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作者:人生几何      更新:2022-07-08 12:26      字数:9322
  shall be softly cradled; will yet seem thy bosom; Antony! Oh; I die!
  come; Antonyand give me peace!〃
  Even in my fury I had quailed beneath her scorn; for home flew the
  arrows of her winged words。 Alas! and alas! it was /true/the shaft
  of my vengeance fell upon my own head; never had I loved her as I
  loved her now。 My soul was rent with jealous torture; and thus I swore
  she should not die。
  〃Peace!〃 I cried; 〃what peace is there for thee? Oh! ye Holy Three;
  hear now my prayer。 Osiris; loosen Thou the bonds of Hell and send
  forth those whom I shall summon! Come Ptolemy; poisoned of thy sister
  Cleopatra; come Arsino?; murdered in the sanctuary by thy sister
  Cleopatra; come Sepa; tortured to death of Cleopatra; come Divine
  Menkau…ra; whose body Cleopatra tore and whose curse she braved for
  greed; come one; come all who have died at the hands of Cleopatra!
  Rush from the breast of Nout and greet her who murdered you! By the
  link of mystic union; by the symbol of the Life; Spirits; I summon
  you!〃
  Thus I spoke the spell; while Charmion; affrighted; clung to my robe;
  and the dying Cleopatra; resting on her hands; swung slowly to and
  fro; gazing with vacant eyes。
  Then the answer came。 The casement burst asunder; and on flittering
  wings that great bat entered which last I had seen hanging to the
  eunuch's chin in the womb of the pyramid of /Her/。 Thrice it circled
  round; once it hovered o'er dead Iras; then flew to where the dying
  woman stood。 To her it flew; on her breast it settled; clinging to
  that emerald which was dragged from the dead heart of Menkau…ra。
  Thrice the grey Horror screamed aloud; thrice it beat its bony wings;
  and lo! it was gone。
  Then suddenly within that chamber sprang up the Shapes of Death。 There
  was Arsino?; the beautiful; even as she had shrunk beneath the
  butcher's knife。 There was young Ptolemy; his features twisted by the
  poisoned cup。 There was the majesty of Menkau…ra; crowned with the
  ur?us crown; there was grave Sepa; his flesh all torn by the
  torturer's hooks; there were those poisoned slaves; and there were
  others without number; shadowy and dreadful to behold! who; thronging
  that narrow chamber; stood silently fixing their glassy eyes upon the
  face of her who slew them!
  〃Behold! Cleopatra!〃 I said。 〃/Behold thy peace; and die!/〃
  〃Ay!〃 said Charmion。 〃Behold and die! thou who didst rob me of my
  honour; and Egypt of her King!〃
  She looked; she saw the awful Shapesher Spirit; hurrying from the
  flesh; mayhap could hear words to which my ears were deaf。 Then her
  face sank in with terror; her great eyes grew pale; and; shrieking;
  Cleopatra fell and died: passing; with that dread company; to her
  appointed place。
  Thus; then; I; Harmachis; fed my soul with vengeance; fulfilling the
  justice of the Gods; and yet knew myself empty of all joy therein。 For
  though that thing we worship doth bring us ruin; and Love being more
  pitiless than Death; we in turn do pay all our sorrow back; yet we
  must worship on; yet stretch out our arms towards our lost Desire; and
  pour our heart's blood upon the shrine of our discrowned God。
  For Love is of the Spirit; and knows not Death。
  CHAPTER IX
  OF THE FAREWELL OF CHARMION; OF THE DEATH OF CHARMION; OF
  THE DEATH OF THE OLD WIFE; ATOUA; OF THE COMING OF HARMACHIS
  TO ABOUTHIS; OF HIS CONFESSION IN THE HALL OF SIX…AND…THIRTY
  PILLARS; AND OF THE DECLARING OF THE DOOM OF HARMACHIS
  Charmion unclasped my arm; to which she had clung in terror。
  〃Thy vengeance; thou dark Harmachis;〃 she said; in a hoarse voice; 〃is
  a thing hideous to behold! O lost Egypt; with all thy sins thou wast
  indeed a Queen!
