第 53 节
作者:青涩春天      更新:2022-07-12 16:22      字数:9322
  attractive feature in his clean…shaven; weary old face was a neat
  set of teethteeth (as honest as his wig) which said plainly to
  all inquiring eyes; 〃We pass our nights on his looking…glass; and
  our days in his mouth。〃
  All the little blood in the man's body faintly reddened his
  fleshless cheeks as Midwinter advanced to meet him; and asked the
  way to Thorpe Ambrose。 His weak; watery eyes looked hither and
  thither in a bewilderment painful to see。 If he had met with a
  lion instead of a man; and if the few words addressed to him had
  been words expressing a threat instead of a question; he could
  hardly have looked more confused and alarmed than he looked now。
  For the first time in his life; Midwinter saw his own shy
  uneasiness in the presence of strangers reflected; with tenfold
  intensity of nervous suffering; in the face of another manand
  that man old enough to be his father。
  〃Which do you please to mean; sirthe town or the house? I beg
  your pardon for asking; but they both go by the same name in
  these parts。〃
  He spoke with a timid gentleness of tone; an ingratiatory smile;
  and an anxious courtesy of manner; all distressingly suggestive
  of his being accustomed to receive rough answers in exchange for
  his own politeness from the persons whom he habitually addressed。
  〃I was not aware that both the house and the town went by the
  same name;〃 said Midwinter; 〃I meant the house。〃 He instinctively
  conquered his own shyness as he answered in those words; speaking
  with a cordiality of manner which was very rare with him in his
  intercourse with strangers。
  The man of miserable respectability seemed to feel the warm
  return of his own politeness gratefully; he brightened and took a
  little courage。 His lean forefinger pointed eagerly to the right
  road。 〃That way; sir;〃 he said; 〃and when you come to two roads
  next; please take the left one of the two。 I am sorry I have
  business the other way; I mean in the town。 I should have been
  happy to go with you and show you。 Fine summer weather; sir; for
  walking? You can't miss your way if you keep to the left。 Oh;
  don't mention it! I'm afraid I have detained you; sir。 I wish you
  a pleasant walk back; andgood…morning。〃
  By the time he had made an end of speaking (under an impression
  apparently that the more he talked the more polite he would be)
  he had lost his courage again。 He darted away down his own road;
  as if Midwinter's attempt to thank him involved a series of
  trials too terrible to confront。 In two minutes more; his black
  retreating figure had lessened in the distance till it looked
  again; what it had once looked already; a moving blot on the
  brilliant white surface of the sun…brightened road。
  The man ran strangely in Midwinter's thoughts while he took his
  way back to the house。 He was at a loss to account for it。 It
  never occurred to him that he might have been insensibly reminded
  of himself; when he saw the plain traces of past misfortune and
  present nervous suffering in the poor wretch's face。 He blindly
  resented his own perverse interest in this chance foot passenger
  on the high…road; as he had resented all else that had happened
  to him since the beginning of the day。 〃Have I made another
  unlucky discovery?〃 he asked himself; impatiently。 〃Shall I see
  this man again; I wonder? Who can he be?〃
  Time was to answer both those questions before many days more had
  passed over the inquirer's head。
  Allan had not returned when Midwinter reached the house。 Nothing
  had happened but the arrival of a message of apology from the
  cottage。 〃Major Milroy's compliments; and he was sorry that Mrs。
  Milroy's illness would prevent his receiving Mr。 Armadale that
  day。〃 It was plain that Mrs。 Milroy's occasional fits of
  suffering (or of ill temper) created no mere transitory
  disturbance of the tranquillity of the household。 Drawing this
  natural inference; after what he had himself heard at the cottage
  nearly three hours since; Midwinter withdrew into the library to
  wait patiently among the books until his friend came back。
  It was past six o'clock when the well…known hearty voice was
  heard again in the hall。 Allan burst into the library; in a state
  of irrepressible excitement; and pushed
  Midwinter back unceremoniously into the chair from which he was
  just rising; before he could utter a word
  〃Here's a riddle for you; old boy!〃 cried Allan。 〃Why am I like
  the resident manager of the Augean stable; before Hercules was
  called in to sweep the litter out? Because I have had my place to
  keep up; and I've gone and made an infernal mess of it! Why don't
