第 43 节
作者:白寒      更新:2022-07-12 16:24      字数:9322
  request silence; and then they themselves joined in the plaudits and
  swelled the confusion。 Excited talk began in every box; every woman
  equipped herself with an opera glass; elderly men grew young again;
  and polished the glasses of their lorgnettes with their gloves。 The
  enthusiasm subsided by degrees; the stage echoed with the voices of
  the singers; and order reigned as before。 The aristocratic section;
  ashamed of having yielded to a spontaneous feeling; again assumed
  their wonted politely frigid manner。 The well…to…do dislike to be
  astonished at anything; at the first sight of a beautiful thing it
  becomes their duty to discover the defect in it which absolves them
  from admiring it;the feeling of all ordinary minds。 Yet a few still
  remained motionless and heedless of the music; artlessly absorbed in
  the delight of watching Raphael's neighbor。
  Valentin noticed Taillefer's mean; obnoxious countenance by Aquilina's
  side in a lower box; and received an approving smirk from him。 Then he
  saw Emile; who seemed to say from where he stood in the orchestra;
  〃Just look at that lovely creature there; close beside you!〃 Lastly;
  he saw Rastignac; with Mme。 de Nucingen and her daughter; twisting his
  gloves like a man in despair; because he was tethered to his place;
  and could not leave it to go any nearer to the unknown fair divinity。
  Raphael's life depended upon a covenant that he had made with himself;
  and had hitherto kept sacred。 He would give no special heed to any
  woman whatever; and the better to guard against temptation; he used a
  cunningly contrived opera…glass which destroyed the harmony of the
  fairest features by hideous distortions。 He had not recovered from the
  terror that had seized on him in the morning when; at a mere
  expression of civility; the Magic Skin had contracted so abruptly。 So
  Raphael was determined not to turn his face in the direction of his
  neighbor。 He sat imperturbable as a duchess with his back against the
  corner of the box; thereby shutting out half of his neighbor's view of
  the stage; appearing to disregard her; and even to be unaware that a
  pretty woman sat there just behind him。
  His neighbor copied Valentin's position exactly; she leaned her elbow
  on the edge of her box and turned her face in three…quarter profile
  upon the singers on the stage; as if she were sitting to a painter。
  These two people looked like two estranged lovers still sulking; still
  turning their backs upon each other; who will go into each other's
  arms at the first tender word。
  Now and again his neighbor's ostrich feathers or her hair came in
  contact with Raphael's head; giving him a pleasurable thrill; against
  which he sternly fought。 In a little while he felt the touch of the
  soft frill of lace that went round her dress; he could hear the
  gracious sounds of the folds of her dress itself; light rustling
  noises full of enchantment; he could even feel her movements as she
  breathed; with the gentle stir thus imparted to her form and to her
  draperies; it seemed to Raphael that all her being was suddenly
  communicated to him in an electric spark。 The lace and tulle that
  caressed him imparted the delicious warmth of her bare; white
  shoulders。 By a freak in the ordering of things; these two creatures;
  kept apart by social conventions; with the abysses of death between
  them; breathed together and perhaps thought of one another。 Finally;
  the subtle perfume of aloes completed the work of Raphael's
  intoxication。 Opposition heated his imagination; and his fancy; become
  the wilder for the limits imposed upon it; sketched a woman for him in
  outlines of fire。 He turned abruptly; the stranger made a similar
  movement; startled no doubt at being brought in contact with a
  stranger; and they remained face to face; each with the same thought。
  〃Pauline!〃
  〃M。 Raphael!〃
  Each surveyed the other; both of them petrified with astonishment。
  Raphael noticed Pauline's daintily simple costume。 A woman's
  experienced eyes would have discerned and admired the outlines beneath
  the modest gauze folds of her bodice and the lily whiteness of her
  throat。 And then her more than mortal clearness of soul; her maidenly
  modesty; her graceful bearing; all were unchanged。 Her sleeve was
  quivering with agitation; for the beating of her heart was shaking her
  whole frame。
  〃Come to the Hotel de Saint…Quentin to…morrow for your papers;〃 she
  said。 〃I will be there at noon。 Be punctual。〃
  She rose hastily; and disappeared。 Raphael thought of following
  Pauline; feared to compromise her; and stayed。 He looked at Foedora;
