that nurse came in; saying;
  〃If you please; Miss Margaret; there is a girl come to see about the
  place。〃
  The sisters looked at each other and smiled; while Margaret asked
  whence she came; and who she was。
  〃Her name is Taylor; and she comes from Cocksmoor; but she is a nice;
  tidy; strong…looking girl; and she says she has been used to
  children。〃
  Nurse had fallen into the trap most comfortably; and seemed bent upon
  taking this girl as a choice of her own。  She wished to know if Miss
  Margaret would like to see her。
  〃If you please; nurse; but if you think she will do; that is enough。〃
  〃Yes; Miss; but you should look to them things yourself。  If you
  please; I'll bring her up。〃  So nurse departed。
  〃Charming!〃 cried Ethel; 〃that's your capital management; Flora;
  nurse thinks she has done it all herself。〃
  〃She is your charge though;〃 said Flora; 〃coming from your own
  beloved Cocksmoor。〃
  Lucy Taylor came in; looking very nice; and very shy; curtseying low;
  in extreme awe of the pale lady in bed。  Margaret was much pleased
  with her; and there was no more to be done but to settle that she
  should come on Saturday; and to let nurse take her into the town to
  invest her with the universal blackness of the household; where the
  two Margarets were the only white things。
  This arranged; and the walking party set forth; Ethel sat down by her
  sister's bed; and began to assist in unpicking the merino; telling
  Margaret how much obliged she was to her for thinking of it; and how
  grieved at having been so ungrateful in the morning。  She was very
  happy over her contrivances; cutting out under her sister's
  superintendence。  She had forgotten the morning's annoyance; till
  Margaret said; 〃I have been thinking of what you said about Miss
  Winter; and really I don't know what is to be done。〃
  〃Oh; Margaret; I did not mean to worry you;〃 said Ethel; sorry to see
  her look uneasy。
  〃I like you to te11 me everything; dear Ethel; but I don't see
  clearly the best course。  We must go on with Miss Winter。〃
  〃Of course;〃 said Ethe1; shocked at her murmurs having even suggested
  the possibility of a change; and having; as well as all the others; a
  great respect and affection for her governess。
  〃We could not get on without her even if I were well;〃 continued
  Margaret; and dear mamma had such perfect trust in her; and we all
  know and love her so wellit would make us put up with a great
  deal。〃
  〃It is all my own fault;〃 said Ethel; only anxious to make amends to
  Miss Winter。  〃I wish you would not say anything about it。〃
  〃Yes; it does seem wrong even to think of it;〃 said Margaret; 〃when
  she has been so very kind。  It is a blessing to have any one to whom
  Mary and Blanche may so entirely be trusted。  But for you〃
  〃It is my own fault;〃 repeated Ethel。
  〃I don't think it is quite all your own fault;〃 said Margaret; 〃and
  that is the difficulty。  I know dear mamma thought Miss Winter an
  excellent governess for the little ones; but hardly up to you; and
  she saw that you worried and fidgeted each other; so; you know; she
  used to keep the teaching of you a good deal in her own hands。〃
  〃I did not know that was the reason;〃 said Ethel; overpowered by the
  recollection of the happy morning's work she had often done in that
  very room; when her mother had not been equal to the bustle of the
  whole school…room。  That watchful; protecting; guarding; mother's
  love; a shadow of Providence; had been round them so constantly on
  every side; that they had been hardly conscious of it till it was
  lost to them。
  〃Was it not like her?〃 said Margaret; 〃but now; my poor Ethel; I
  don't think it would be right by you or by Miss Winter; to take you
  out of the school…room。  I think it would grieve her。〃
  〃I would not do that for the world。〃
  〃Especially after her kind nursing of me; and even; with more reason;
  it would not be becoming in us to make changes。  Besides; King
  Etheldred;〃 said Margaret; smiling; 〃we all know you are a little bit
  of a sloven; and; as nurse says; some one must be always after you;
  and do you know? even if I were well; I had rather it was Miss Winter
  than me。〃
  〃Oh; no; you would not be formal and preciseyou would not make me
  cross。〃
  〃Perhaps you might make me so;〃 said Margaret; 〃or I should let you
  alone; and leave you a slattern。  We should both hate it so!  No;
  don't make me your mistress; Ethel dearlet me be your sister and
  play…fellow still; as well as I can。〃
  〃You are; you are。  I don't care half so much when I have got you。〃
  〃And will you try to bear with her; and remember it is right in the
  main; though it is troublesome? 〃
  〃That I will。  I won't plague you again。  I know it is bad for you;
  you look tired。〃
  〃Pray don't leave off telling me;〃 said Margaret〃it is just what I
  wish on my own account; and I know it is comfortable to have a good
  grumble。〃
  〃If it does not hurt you; but I am sure you are not easy noware
  you?〃
  〃Only my back;〃 said Margaret。  〃I have been sitting up longer than
  usual; and it is tired。  Will you call nurse to lay me flat again?
  The nursery was desertedall were out; and Ethel came back in
  trepidation at the notion of having to do it herself; though she knew
  it was only to put one arm to support her sister; while; with the
  other; she removed the pillows; but Ethel was conscious of her own
  awkwardness and want of observation; nor had Margaret entire trust in
  her。  Still she was too much fatigued to wait; so Ethel was obliged
  to do her best。  She was careful and frightened; and therefore slow
  and unsteady。  She trusted that all was right; and Margaret tried to
  believe so; though still uneasy。
  Ethel began to read to her; and Dr。 May came home。 She looked up
  smiling; and asked where he had been; but it was vain to try to keep
  him from reading her face。  He saw in an instant that something was
  amiss; and drew from her a confession that her back was aching a
  little。  He knew she might have said a great dealshe was not in a
  comfortable positionshe must be moved。  She shook her headshe had
  rather waitthere was a dread of being again lifted by Ethel that
  she could not entirely hide。  Ethel was distressed; Dr。 May was
  angry; and; no wonder; when he saw Margaret suffer; felt his own
  inability to help; missed her who had been wont to take all care from
  his hands; and was vexed to see a tall strong girl of fifteen; with
  the full use of both arms; and plenty of sense; incapable of giving
  any assistance; and only doing harm by trying。
  〃It is of no use;〃 said he。  〃Ethel will give no attention to
  anything but her books!  I've a great mind to put an end to all the
  Latin and Greek!  She cares for nothing else。〃
  Ethel could little brook injustice; and much as she was grieving; she
  exclaimed; 〃Papa; papa; I do carenow don't I; Margaret?  I did my
  best!〃
  〃Don't talk nonsense。  Your best; indeed!  If you had taken the most
  moderate care〃
  〃I believe