out　of　lesson　time　and　walking　time。　It　is　perfectly　easy　to　see
  that　she　has　made　the　most　of　her　opportunities　with　young
  Armadale　（opportunities；　by…the…by；　which　we　never　calculated
  on）；　and　that　she　has　been　stupid　enough　to　let　him　slip　through
  her　fingers。　When　I　tell　you　that　she　is　obliged；　for　the　sake　of
  appearances；　to　go　with　her　father　and　me　to　the　little
  entertainments　at　Thorpe　Ambrose；　and　to　see　how　young　Armadale
  admires　me；　you　will　understand　the　kind　of　place　I　hold　in　her
  affections。　She　would　try　me　past　all　endurance　if　I　didn't　see
  that　I　aggravate　her　by　keeping　my　temper；　so；　of　course；　I　keep
  it。　If　I　do　break　out；　it　will　be　over　our　lessonsnot　over　our
  French；　our　grammar；　history；　and　globesbut　over　our　music。　No
  words　can　say　how　I　feel　for　her　poor　piano。　Half　the　musical
  girls　in　England　ought　to　have　their　fingers　chopped　off　in　the
  interests　of　society；　and；　if　I　had　my　way；　Miss　Milroy's　fingers
  should　be　executed　first。
  〃As　for　the　major；　I　can　hardly　stand　higher　in　his　estimation
  than　I　stand　already。　I　am　always　ready　to　make　his　breakfast；
  and　his　daughter　is　not。　I　can　always　find　things　for　him　when　he
  loses　them；　and　his　daughter　can't。　I　never　yawn　when　he　proses；
  and　his　daughter　does。　I　like　the　poor　dear　harmless　old
  gentleman；　so　I　won't　say　a　word　more　about　him。
  〃Well；　here　is　a　fair　prospect　for　the　future　surely？　My　good
  Oldershaw；　there　never　was　a　prospect　yet　without　an　ugly　place
  in　it。　_My_　prospect　has　two　ugly　places　in　it。　The　name　of　one
  of　them　is　Mrs。　Milroy；　and　the　name　of　the　other　is　Mr。
  Midwinter。
  〃Mrs。　Milroy　first。　Before　I　had　been　five　minutes　in　the
  cottage；　on　the　day　of　my　arrival；　what　do　you　think　she　did？　She
  sent　downstairs　and　asked　to　see　me。　The　message　startled　me　a
  little；　after　hearing　from　the　old　lady；　in　London；　that　her
  daughter…in…law　was　too　great　a　sufferer　to　see　anybody；　but；　of
  course；　when　I　got　her　message；　I　had　no　choice　but　to　go　up
  stairs　to　the　sick…room。　I　found　her　bedridden　with　an　incurable
  spinal　complaint；　and　a　really　horrible　object　to　look　at；　but
  with　all　her　wits　about　her；　and；　if　I　am　not　greatly　mistaken；
  as　deceitful　a　woman；　with　as　vile　a　temper；　as　you　could　find
  anywhere　in　all　your　long　experience。　Her　excessive　politeness；
  and　her　keeping　her　own　face　in　the　shade　of　the　bed…curtains
  while　she　contrived　to　keep　mine　in　the　light；　put　me　on　my　guard
  the　moment　I　entered　the　room。　We　were　more　than　half　an　hour
  together；　without　my　stepping　into　any　one　of　the　many　clever
  little　traps　she　laid　for　me。　The　only　mystery　in　her　behavior；
  which　I　failed　to　see　through　at　the　time；　was　her　perpetually
  asking　me　to　bring　her　things　（things　she　evidently　did　not　want）
  from　different　parts　of　the　room。
  〃Since　then　events　have　enlightened　me。　My　first　suspicions　were
  raised　by　overhearing　some　of　the　servants'　gossip；　and　I　have
  been　confirmed　in　my　opinion　by　the　conduct　of　Mrs。　Milroy's
  nurse。
  〃On　the　few　occasions　when　I　have　happened　to　be　alone　with　the