  she seemed to him positively ugly。 Unable to understand a single
  phrase of the music; and feeling stifled in the theatre; he went out;
  and returned home with a full heart。
  〃Jonathan;〃 he said to the old servant; as soon as he lay in bed;
  〃give me half a drop of laudanum on a piece of sugar; and don't wake
  me to…morrow till twenty minutes to twelve。〃
  〃I want Pauline to love me!〃 he cried next morning; looking at the
  talisman the while in unspeakable anguish。
  The skin did not move in the least; it seemed to have lost its power
  to shrink; doubtless it could not fulfil a wish fulfilled already。
  〃Ah!〃 exclaimed Raphael; feeling as if a mantle of lead had fallen
  away; which he had worn ever since the day when the talisman had been
  given to him; 〃so you are playing me false; you are not obeying me;
  the pact is broken! I am free; I shall live。 Then was it all a
  wretched joke?〃 But he did not dare to believe in his own thought as
  he uttered it。
  He dressed himself as simply as had formerly been his wont; and set
  out on foot for his old lodging; trying to go back in fancy to the
  happy days when he abandoned himself without peril to vehement
  desires; the days when he had not yet condemned all human enjoyment。
  As he walked he beheld Paulinenot the Pauline of the Hotel Saint…
  Quentin; but the Pauline of last evening。 Here was the accomplished
  mistress he had so often dreamed of; the intelligent young girl with
  the loving nature and artistic temperament; who understood poets; who
  understood poetry; and lived in luxurious surroundings。 Here; in
  short; was Foedora; gifted with a great soul; or Pauline become a
  countess; and twice a millionaire; as Foedora had been。 When he
  reached the worn threshold; and stood upon the broken step at the
  door; where in the old days he had had so many desperate thoughts; an
  old woman came out of the room within and spoke to him。
  〃You are M。 Raphael de Valentin; are you not?〃
  〃Yes; good mother;〃 he replied。
  〃You know your old room then;〃 she replied; 〃you are expected up
  there。〃
  〃Does Mme。 Gaudin still own the house?〃 Raphael asked。
  〃Oh no; sir。 Mme。 Gaudin is a baroness now。 She lives in a fine house
  of her own on the other side of the river。 Her husband has come back。
  My goodness; he brought back thousands and thousands。 They say she
  could buy up all the Quartier Saint…Jacques if she liked。 She gave me
  her basement room for nothing; and the remainder of her lease。 Ah;
  she's a kind woman all the same; she is no more proud to…day than she
  was yesterday。〃
  Raphael hurried up the staircase to his garret; as he reached the last
  few steps he heard the sounds of a piano。 Pauline was there; simply
  dressed in a cotton gown; but the way that it was made; like the
  gloves; hat; and shawl that she had thrown carelessly upon the bed;
  revealed a change of fortune。
  〃Ah; there you are!〃 cried Pauline; turning her head; and rising with
  unconcealed delight。
  Raphael went to sit beside her; flushed; confused; and happy; he
  looked at her in silence。
  〃Why did you leave us then?〃 she asked; dropping her eyes as the flush
  deepened on his face。 〃What became of you?〃
  〃Ah; I have been very miserable; Pauline; I am very miserable still。〃
  〃Alas!〃 she said; filled with pitying tenderness。 〃I guessed your fate
  yesterday when I saw you so well dressed; and apparently so wealthy;
  but in reality? Eh; M。 Raphael; is it as it always used to be with
  you?〃
  Valentin could not restrain the tears that sprang to his eyes。
  〃Pauline;〃 he exclaimed; 〃I〃
  He went no further; love sparkled in his eyes; and his emotion
  overflowed his face。
  〃Oh; he loves me! he loves me!〃 cried Pauline。
  Raphael felt himself unable to say one word; he bent his head。 The
  young girl took his hand at this; she pressed it as she said; half
  sobbing and half laughing:
  〃Rich; rich; happy and rich! Your Pauline is rich。 But I? Oh; I ought
  to be very poor to…day。 I have said; times without number; that I
  would give all the wealth upon this earth for those words; 'He loves
  me!' O my Raphael! I have millions。 You like luxury; you will be glad;
  but you must love me and my heart besides; for there is so much love
  for you in my heart。 You don't know? My father has come back。 I am a
  wealthy heiress。 Both he and my mother leave me completely free to
  decide my own fate。 I am freedo you understand?〃
  Seized with a kind of frenzy; Raphael grasped Pauline's hands and
  kissed them eagerly and vehemently; with an almost convulsive caress。
  Pauline drew her hands away; laid them on Raphael's shoulders; and
  drew him towards her。 They understood one anotheri