第 5 节
作者:青涩春天      更新:2022-07-12 16:21      字数:9322
  earnest tones; he entreated her to say no more。 〃I was only
  anxious to show you every consideration;〃 he said。 〃I am only
  anxious now to spare you every distress。〃 As he spoke; something
  like a glow of color rose slowly on his sallow face。 Her eyes
  were looking at him; softly attentive; and he thought guiltily of
  his meditations at the window before she came in。
  The doctor saw his opportunity。 He opened the door that led into
  Mr。 Armadale's room; and stood by it; waiting silently。 Mrs。
  Armadale entered first。 In a minute more the door was closed
  again; and Mr。 Neal stood committed to the responsibility that
  had been forced on himcommitted beyond recall。
  The room was decorated in the gaudy continental fashion; and the
  warm sunlight was shining in joyously。 Cupids and flowers were
  painted on the ceiling; bright ribbons looped up the white
  window…curtains; a smart gilt clock ticked on a velvet…covered
  mantelpiece; mirrors gleamed on the walls; and flowers in all the
  colors of the rainbow speckled the carpet。 In the midst of the
  finery; and the glitter; and the light; lay the paralyzed man;
  with his wandering eyes; and his lifeless lower facehis head
  propped high with many pillows; his helpless hands laid out over
  the bed…clothes like the hands of a corpse。 By the bed head
  stood; grim; and old; and silent; the shriveled black nurse; and
  on the counter…pane; between his father's outspread hands; lay
  the child; in his little white frock; absorbed in the enjoyment
  of a new toy。 When the door opened; and Mrs。 Armadale led the way
  in; the boy was tossing his playthinga soldier on
  horsebackbackward and forward over the helpless hands on either
  side of him; and the father's wandering eyes were following the
  toy to and fro; with a stealthy and ceaseless vigilancea
  vigilance as of a wild animal; terrible to see。
  The moment Mr。 Neal appeared in the doorway; those restless eyes
  stopped; looked up; and fastened on the stranger with a fierce
  eagerness of inquiry。 Slowly the motionless lips struggled into
  movement。 With thick; hesitating articulation; they put the
  question which the eyes asked mutely; into words: 〃Are you the
  man?〃
  Mr。 Neal advanced to the bedside; Mrs。 Armadale drawing back from
  it as he approached; and waiting with the doctor at the further
  end of the room。 The child looked up; toy in hand; as the
  stranger came near; opened his bright brown eyes in momentary
  astonishment; and then went on with his game。
  〃I have been made acquainted with your sad situation; sir;〃 said
  Mr。 Neal; 〃and I have come here to place my services at your
  disposalservices which no one but myself; as your medical
  attendant informs me; is in a position to render you in this
  strange place。 My name is Neal。 I am a writer to the signet in
  Edinburgh; and I may presume to say for myself that any
  confidence you wish to place in me will be confidence not
  improperly bestowed。〃
  The eyes of the beautiful wife were not confusing him now。 He
  spoke to the helpless husband quietly and seriously; without his
  customary harshness; and with a grave compassion in his manner
  which presented him at his best。 The sight of the death…bed had
  steadied him。
  〃You wish me to write something for you?〃 he resumed; after
  waiting for a reply; and waiting in vain。
  〃Yes!〃 said the dying man; with the all…mastering impatience
  which his tongue was powerless to express; glittering angrily in
  his eye。 〃My hand is gone; and my speech is going。 Write!〃
  Before there was time to speak again; Mr。 Neal heard the rustling
  of a woman's dress; and the quick creaking of casters on the
  carpet behind him。 Mrs。 Armadale was moving the writing…table
  across the room to the foot of the bed。 If he was to set up those
  safeguards of his own devising that were to bear him harmless
  through all results to come; now was the time; or never。 He; kept
  his back turned on Mrs。 Armadale; and put his precautionary
  question at once in the plainest terms。
  〃May I ask; sir; before I take the pen in hand; what it is you
  wish me to write?〃
  The angry eyes of the paralyzed man glittered brighter and
  brighter。 His lips opened and closed again。 He made no reply。
  Mr。 Neal tried another precautionary question; in a new
  direction。
  〃When I have written what you wish me to write;〃 he asked; 〃what
  is to be done with it?〃
  This time the answer came:
  〃Seal it up in my presence; and post it to my ex〃
  His laboring articulation suddenly stopped and he looked
  piteously in the questioner's face for the next word。
  〃Do you mean your executor?〃
  〃Yes。〃
