第 10 节
作者:这就是结局      更新:2022-08-21 16:39      字数:9322
  room; that will tell all。〃
  〃I believe he knows;〃 said Alan。  〃It was that which made him faint
  after the accident; for he had his perceptions fully at first。  I
  have suspected all day that he was more himself than he seemed; but
  I think he could not bear to awaken his mind to understand it; and
  that he was afraid to hear about heryour sister; so that our
  mention of her was a great relief; and did him good。  I am convinced
  he knows the rest。  Only go on; be calm; as you have been; and we
  shall do very well。〃
  Flora went to prepare。  Ethel eagerly undertook to send to Mr。 Ward;
  and hastened from the room; as if in a sort of terror; shrinking
  perhaps from what might lead to an outburst of grief。  She longed to
  have seen her father; but was frightened at the chance of meeting
  him。  When she had sent her message; and told her brothers what was
  passing; she went and lingered on the stairs and in the passage for
  tidings。  After what seemed a long time; Flora came out; and hastened
  to the nursery; giving her intelligence on the way。
  〃Better than could be hoped; he walked alone into the room; and was
  quite calm and composed。  Oh! if this will not hurt him; if the
  seeing baby was but over!〃
  〃Does he want her?〃
  〃Yes; he would have come up here himself; but I would not let him。
  Nurse; do you hear?  Papa wants baby; let me have her。〃
  〃Bless me; Miss Flora; you can't hold her while you are all of a
  tremble!  And he has been to Miss Margaret?〃
  〃Yes; nurse; and he was only rather stiff and lame。〃
  〃Did Margaret seem to know him?〃 said Ethel。
  〃She just answered in that dreamy way when he spoke to her。  He says
  he thinks it is as Mr。 Ward believes; and that she will soon come to
  herself。  He is quite able to consider〃
  〃And he knows all?〃
  〃I am sure he does。  He desired to see baby; and he wants you; nurse。
  Only mind you command yourselfdon't say a word you can helpdo
  nothing to agitate him。〃
  Nurse promised; but the tears came so fast; and sobs with them; as
  she approached her master's room; that Flora saw no composure could
  be expected from her; and taking the infant from her; carried it in;
  leaving the door open for her to follow when wanted。  Ethel stood by
  listening。  There was silence at first; then some sounds from the
  baby; and her father's voice soothing it; in his wonted caressing
  phrases and tones; so familiar that they seemed to break the spell;
  drive away her vague terrors; and restore her father。  Her heart
  bounded; and a sudden impulse carried her to the bedside; at once
  forgetting all dread of seeing him; and chance of doing him harm。
  He lay; holding the babe close to him; and his face was not altered;
  so that there was nothing in the sight to impress her with the need
  of caution; and; to the consternation of the anxious Flora; she
  exclaimed; abruptly and vehemently; 〃Papa! should not she be
  christened?〃
  Dr。 May looked up at Ethel; then at the infant; 〃Yes;〃 he said; 〃at
  once。〃  Then added feebly and languidly; 〃Some one must see to it。〃
  There was a pause; while Flora looked reproachfully at her sister;
  and Ethel became conscious of her imprudence; but in a few moments
  Dr。 May spoke again; first to the baby; and then asking; 〃Is Richard
  here?〃
  〃Yes; papa。〃
  〃Send him up presently。  Where's nurse?〃
  Ethel retreated; much alarmed at her rash measure; and when she
  related it she saw that Richard and Mr。 Ernescliffe both thought it
  had been a great hazard。
  〃Papa wants you;〃  was a welcome sound to the ears of Richard; and
  brought a pink glow into his face。  He was never one who readily
  showed his feelings; and there was no danger of his failing in self…
  command; though grievously downcast; not only at the loss of the
  tender mother; who had always stood between him and his father's
  impatience; but by the dread that he was too dull and insignificant
  to afford any help or comfort in his father's dire affliction。
  Yet there was something in the gentle sad look that met him; and in
  the low tone of the 〃How d'ye do; Ritchie?〃 that drove off a thought
  of not being loved; and when Dr。 May further added; You'll see about
  it allI am glad you are come;〃 he knew he was of use; and was
  encouraged and cheered。  That his father had full confidence and
  reliance in him; and that his presence was a satisfaction and relief
  he could no longer doubt; and this was a drop of balm beyond all his
  hopes; for loving and admiring his father intensely; and with
  depressed spirits and a low estimate of himself; he had begun to
  fancy himself incapable of being anything but a vexation and burden。
