第 14 节
作者:白寒      更新:2022-07-12 16:24      字数:9322
  of three generations; that scoffs at its progenitors; and makes merry
  over a corpse; that will dissolve pearls and wreck thrones; turn old
  men into boys; and make young men prematurely old; enjoyment only
  possible to giants weary of their power; tormented by reflection; or
  for whom strife has become a plaything。
  〃What is your name?〃 asked Raphael。
  〃Aquilina。〃
  〃Out of Venice Preserved!〃 exclaimed Emile。
  〃Yes;〃 she answered。 〃Just as a pope takes a new name when he is
  exalted above all other men; I; too; took another name when I raised
  myself above women's level。〃
  〃Then have you; like your patron saint; a terrible and noble lover; a
  conspirator; who would die for you?〃 cried Emile eagerlythis gleam
  of poetry had aroused his interest。
  〃Once I had;〃 she answered。 〃But I had a rival too in La Guillotine。 I
  have worn something red about me ever since; lest any happiness should
  carry me away。〃
  〃Oh; if you are going to get her on to the story of those four lads of
  La Rochelle; she will never get to the end of it。 That's enough;
  Aquilina。 As if every woman could not bewail some lover or other;
  though not every one has the luck to lose him on the scaffold; as you
  have done。 I would a great deal sooner see a lover of mine in a trench
  at the back of Clamart than in a rival's arms。〃
  All this in the gentlest and most melodious accents; and pronounced by
  the prettiest; gentlest; and most innocent…looking little person that
  a fairy wand ever drew from an enchanted eggshell。 She had come up
  noiselessly; and they became aware of a slender; dainty figure;
  charmingly timid blue eyes; and white transparent brows。 No ingenue
  among the naiads; a truant from her river spring; could have been
  shyer; whiter; more ingenuous than this young girl; seemingly about
  sixteen years old; ignorant of evil and of the storms of life; and
  fresh from some church in which she must have prayed the angels to
  call her to heaven before the time。 Only in Paris are such natures as
  this to be found; concealing depths of depravity behind a fair mask;
  and the most artificial vices beneath a brow as young and fair as an
  opening flower。
  At first the angelic promise of those soft lineaments misled the
  friends。 Raphael and Emile took the coffee which she poured into the
  cups brought by Aquilina; and began to talk with her。 In the eyes of
  the two poets she soon became transformed into some sombre allegory;
  of I know not what aspect of human life。 She opposed to the vigorous
  and ardent expression of her commanding acquaintance a revelation of
  heartless corruption and voluptuous cruelty。 Heedless enough to
  perpetrate a crime; hardy enough to feel no misgivings; a pitiless
  demon that wrings larger and kinder natures with torments that it is
  incapable of knowing; that simpers over a traffic in love; sheds tears
  over a victim's funeral; and beams with joy over the reading of the
  will。 A poet might have admired the magnificent Aquilina; but the
  winning Euphrasia must be repulsive to every onethe first was the
  soul of sin; the second; sin without a soul in it。
  〃I should dearly like to know;〃 Emile remarked to this pleasing being;
  〃if you ever reflect upon your future?〃
  〃My future!〃 she answered with a laugh。 〃What do you mean by my
  future? Why should I think about something that does not exist as yet?
  I never look before or behind。 Isn't one day at a time more than I can
  concern myself with as it is? And besides; the future; as we know;
  means the hospital。〃
  〃How can you forsee a future in the hospital; and make no effort to
  avert it?〃
  〃What is there so alarming about the hospital?〃 asked the terrific
  Aquilina。 〃When we are neither wives nor mothers; when old age draws
  black stockings over our limbs; sets wrinkles on our brows; withers up
  the woman in us; and darkens the light in our lover's eyes; what could
  we need when that comes to pass? You would look on us then as mere
  human clay; we with our habiliments shall be for you like so much mud
  worthless; lifeless; crumbling to pieces; going about with the
  rustle of dead leaves。 Rags or the daintiest finery will be as one to
  us then; the ambergris of the boudoir will breathe an odor of death
  and dry bones; and suppose there is a heart there in that mud; not one
  of you but would make mock of it; not so much as a memory will you
  spare to us。 Is not our existence precisely the same whether we live
  in a fine mansion with lap…dogs to tend; or sort rags in a workhouse?