  major；　the　nurse　has　also　happened　to　want　something　of　her
  master；　and　has　invariably　forgotten　to　announce　her　appearance
  by　knocking；　at　the　door。　Do　you　understand　now　why　Mrs。　Milroy
  sent　for　me　the　moment　I　got　into　the　house；　and　what　she　wanted
  when　she　kept　me　going　backward　and　forward；　first　for　one　thing
  and　then　for　another？　There　is　hardly　an　attractive　light　in
  which　my　face　and　figure　can　be　seen；　in　which　that　woman's
  jealous　eyes　have　not　studied　them　already。　I　am　no　longer
  puzzled　to　know　why　the　father　and　daughter　started；　and　looked
  at　each　other；　when　I　was　first　presented　to　them；　or　why　the
  servants　still　stare　at　me　with　a　mischievous　expectation　in
  their　eyes　when　I　ring　the　bell　and　ask　them　to　do　anything。　It
  is　useless　to　disguise　the　truth；　Mother　Oldershaw；　between　you
  and　me。　When　I　went　upstairs　into　that　sickroom；　I　marched
  blindfold　into　the　clutches　of　a　jealous　woman。　If　Mrs。　Milroy
  _can_　turn　me　out　of　the　house；　Mrs。　Milroy　_will；_　and；　morning
  and　night；　she　has　nothing　else　to　do　in　that　bed　prison　of　hers
  but　to　find　out　the　way。
  〃In　this　awkward　position；　my　own　cautious　conduct　is　admirably
  seconded　by　the　dear　old　major's　perfect　insensibility。　His
  wife's　jealousy　of　him　is　as　monstrous　a　delusion　as　any　that
  could　be　found　in　a　mad…house；　it　is　the　growth　of　her　own　vile
  temper；　under　the　aggravation　of　an　incurable　illness。　The　poor
  man　hasn't　a　thought　beyond　his　mechanical　pursuits；　and　I　don't
  believe　he　knows　at　this　moment　whether　I　am　a　handsome　woman　or
  not。　With　this　chance　to　help　me；　I　may　hope　to　set　the　nurse's
  intrusions　and　the　mistress's　contrivances　at　defiancefor　a
  time；　at　any　rate。　But　you　know　what　a　jealous　woman　is；　and　I
  think　I　know　what　Mrs。　Milroy　is；　and　I　own　I　shall　breathe　more
  freely　on　the　day　when　young　Armadale　opens　his　foolish　lips　to
  some　purpose；　and　sets　the　major　advertising　for　a　new　governess。
  〃Armadale's　name　reminds　me　of　Armadale's　friend。　There　is　more
  danger　threatening　in　that　quarter；　and；　what　is　worse；　I　don't
  feel　half　as　well　armed　beforehand　against　Mr。　Midwinter　as　I　do
  against　Mrs。　Milroy。
  〃Everything　about　this　man　is　more　or　less　mysterious；　which　I
  don't　like；　to　begin　with。　How　does　he　come　to　be　in　the
  confidence　of　the　Somersetshire　clergyman？　How　much　has　that
  clergyman　told　him？　How　is　it　that　he　was　so　firmly　persuaded；
  when　he　spoke　to　me　in　the　park；　that　I　was　not　the　Miss　Gwilt　of
  whom　his　friend　was　in　search？　I　haven't　the　ghost　of　an　answer
  to　give　to　any　of　those　three　questions。　I　can't　even　discover
  who　he　is；　or　how　he　and　young　Armadale　first　became　acquainted。
  I　hate　him。　No；　I　don't；　I　only　want　to　find　out　about　him。　He　is
  very　young；　little　and　lean；　and　active　and　dark；　with　bright
  black　eyes　which　say　to　me　plainly；　'We　belong　to　a　man　with
  brains　in　his　head　and　a　will　of　his　own；　a　man　who　hasn't　always
  been　hanging　about　a　country　house；　in　attendance　on　a　fool。'
  Yes；　I　am　positively　certain　Mr。　Midwinter　has　done　something　or
  suffered　something　in　his　past　life；　young　as　he　is；　and　I　would
