第 21 节
作者:击水三千      更新:2022-07-08 12:27      字数:9322
  Bernard remarked that it was possible Lovelock would still have news of Miss Blanche; and before he left Baden he learned that she had addressed her forsaken swain a charming little note from Lausanne; where the three ladies had paused in their flight from Baden; and where Mrs。 Vivian had decreed that for the present they should remain。
  〃I 'm devilish glad she writes;〃 said Captain Lovelock; 〃some girls do write; you know。〃
  Blanche found Lausanne most horrid after Baden; for whose delights she languished。  The delights of Baden; however; were not obvious just now to her correspondent; who had taken Bernard's fifty pounds into the Kursaal and left them there。 Bernard; on learning his misfortune; lent him another fifty; with which he performed a second series of unsuccessful experiments; and our hero was not at his ease until he had passed over to his luckless friend the whole amount of his own winnings; every penny of which found its way through Captain Lovelock's fingers back into the bank。  When this operation was completed; Bernard left Baden; the Captain gloomily accompanying him to the station。
  I have said that there had come over Bernard a singular sense of freedom。 One of the uses he made of his freedom was to undertake a long journey。 He went to the East and remained absent from Europe for upward of two years a period of his life of which it is not proposed to offer a complete history。 The East is a wonderful region; and Bernard; investigating the mysteries of Asia; saw a great many curious and beautiful things。  He had moments of keen enjoyment; he laid up a great store of impressions and even a considerable sum of knowledge。  But; nevertheless; he was not destined to look back upon this episode with any particular complacency。 It was less delightful than it was supposed to be; it was less successful than it might have been。  By what unnatural element the cup of pleasure was adulterated; he would have been very much at a loss to say; but it was an incontestable fact that at times he sipped it as a medicine; rather than quaffed it as a nectar。  When people congratulated him on his opportunity of seeing the world; and said they envied him the privilege of seeing it so well; he felt even more than the usual degree of irritation produced by an insinuation that fortune thinks so poorly of us as to give us easy terms。  Misplaced sympathy is the least available of superfluities; and Bernard at this time found himself thinking that there was a good deal of impertinence in the world。 He would; however; readily have confessed that; in so far as he failed to enjoy his Oriental wanderings; the fault was his own; though he would have made mentally the gratifying reflection that never was a fault less deliberate。  If; during the period of which I speak; his natural gayety had sunk to a minor key; a partial explanation may be found in the fact that he was deprived of the society of his late companion。 It was an odd circumstance that the two young men had not met since Gordon's abrupt departure from Baden。  Gordon went to Berlin; and shortly afterward to America; so that they were on opposite sides of the globe。 Before he returned to his own country; Bernard made by letter two or three offers to join him in Europe; anywhere that was agreeable to him。 Gordon answered that his movements were very uncertain; and that he should be sorry to trouble Bernard to follow him about。  He had put him to this inconvenience in making him travel from Venice to Baden; and one such favor at a time was enough to ask; even of the most obliging of men。 Bernard was; of course; afraid that what he had told Gordon about Angela Vivian was really the cause of a state of things which; as between two such good friends; wore a perceptible resemblance to alienation。 Gordon had given her up; but he bore Bernard a grudge for speaking ill of her; and so long as this disagreeable impression should last; he preferred not to see him。  Bernard was frank enough to charge the poor fellow with a lingering rancor; of which he made; indeed; no great crime。  But Gordon denied the allegation; and assured him that; to his own perception; there was no decline in their intimacy。 He only requested; as a favor and as a tribute to 〃just susceptibilities;〃 that Bernard would allude no more either to Miss Vivian or to what had happened at Baden。  This request was easy to comply with; and Bernard; in writing; strictly conformed to it; but it seemed to him that the act of doing so was in itself a cooling…off。 What would be a better proof of what is called a 〃tension〃 than an agreement to avoid a natural topic? Bernard moralized a little over Gordon's 〃just susceptibilities;〃 and felt that the existence of a perverse resentment in so honest a nature was a fact gained to his acquaintance with psychological science。 It cannot be said; however; that he suffered this fact to occupy at all times the foreground of his consciousness。  Bernard was like some great painters; his foregrounds were very happily arranged。 He heard nothing of Mrs。 Vivian and her daughter; beyond a rumor that they had gone to Italy; and he learned; on apparently good authority; that Blanche Evers had returned to New York with her mother。  He wondered whether Captain Lovelock was still in pawn at the Hotel de Hollande。 If he did not allow himself to wonder too curiously whether he had done a harm to Gordon; it may be affirmed that he was haunted by the recurrence of that other question; of which mention has already been made。 Had he done a harm to Angela Vivian; and did she know that he had done it? This inquiry by no means made him miserable; and it was far from awaiting him regularly on his pillow。  But it visited him at intervals; and sometimes in the strangest placessuddenly; abruptly; in the stillness of an Indian temple; or amid the shrillness of an Oriental crowd。 He became familiar with it at last; he called it his Jack…in…the…box。 Some invisible touch of circumstance would press the spring; and the little image would pop up; staring him in the face and grinning an interrogation。 Bernard always clapped down the lid; for he regarded this phenomenon as strikingly inane。  But if it was more frequent than any pang of conscience connected with the remembrance of Gordon himself; this last sentiment was certainly lively enough to make it a great relief to hear at last a rumor that the excellent fellow was about to be married。 The rumor reached him at Athens; it was vague and indirect; and it omitted the name of his betrothed。  But Bernard made the most of it; and took comfort in the thought that his friend had recovered his spirits and his appetite for matrimony。
  CHAPTER XVI
  It was not till our hero reached Paris; on his return from the distant East; that the rumor I have just mentioned acquired an appreciable consistency。  Here; indeed; it took the shape of authentic information。  Among a number of delayed letters which had been awaiting him at his banker's he found a communication from Gordon Wright。  During the previous year or two his correspondence with this trustedand trusting friend had not been frequent; and Bernard had received little direct news of him。  Three or four short letters had overtaken him in his wanderingsletters as cordial; to all appearance; if not as voluminous; as the punctual missives of an earlier time。 Bernard made a point of satisfying himself that they were as cordial; he weighed them in the scales of impartial suspicion。  It seemed to him on the whole that there was no relaxation of Gordon's epistolary tone。  If he wrote less often than he used to do; that was a thing that very commonly happened as men grew older。 The closest intimacies; moreover; had phases and seasons; intermissions and revivals; and even if his friend had; in fact; averted his countenance from him; this was simply the accomplishment of a periodical revolution which would bring them in due order face to face again。  Bernard made a point; himself; of writing tolerably often and writing always in the friendliest tone。 He made it a matter of consciencehe liked to feel that he was treating Gordon generously; and not demanding an eye for an eye。 The letter he found in Paris was so short that I may give it entire。
  〃My dear Bernard (it ran); I must write to you before I write to any one else; though unfortunately you are so far away that you can't be the first to congratulate me。 Try and not be the last; however。  I am going to be married as soon as possible。  You know the young lady; so you can appreciate the situation。  Do you remember little Blanche Evers; whom we used to see three years ago at Baden…Baden? Of course you remember her; for I know you used often to talk with her。 You will be rather surprised; perhaps; at my having selected her as the partner of a life…time; but we manage these matters according to our lights。  I am very much in love with her; and I hold that an excellent reason。  I have been ready any time this year or two to fall in love with some simple; trusting; child…like nature。  I find this in perfection in this charming young girl。  I find her so natural and fresh。 I remember telling you once that I did n't wish to be fascinated that I wanted to estimate scientifically the woman I shou