  Does it make much difference whether we shall hide our gray heads
  beneath lace or a handkerchief striped with blue and red; whether we
  sweep a crossing with a birch broom; or the steps of the Tuileries
  with satins; whether we sit beside a gilded hearth; or cower over the
  ashes in a red earthen pot; whether we go to the Opera or look on in
  the Place de Greve?〃
  〃Aquilina mia; you have never shown more sense than in this depressing
  fit of yours;〃 Euphrasia remarked。 〃Yes; cashmere; point d'Alencon;
  perfumes; gold; silks; luxury; everything that sparkles; everything
  pleasant; belongs to youth alone。 Time alone may show us our folly;
  but good fortune will acquit us。 You are laughing at me;〃 she went on;
  with a malicious glance at the friends; 〃but am I not right? I would
  sooner die of pleasure than of illness。 I am not afflicted with a
  mania for perpetuity; nor have I a great veneration for human nature;
  such as God has made it。 Give me millions; and I would squander them;
  I should not keep one centime for the year to come。 Live to be
  charming and have power; that is the decree of my every heartbeat。
  Society sanctions my life; does it not pay for my extravagances? Why
  does Providence pay me every morning my income; which I spend every
  evening? Why are hospitals built for us? And Providence did not put
  good and evil on either hand for us to select what tires and pains us。
  I should be very foolish if I did not amuse myself。〃
  〃And how about others?〃 asked Emile。
  〃Others? Oh; well; they must manage for themselves。 I prefer laughing
  at their woes to weeping over my own。 I defy any man to give me the
  slightest uneasiness。〃
  〃What have you suffered to make you think like this?〃 asked Raphael。
  〃I myself have been forsaken for an inheritance;〃 she said; striking
  an attitude that displayed all her charms; 〃and yet I had worked night
  and day to keep my lover! I am not to be gulled by any smile or vow;
  and I have set myself to make one long entertainment of my life。〃
  〃But does not happiness come from the soul within?〃 cried Raphael。
  〃It may be so;〃 Aquilina answered; 〃but is it nothing to be conscious
  of admiration and flattery; to triumph over other women; even over the
  most virtuous; humiliating them before our beauty and our splendor?
  Not only so; one day of our life is worth ten years of a bourgeoise
  existence; and so it is all summed up。〃
  〃Is not a woman hateful without virtue?〃 Emile said to Raphael。
  Euphrasia's glance was like a viper's; as she said; with an irony in
  her voice that cannot be rendered:
  〃Virtue! we leave that to deformity and to ugly women。 What would the
  poor things be without it?〃
  〃Hush; be quiet;〃 Emile broke in。 〃Don't talk about something you have
  never known。〃
  〃That I have never known!〃 Euphrasia answered。 〃You give yourself for
  life to some person you abominate; you must bring up children who will
  neglect you; who wound your very heart; and you must say; 'Thank you!'
  for it; and these are the virtues you prescribe to woman。 And that is
  not enough。 By way of requiting her self…denial; you must come and add
  to her sorrows by trying to lead her astray; and though you are
  rebuffed; she is compromised。 A nice life! How far better to keep
  one's freedom; to follow one's inclinations in love; and die young!〃
  〃Have you no fear of the price to be paid some day for all this?〃
  〃Even then;〃 she said; 〃instead of mingling pleasures and troubles; my
  life will consist of two separate partsa youth of happiness is
  secure; and there may come a hazy; uncertain old age; during which I
  can suffer at my leisure。〃
  〃She has never loved;〃 came in the deep tones of Aquilina's voice。
  〃She never went a hundred leagues to drink in one look and a denial
  with untold raptures。 She has not hung her own life on a thread; nor
  tried to stab more than one man to save her sovereign lord; her king;
  her divinity。 。 。 。 Love; for her; meant a fascinating colonel。〃
  〃Here she is with her La Rochelle;〃 Euphrasia made answer。 〃Love comes
  like the wind; no one knows whence。 And; for that matter; if one of
  those brutes had once fallen in love with you; you would hold sensible
  men in horror。〃
  〃Brutes are put out of the question by the Code;〃 said the tall;
  sarcastic Aquilina。
  〃I thought you had more kindness for the army;〃 laughed Euphrasia。
  〃How happy they are in their power of dethroning their reason in this
  way;〃 Raphael exclaimed。
  〃Happy?〃 asked Aquilina; with dreadful look; and a smile full of pity
  and terror。 〃Ah; you do not know what it is to be condemned to a life
  of pleasure; with your dead hidden in your heart。 。 。 。〃
  A moment's consideration of the rooms was like a foretaste of Milton's
  Pandemonium。 The faces