第 37 节
作者:击水三千      更新:2022-07-08 12:27      字数:9321
  e thought it soso delightful。〃
  Gordon fixed his eyes on the ground for a moment。
  〃I owe it partly to you;〃 he answered。  〃You had done so much for Blanche。 You had so cultivated her mind and polished her manners that her attractions were doubled; and I fell an easy victim to them。〃
  He uttered these words with an exaggerated solemnity; the result of which was to produce; for a moment; an almost embarrassing silence。 Bernard was rapidly becoming more and more impatient of his own embarrassment; and now he exclaimed; in a loud and jovial voice
  〃Blanche makes victims by the dozen!  I was a victim last winter; we are all victims!〃
  〃Dear little Blanche!〃  Mrs。 Vivian murmured again。
  Angela had said nothing; she had simply stood there; making no attempt to address herself to Gordon; and yet with no affectation of reserve or of indifference。  Now she seemed to feel the impulse to speak to him。
  〃When Blanche comes to see us; you must be sure to come with her;〃 she said; with a friendly smile。
  Gordon looked at her; but he said nothing。
  〃We were so sorry to hear she is out of health;〃 Angela went on。
  Still Gordon was silent; with his eyes fixed on her expressive and charming face。
  〃It is not serious;〃 he murmured at last。
  〃She used to be so wellso bright;〃 said Angela; who also appeared to have the desire to say something kind and comfortable。
  Gordon made no response to this; he only looked at her。
  〃I hope you are well; Miss Vivian;〃 he broke out at last。
  〃Very well; thank you。〃
  〃Do you live in Paris?〃
  〃We have pitched our tent here for the present。〃
  〃Do you like it?〃
  〃I find it no worse than other places。〃
  Gordon appeared to desire to talk with her; but he could think of nothing to say。  Talking with her was a pretext for looking at her; and Bernard; who thought she had never been so handsome as at that particular moment; smiling at her troubled ex…lover; could easily conceive that his friend should desire to prolong this privilege。
  〃Have you been sitting here long?〃  Gordon asked; thinking of something at last。
  〃Half an hour。  We came out to walk; and my mother felt tired。 It is time we should turn homeward;〃 Angela added。
  〃Yes; I am tired; my daughter。  We must take a voiture; if Mr。 Longueville will be so good as to find us one;〃 said Mrs。 Vivian。
  Bernard; professing great alacrity; looked about him; but he still lingered near his companions。  Gordon had thought of something else。 〃Have you been to Baden again?〃  Bernard heard him ask。  But at this moment Bernard espied at a distance an empty hackney…carriage crawling up the avenue; and he was obliged to go and signal to it。 When he came back; followed by the vehicle; the two ladies; accompanied by Gordon; had come to the edge of the pavement。 They shook hands with Gordon before getting into the cab; and Mrs。 Vivian exclaimed
  〃Be sure you give our love to your dear wife!〃
  Then the two ladies settled themselves and smiled their adieux; and the little victoria rumbled away at an easy pace; while Bernard stood with Gordon; looking after it。  They watched it a moment; and then Gordon turned to his companion。  He looked at Bernard for some moments intently; with a singular expression。
  〃It is strange for me to see her!〃 he said; presently。
  〃I hope it is not altogether disagreeable;〃 Bernard answered smiling。
  〃She is delightfully handsome;〃 Gordon went on。
  〃She is a beautiful woman。〃
  〃And the strange thing is that she strikes me now so differently;〃 Gordon continued。  〃I used to think her so mysteriousso ambiguous。 She seems to be now so simple。〃
  〃Ah;〃 said Bernard; laughing; 〃that's an improvement!〃
  〃So simple and so good!〃  Gordon exclaimed。
  Bernard laid his hand on his companion's shoulder; shaking his head slowly。
  〃You must not think too much about that;〃 he said。
  〃So simpleso goodso charming!〃  Gordon repeated。
  〃Ah; my dear Gordon!〃  Bernard murmured。
  But still Gordon continued。
  〃So intelligent; so reasonable; so sensible。〃
  〃Have you discovered all that in two minutes' talk?〃
  〃Yes; in two minutes' talk。  I should n't hesitate about her now!〃
  〃It 's better you should n't say that;〃 said Bernard。
  〃Why should n't I say it?  It seems to me it 's my duty to say it。〃
  〃Noyour duty lies elsewhere;〃 said Bernard。  〃There are two reasons。 One is that you have married another woman。〃
  〃What difference does that make?〃 cried Gordon。
  Bernard made no attempt to answer this inquiry; he simply went on
  〃The other isthe other is〃
  But here he paused。
  〃What is the other?〃  Gordon asked。