  give　I　don't　know　what　to　get　at　it。　Don't　resent　my　taking　up　so
  much　space　in　my　writing　about　him。　He　has　influence　enough　over
  young　Armadale　to　be　a　very　awkward　obstacle　in　my　way；　unless　I
  can　secure　his　good　opinion　at　starting。
  〃Well；　you　may　ask；　and　what　is　to　prevent　your　securing　his　good
  opinion？　I　am　sadly　afraid；　Mother　Oldershaw；　I　have　got　it　on
  terms　I　never　bargained　for。　I　am　sadly　afraid　the　man　is　in　love
  with　me　already。
  〃Don't　toss　your　head　and　say；　'Just　like　her　vanity！'　After　the
  horrors　I　have　gone　through；　I　have　no　vanity　left；　and　a　man　who
  admires　me　is　a　man　who　makes　me　shudder。　There　was　a　time；　I
  ownPooh！　what　am　I　writing？　Sentiment；　I　declare！　Sentiment　to
  _you！_　Laugh　away；　my　dear。　As　for　me；　I　neither　laugh　nor　cry；　I
  mend　my　pen；　and　get　on　with　mywhat　do　the　men　call　it？my
  report。
  〃The　only　thing　worth　inquiring　is；　whether　I　am　right　or　wrong
  in　my　idea　of　the　impression　I　have　made　on　him。
  〃Let　me　see；　I　have　been　four　times　in　his　company。　The　first
  time　was　in　the　major's　garden；　where　we　met　unexpectedly；　face
  to　face。　He　stood　looking　at　me；　like　a　man　petrified；　without
  speaking　a　word。　The　effect　of　my　horrid　red　hair；　perhaps？　Quite
  likely；　let　us　lay　it　on　my　hair。　The　second　time　was　in　going
  over　the　Thorpe　Ambrose　grounds；　with　young　Armadale　on　one　side
  of　me；　and　my　pupil　（in　the　sulks）　on　the　other。　Out　comes　Mr。
  Midwinter　to　join　us；　though　he　had　work　to　do　in　the　steward's
  office；　which　he　had　never　been　known　to　neglect　on　any　other
  occasion。　Laziness；　possibly？　or　an　attachment　to　Miss　Milroy？　I
  can't　say；　we　will　lay　it　on　Miss　Milroy；　if　you　like；　I　only
  know　he　did　nothing　but　look　at　_me。_　The　third　time　was　at　the
  private　interview　in　the　park；　which　I　have　told　you　of　already。
  I　never　saw　a　man　so　agitated　at　putting　a　delicate　question　to　a
  woman　in　my　life。　But　_that_　might　have　been　only　awkwardness；
  and　his　perpetually　looking　back　after　me　when　we　had　parted
  might　have　been　only　looking　back　at　the　view。　Lay　it　on　the
  view；　by　all　means；　lay　it　on　the　view！　The　fourth　time　was　this
  very　evening；　at　the　little　party。　They　made　me　play；　and；　as　the
  piano　was　a　good　one；　I　did　my　best。　All　the　company　crowded
  round　me；　and　paid　me　their　compliments　（my　charming　pupil　paid
  hers；　with　a　face　like　a　cat's　just　before　she　spits）；　except　Mr。
  Midwinter。　_He_　waited　till　it　was　time　to　go；　and　then　he　caught
  me　alone　for　a　moment　in　the　hall。　There　was　just　time　for　him　to
  take　my　hand；　and　say　two　words。　Shall　I　tell　you　_how_　he　took
  my　hand；　and　what　his　voice　sounded　like　when　he　spoke？　Quite
  needless！　You　have　always　told　me　that　the　late　Mr。　Oldershaw
  doted　on　you。　Just　recall　the　first　time　he　took　your　hand；　and
  whispered　a　word　or　two　addressed　to　your　private　ear。　To　what
  did　you　attribute　his　behavior　that　occasion？　I　have　no　doubt；　if
  you　had　been　playing　on　the　piano　in　the　course　of　the　evening；
  you　would　have　attributed　it　entirely　to　the　music！
  〃No！　you　may　take　my　word　for　it；　the　harm　is　done。　_T