  〃It is a letter; I suppose; that I am to post?〃 There was no
  answer。 〃May
  I ask if it is a letter altering your will?〃
  〃Nothing of the sort。〃
  Mr。 Neal considered a little。 The mystery was thickening。 The one
  way out of it; so far; was the way traced faintly through that
  strange story of the unfinished letter which the doctor had
  repeated to him in Mrs。 Armadale's words。 The nearer he
  approached his unknown responsibility; the more ominous it seemed
  of something serious to come。 Should he risk another question
  before he pledged himself irrevocably? As the doubt crossed his
  mind; he felt Mrs。 Armadale's silk dress touch him on the side
  furthest from her husband。 Her delicate dark hand was laid gently
  on his arm; her full deep African eyes looked at him in
  submissive entreaty。 〃My husband is very anxious;〃 she whispered。
  〃Will you quiet his anxiety; sir; by taking your place at the
  writing…table?〃
  It was from _her_ lips that the request camefrom the lips of
  the person who had the best right to hesitate; the wife who was
  excluded from the secret! Most men in Mr。 Neal's position would
  have given up all their safeguards on the spot。 The Scotchman
  gave them all up but one。
  〃I will write what you wish me to write;〃 he said; addressing Mr。
  Armadale。 〃I will seal it in your presence; and I will post it to
  your executor myself。 But; in engaging to do this; I must beg you
  to remember that I am acting entirely in the dark; and I must ask
  you to excuse me; if I reserve my own entire freedom of action;
  when your wishes in relation to the writing and the posting of
  the letter have been fulfilled。〃
  〃Do you give me your promise?〃
  〃It you want my promise; sir; I will give itsubject to the
  condition I have just named。〃
  〃Take your condition; and keep your promise。 My desk;〃 he added;
  looking at his wife for the first time。
  She crossed the room eagerly to fetch the desk from a chair in a
  corner。 Returning with it; she made a passing sign to the
  negress; who still stood; grim and silent; in the place that she
  had occupied from the first。 The woman advanced; obedient to the
  sign; to take the child from the bed。 At the instant when she
  touched him; the father's eyesfixed previously on the
  deskturned on her with the stealthy quickness of a cat。 〃No!〃
  he said。 〃No!〃 echoed the fresh voice of the boy; still charmed
  with his plaything; and still liking his place on the bed。 The
  negress left the room; and the child; in high triumph; trotted
  his toy soldier up and down on the bedclothes that lay rumpled
  over his father's breast。 His mother's lovely face contracted
  with a pang of jealousy as she looked at him。
  〃Shall I open your desk?〃 she asked; pushing back the child's
  plaything sharply while she spoke。 An answering look from her
  husband guided her hand to the place under his pillow where the
  key was hidden。 She opened the desk; and disclosed inside some
  small sheets of manuscript pinned together。 〃These?〃 she
  inquired; producing them。
  〃Yes;〃 he said。 〃You can go now。〃
  The Scotchman sitting at the writing…table; the doctor stirring a
  stimulant mixture in a corner; looked at each other with an
  anxiety in both their faces which they could neither of them
  control。 The words that banished the wife from the room were
  spoken。 The moment had come。
  〃You can go now;〃 said Mr。 Armadale; for the second time。
  She looked at the child; established comfortably on the bed; and
  an ashy paleness spread slowly over her face。 She looked at the
  fatal letter which was a sealed secret to her; and a torture of
  jealous suspicionsuspicion of that other woman who had been the
  shadow and the poison of her lifewrung her to the heart。 After
  moving a few steps from the bedside; she stopped; and came back
  again。 Armed with the double courage of her love and her despair;
  she pressed her lips on her dying husband's cheek; and pleaded
  with him for the last time。 Her burning tears dropped on his face
  as she whispered to him: 〃Oh; Allan; think how I have loved you!
  think how hard I have tried to make you happy! think how soon I
  shall lose you! Oh; my own love! don't; don't send me away!〃
  The words pleaded for her; the kiss pleaded for her; the
  recollection of the love that had been given to him; and never
  returned; touched the heart of the fast…sinking man as nothing
  had touched it since the day of his marriage。 A heavy sigh broke
  from him。 He looked at her; and hesitated。
  〃Let me stay;〃 she whispered; pressing her face closer to his。
  〃It will only distress you;〃 he whispered back。
  〃Nothing distresses me; but being sent away from _you!_〃
  He waited。