第 15 节
作者:负债赌博      更新:2022-07-12 16:19      字数:9321
  r caught and tied so tightly that it looked like a little white ball。  When they drove on again Jesse let David hold the lamb in his arms。  〃I saw it yesterday and it put me in mind of what I have long wanted to do;〃 he said; and again he looked away over the head of the boy with the wavering; uncertain stare in his eyes。
  After the feeling of exaltation that had come to the farmer as a result of his successful year; another mood had taken possession of him。  For a long time he had been going about feeling very humble and prayerful。  Again he walked alone at night thinking of God and as he walked he again connected his own figure with the figures of old days。  Under the stars he knelt on the wet grass and raised up his voice in prayer。  Now he had decided that like the men whose stories filled the pages of the Bible; he would make a sacrifice to God。  〃I have been given these abundant crops and God has also sent me a boy who is called David;〃 he whispered to himself。 〃Perhaps I should have done this thing long ago。〃 He was sorry the idea had not come into his mind in the days before his daughter Louise had been born and thought that surely now when he had erected a pile of burning sticks in some lonely place in the woods and had offered the body of a lamb as a burnt offering; God would appear to him and give him a message。
  More and more as he thought of the matter; he thought also of David and his passionate self…love was partially forgotten。  〃It is time for the boy to begin thinking of going out into the world and the message will be one concerning him;〃 he decided。 〃God will make a pathway for him。  He will tell me what place David is to take in life and when he shall set out on his journey。  It is right that the boy should be there。  If I am fortunate and an angel of God should appear; David will see the beauty and glory of God made manifest to man。  It will make a true man of God of him also。〃
  In silence Jesse and David drove along the road until they came to that place where Jesse had once before appealed to God and had frightened his grandson。  The morning had been bright and cheer… ful; but a cold wind now began to blow and clouds hid the sun。  When David saw the place to which they had come he began to tremble with fright; and when they stopped by the bridge where the creek came down from among the trees; he wanted to spring out of the phaeton and run away。
  A dozen plans for escape ran through David's head; but when Jesse stopped the horse and climbed over the fence into the wood; he followed。  〃It is foolish to be afraid。  Nothing will happen;〃 he told himself as he went along with the lamb in his arms。 There was something in the helplessness of the little animal held so tightly in his arms that gave him courage。  He could feel the rapid beating of the beast's heart and that made his own heart beat less rapidly。  As he walked swiftly along behind his grandfather; he untied the string with which the four legs of the lamb were fastened together。  〃If anything happens we will run away together;〃 he thought。
  In the woods; after they had gone a long way from the road; Jesse stopped in an opening among the trees where a clearing; overgrown with small bushes; ran up from the creek。  He was still silent but began at once to erect a heap of dry sticks which he presently set afire。  The boy sat on the ground with the lamb in his arms。  His imagination began to invest every movement of the old man with signifi… cance and he became every moment more afraid。  〃I must put the blood of the lamb on the head of the boy;〃 Jesse muttered when the sticks had begun to blaze greedily; and taking a long knife from his pocket he turned and walked rapidly across the clearing toward David。
  Terror seized upon the soul of the boy。  He was sick with it。  For a moment he sat perfectly still and then his body stiffened and he sprang to his feet。 His face became as white as the fleece of the lamb that; now finding itself suddenly released; ran down the hill。  David ran also。  Fear made his feet fly。  Over the low bushes and logs he leaped frantically。  As he ran he put his hand into his pocket and took out the branched stick from which the sling for shooting squirrels was suspended。  When he came to the creek that was shallow and splashed down over the stones; he dashed into the water and turned to look back; and when he saw his grandfather still running toward him with the long knife held tightly in his hand he did not hesitate; but reaching down; se… lected a stone and put it in the sling。  With all his strength he drew back the heavy rubber bands and the stone whistled through the air。  It hit Jesse; who had entirely forgotten the boy and was pursuing the lamb; squarely in the head。  With a groan he pitched forward and fell almost at the boy's feet。  When David saw that he lay still and that he was appar… ently dead; his fright increased immeasurably。  It be… came an insane panic。