  He sat with his father nearly all the evening; and was to remain with
  him at night。  The rest were comforted by the assurance that Dr。 May
  was still calm; and did not seem to have been injured by what had
  passed。  Indeed; it seemed as if the violence and suddenness of the
  shock; together with his state of suffering; had deadened his
  sensations; for there was far less agitation about him than could
  have been thought possible in a man of such strong; warm affections
  and sensitive temperament。
  Ethel and Norman went up arm…in…arm at bedtime。
  〃I am going to ask if I may wish papa good…night;〃 said Ethel。
  〃Shall I say anything about your coming?〃
  Norman hesitated; but his cheeks blanched; he shuddered; shook his
  head without speaking; ran up after Harry; and waved her back when
  she would have followed。
  Richard told her that she might come in; and; as she slowly advanced;
  she thought she had never seen anything so ineffably mournful as the
  affectionate look on her father's face。  She held his hand and
  venturedfor it was with difficulty she spoketo hope he was not in
  pain。
  〃Better than it was; thank you; my dear;〃 he said; in a soft weak
  tone: then; as she bent down to kiss his brow; 〃you must take care of
  the little ones。〃
  〃Yes; papa;〃 she could hardly answer; and a large drop gathered
  slowly in each eye; long in coming; as if the heart ached too much
  for them to flow freely。
  〃Are they all well?〃
  〃Yes; papa。〃
  〃And good?〃  He held her hand; as if lengthening the interview。
  〃Yes; very good all day。〃
  A long deep sigh。  Ethel's two tears stood on her cheeks。
  〃My love to them all。  I hope I shall see them to…morrow。  God bless
  you; my dear; good…night。〃
  Ethel went upstairs; saddened and yet soothed。  The calm silent
  sorrow; too deep for outward tokens; was so unlike her father's
  usually demonstrative habits; as to impress her all the more; yet
  those two tears were followed by no more; there was much strangeness
  and confusion in her mind in the newness of grief。
  She found poor Flora; spent with exertion; under the reaction of all
  she had undergone; lying on her bed; sobbing as if her heart would
  break; calling in gasps of irrepressible agony on 〃mamma! mamma!〃 yet
  with her face pressed down on the pillow that she might not be heard。
  Ethel; terrified and distressed; timidly implored her to be
  comforted; but it seemed as if she were not even heard; she would
  have fetched some one; but whom?  Alas! alas! it brought back the
  sense that no mother would ever soothe themMargaret; papa; both so
  ill; nurse engaged with Margaret!  Ethel stood helpless and
  despairing; and Flora sobbed on; so that Mary awakened to burst out
  in a loud frightened fit of crying; but in a few moments a step was
  at the door; a knock; and Richard asked; 〃Is anything the matter?〃
  He was in the room in a moment; caressing and saying affectionate
  things with gentleness and fondling care; like his mother; and which
  recalled the days when he had been proud to be left for a little
  while the small nurse and guardian of the lesser ones。  Mary was
  hushed in a moment; and Flora's exhausted weeping was gradually
  soothed; when she was able to recollect that she was keeping him from
  her father; with kind good…nights; he left Ethel to read to her till
  she could sleep。  Long did Ethel read; after both her sisters were
  slumbering soundly; she went on in a sort of dreamy grief; almost
  devoid of pain; as if all this was too terrible to be true: and she
  had imagined herself into a story; which would give place at dawn to
  her ordinary life。
  At last she went to bed; and slept till wakened by the return of
  Flora; who had crept down in her dressing…gown to see how matters
  were going。  Margaret was in the same state; papa was asleep; after a
  restless distressing night; with much pain and some fever; and
  whenever Richard had begun to hope from his tranquillity; that he was
  falling asleep; he was undeceived by hearing an almost unconsciously
  uttered sigh of 〃Maggie; my Maggie!〃 and then the head turned wearily
  on the pillow; as if worn out with the misery from which there was no
  escape。  Towards morning the pain had lessened; and; as he slept; he
  seemed much less feverish than they could have ventured to expect。
  Norman looked wan and wretched; and could taste no breakfast; indeed
  Harry reported that he had been starting and talking in his sleep
  half the night; and had proceeded to groaning and crying out till;
  when it could be borne no longer; Harry waked him; and finished his
  night's rest in peace。
  The children were kept in the drawing…ro