  〃That I am engaged to marry Miss Vivian。〃
  And with this Bernard took his hand off Gordon's shoulder。
  Gordon stood staring。
  〃To marry Miss Vivian?〃
  Now that Bernard had heard himself say it; audibly; distinctly; loudly; the spell of his apprehension seemed broken; and he went on bravely。
  〃We are to be married very shortly。  It has all come about within a few weeks。  It will seem to you very strangeperhaps you won't like it。 That 's why I have hesitated to tell you。〃
  Gordon turned pale; it was the first time Bernard had ever seen him do so; evidently he did not like it。  He stood staring and frowning。
  〃Why; I thoughtI thought;〃 he began at last〃I thought that you disliked her!〃
  〃I supposed so; too;〃 said Bernard。  〃But I have got over that。〃
  Gordon turned away; looking up the great avenue into the crowd。 Then turning back; he said
  〃I am very much surprised。〃
  〃And you are not pleased!〃
  Gordon fixed his eyes on the ground a moment。
  〃I congratulate you on your engagement;〃 he said at last; looking up with a face that seemed to Bernard hard and unnatural。
  〃It is very good of you to say that; but of course you can't like it! I was sure you would n't like it。  But what could I do?  I fell in love with her; and I could n't run away simply to spare you a surprise。 My dear Gordon;〃 Bernard added; 〃you will get used to it。〃
  〃Very likely;〃 said Gordon; dryly。  〃But you must give me time。〃
  〃As long as you like!〃
  Gordon stood for a moment again staring down at the ground。
  〃Very well; then; I will take my time;〃 he said。  〃Good…bye!〃
  And he turned away; as if to walk off alone。
  〃Where are you going?〃 asked Bernard; stopping him。
  〃I don't knowto the hotel; anywhere。  To try to get used to what you have told me。〃
  〃Don't try too hard; it will come of itself;〃 said Bernard。
  〃We shall see!〃
  And Gordon turned away again。
  〃Do you prefer to go alone?〃
  〃Very muchif you will excuse me!〃
  〃I have asked you to excuse a greater want of ceremony!〃 said Bernard; smiling。
  〃I have not done so yet!〃  Gordon rejoined; and marching off; he mingled with the crowd。
  Bernard watched him till he lost sight of him; and then; dropping into the first empty chair that he saw; he sat and reflected that his friend liked it quite as little as he had feared。
  CHAPTER XXVI
  Bernard sat thinking for a long time; at first with a good deal of mortificationat last with a good deal of bitterness。 He felt angry at last; but he was not angry with himself。 He was displeased with poor Gordon; and with Gordon's displeasure。 He was uncomfortable; and he was vexed at his discomfort。 It formed; it seemed to him; no natural part of his situation; he had had no glimpse of it in the book of fate where he registered on a fair blank page his betrothal to a charming girl。 That Gordon should be surprised; and even a little shocked and annoyedthis was his right and his privilege; Bernard had been prepared for that; and had determined to make the best of it。  But it must not go too far; there were limits to the morsel of humble pie that he was disposed to swallow。 Something in Gordon's air and figure; as he went off in a huff; looking vicious and dangerousyes; that was positively his lookleft a sinister impression on Bernard's mind; and; after a while; made him glad to take refuge in being angry。 One would like to know what Gordon expected; par exemple! Did he expect Bernard to give up Angela simply to save him a shock; or to back out of his engagement by way of an ideal reparation? No; it was too absurd; and; if Gordon had a wife of his own; why in the name of justice should not Bernard have one?
  Being angry was a relief; but it was not exactly a solution; and Bernard; at last; leaving his place; where for an hour or two he had been absolutely unconscious of everything that went on around him; wandered about for some time in deep restlessness and irritation。  At one moment he thought of going back to Gordon's hotel; to see him; to explain。 But then he became aware that he was too angry for that to say nothing of Gordon's being too angry also; and; moreover; that there was nothing to explain。  He was to marry Angela Vivian; that was a very simple factit needed no explanation。 Was it so wonderful; so inconceivable; an incident so unlikely to happen?  He went; as he always did on Sunday; to dine with Mrs。 Vivian; and it seemed to him that he perceived in the two ladies some symptoms of a discomposure which had the same origin as his own。  Bernard; on this occasion; at dinner; failed to make himself particularly agreeable; he ate fast as if he had no idea what