  you laugh? By George; he doesn't see the point! Let's try again。
  Why am I like the resident manager〃
  〃For God's sake; Allan; be serious for a moment!〃 interposed
  Midwinter。 〃You don't know how anxious I am to hear if you have
  recovered the good opinion of your neighbors。〃
  〃That's just what the riddle was intended to tell you!〃 rejoined
  Allan。 〃But if you will have it in so many words; my own
  impression is that you would have done better not to disturb me
  under that tree in the park。 I've been calculating it to a
  nicety; and I beg to inform you that I have sunk exactly three
  degrees lower in the estimation of the resident gentry since I
  had the pleasure of seeing you last。〃
  〃You _will_ have your joke out;〃 said Midwinter; bitterly。 〃Well;
  if I can't laugh; I can wait。〃
  〃My dear fellow; I'm not joking; I really mean what I say。 You
  shall hear what happened; you shall have a report in full of my
  first visit。 It will do; I can promise you; as a sample for all
  the rest。 Mind this; in the first place; I've gone wrong with the
  best possible intentions。 When I started for these visits; I own
  I was angry with that old brute of a lawyer; and I certainly had
  a notion of carrying things with a high hand。 But it wore off
  somehow on the road; and the first family I called on; I went in;
  as I tell you; with the best possible intentions。 Oh; dear; dear!
  there was the same spick…and…span reception…room for me to wait
  in; with the neat conservatory beyond; which I saw again and
  again and again at every other house I went to afterward。 There
  was the same choice selection of books for me to look ata
  religious book; a book about the Duke of Wellington; a book about
  sporting; and a book about nothing in particular; beautifully
  illustrated with pictures。 Down came papa with his nice white
  hair; and mamma with her nice lace cap; down came young mister
  with the pink face and straw…colored whiskers; and young miss
  with the plump cheeks and the large petticoats。 Don't suppose
  there was the least unfriendliness on my side; I always began
  with them in the same wayI insisted on shaking hands all round。
  That staggered them to begin with。 When I came to the sore
  subject nextthe subject of the public receptionI give you my
  word of honor I took the greatest possible pains with my
  apologies。 It hadn't the slightest effect; they let my apologies
  in at one ear and out at the other; and then waited to hear more。
  Some men would have been disheartened: I tried another way with
  them; I addressed myself to the master of the house; and put it
  pleasantly next。 'The fact is;' I said; 'I wanted to escape the
  speechifyingmy getting up; you know; and telling you to your
  face you're the best of men; and I beg to propose your health;
  and your getting up and telling me to my face I'm the best of
  men; and you beg to thank me; and so on; man after man; praising
  each other and pestering each other all round the table。' That's
  how I put it; in an easy; light…handed; convincing sort of way。
  Do you think any of them took it in the same friendly spirit? Not
  one! It's my belief they had got their speeches ready for the
  reception; with the flags and the flowers; and that they're
  secretly angry with me for stopping their open mouths just as
  they were ready to begin。 Anyway; whenever we came to the matter
  of the speechifying (whether they touched it first or I); down I
  fell in their estimation the first of those three steps I told
  you of just now。 Don't suppose I made no efforts to get up again!
  I made desperate efforts。 I found they were all anxious to know
  what sort of life I had led before I came in for the Thorpe
  Ambrose property; and I did my best to satisfy them。 And what
  came of that; do you think? Hang me; if I didn't disappoint them
  for the second time! When they found out that I had actually
  never been to Eton or Harrow; or Oxford or Cambridge; they were
  quite dumb with astonishment。 I fancy they thought me a sort of
  outlaw。 At any rate; they all froze up again; and down I fell the
  second step in their estimation。 Never mind! I wasn't to be
  beaten; I had promised you to do my best; and I did it。 I tried
  cheerful small…talk about the neighborhood next。 The women said
  nothing in particular; the men; to my unutterable astonishment;
  all began to condole with me。 I shouldn't be able to find a pack
  of hounds; they said; within twenty miles of my house; and they
  thought it only right to prepare me for the disgracefully
  careless manner in which the Thorpe Ambrose covers had been
  preserved。 I let them go on condoling with me; and then what do
  you think I did? I put my