  With a cry he turned and ran off through the woods weeping convulsively。  〃I don't careI killed him; but I don't care;〃 he sobbed。  As he ran on and on he decided suddenly that he would never go back again to the Bentley farms or to the town of Winesburg。  〃I have killed the man of God and now I will myself be a man and go into the world;〃 he said stoutly as he stopped running and walked rap… idly down a road that followed the windings of Wine Creek as it ran through fields and forests into the west。
  On the ground by the creek Jesse Bentley moved uneasily about。  He groaned and opened his eyes。 For a long time he lay perfectly still and looked at the sky。  When at last he got to his feet; his mind was confused and he was not surprised by the boy's disappearance。  By the roadside he sat down on a log and began to talk about God。  That is all they ever got out of him。  Whenever David's name was mentioned he looked vaguely at the sky and said that a messenger from God had taken the boy。  〃It happened because I was too greedy for glory;〃 he declared; and would have no more to say in the matter。
  A MAN OF IDEAS
  HE LIVED WITH his mother; a grey; silent woman with a peculiar ashy complexion。  The house in which they lived stood in a little grove of trees be… yond where the main street of Winesburg crossed Wine Creek。  His name was Joe Welling; and his fa… ther had been a man of some dignity in the commu… nity; a lawyer; and a member of the state legislature at Columbus。  Joe himself was small of body and in his character unlike anyone else in town。  He was like a tiny little volcano that lies silent for days and then suddenly spouts fire。  No; he wasn't like that he was like a man who is subject to fits; one who walks among his fellow men inspiring fear because a fit may come upon him suddenly and blow him away into a strange uncanny physical state in which his eyes roll and his legs and arms jerk。  He was like that; only that the visitation that descended upon Joe Welling was a mental and not a physical thing。 He was beset by ideas and in the throes of one of his ideas was uncontrollable。  Words rolled and tumbled from his mouth。  A peculiar smile came upon his lips。  The edges of his teeth that were tipped with gold glistened in the light。  Pouncing upon a by… stander he began to talk。  For the bystander there was no escape。  The excited man breathed into his face; peered into his eyes; pounded upon his chest with a shaking forefinger; demanded; compelled attention。
  In those days the Standard Oil Company did not deliver oil to the consumer in big wagons and motor trucks as it does now; but delivered instead to retail grocers; hardware stores; and the like。  Joe was the Standard Oil agent in Winesburg and in several towns up and down the railroad that went through Winesburg。  He collected bills; booked orders; and did other things。  His father; the legislator; had se… cured the job for him。
  In and out of the stores of Winesburg went Joe Wellingsilent; excessively polite; intent upon his business。  Men watched him with eyes in which lurked amusement tempered by alarm。  They were waiting for him to break forth; preparing to flee。 Although the seizures that came upon him were harmless enough; they could not be laughed away。 They were overwhelming。  Astride an idea; Joe was overmastering。  His personality became gigantic。  It overrode the man to whom he talked; swept him away; swept all away; all who stood within sound of his voice。
  In Sylvester West's Drug Store stood four men who were talking of horse racing。  Wesley Moyer's stallion; Tony Tip; was to race at the June meeting at Tiffin; Ohio; and there was a rumor that he would meet the stiffest competition of his career。  It was said that Pop Geers; the great racing driver; would himself be there。  A doubt of the success of Tony Tip hung heavy in the air of Winesburg。
  Into the drug store came Joe Welling; brushing the screen door violently aside。  With a strange ab… sorbed light in his eyes he pounced upon Ed Thomas; he who knew Pop Geers and whose opin… ion of Tony Tip's chances was worth considering。
  〃The water is up in Wine Creek;〃 cried Joe Wel… ling with the air of Pheidippides bringing news of the victory of the Greeks in the struggle at Mara… thon。  His finger beat a tattoo upon Ed