  〃Come; aid me; Prince; let us stretch this poor clay upon the bed and
  deck it royally; so that it may give its dumb audience to the
  messengers of C?sar as becomes the last of Egypt's Queens。〃
  I spoke no word in answer; for my heart was very heavy; and now that
  all was done I was weary。 Together; then; we lifted up the body and
  laid it on the golden bed。 Charmion placed the ur?us crown upon the
  ivory brow; and combed the night…dark hair that showed never a thread
  of silver; and; for the last time; shut those eyes wherein had shone
  all the changing glories of the sea。 She folded the chill hands upon
  the breast whence Passion's breath had fled; and straightened the bent
  knees beneath the broidered robe; and by the head set flowers。 And
  there at length Cleopatra lay; more splendid now in her cold majesty
  of death than in her richest hour of breathing beauty!
  We drew back and looked on her; and on dead Iras at her feet。
  〃It is done!〃 quoth Charmion; 〃we are avenged; and now; Harmachis;
  dost follow by this same road?〃 And she nodded towards the phial on
  the board。
  〃Nay; Charmion。 I flyI fly to a heavier death! Not thus easily may I
  end my space of earthly penance。〃
  〃So be it; Harmachis! And I; HarmachisI fly also; but with swifter
  wings。 My game is played。 I; too; have made atonement。 Oh! what a
  bitter fate is mine; to have brought misery on all I love; and; in the
  end; to die unloved! To thee I have atoned; to my angered Gods I have
  atoned; and now I go to find a way whereby I may atone to Cleopatra in
  that Hell where she is; and which I must share! For she loved me well;
  Harmachis; and; now that she is dead; methinks that; after thee; I
  loved her best of all。 So of her cup and the cup of Iras I will surely
  drink!〃 And she took the phial; and with a steady hand poured what was
  left of the poison into the goblet。
  〃Bethink thee; Charmion;〃 I said; 〃yet mayst thou live for many years;
  hiding these sorrows beneath the withered days。〃
  〃Yet I may; but I will not! To live the prey of so many memories; the
  fount of an undying shame that night by night; as I lie sleepless;
  shall well afresh from my sorrow…stricken heart!to live torn by a
  love I cannot lose!to stand alone like some storm…twisted tree; and;
  sighing day by day to the winds of heaven; gaze upon the desert of my
  life; while I wait the lingering lightning's strokenay; that will
  not I; Harmachis! I had died long since; but I lived on to serve thee;
  now no more thou needest me; and I go。 Oh; fare thee well!for ever
  fare thee well! For not again shall I look again upon thy face; and
  there I go thou goest not! For thou dost not love me who still dost
  love that queenly woman thou hast hounded to the death! Her thou shalt
  never win; and I thee shall never win; and this is the bitter end of
  Fate! See; Harmachis: I ask one boon before I go and for all time
  become naught to thee but a memory of shame。 Tell me that thou dost
  forgive me so far as thine is to forgive; and in token thereof kiss me
  with no lover's kiss; but kiss me on the brow; and bid me pass in
  peace。〃
  And she drew near to me with arms outstretched and pitiful trembling
  lips and gazed upon my face。
  〃Charmion;〃 I answered; 〃we are free to act for good or evil; and yet
  methinks there is a Fate above our fate; that; blowing from some
  strange shore; compels our little sails of purpose; set them as we
  will; and drives us to destruction。 I forgive thee; Charmion; as I
  trust in turn to be forgiven; and by this kiss; the first and the
  last; I seal our peace。〃 And with my lips I touched her brow。
  She spoke no more; only for a little while she stood gazing on me with
  sad eyes。 Then she lifted the goblet; and said:
  〃Royal Harmachis; in this deadly cup I pledge thee! Would that I had
  drunk of it ere ever I looked upon thy face! Pharaoh; who; thy sins
  outworn; yet shalt rule in perfect peace o'er worlds I may not tread;
  who yet shalt sway a kinglier sceptre than that I robbed thee of; for
  ever; fare thee well!〃
  She drank; cast down the cup; and for a moment stood with the wide
  eyes of one who looks for Death。 Then He came; and Charmion the
  Egyptian fell prone upon the floor; dead。 And for a moment more I
  stood alone with the dead。
  I crept to the side of Cleopatra; and; now that none were left to see;
  I sat down on the bed and laid her head upon my knee; as once before
  it had been laid in that night of sacrilege beneath the shadow of the
  everlasting pyramid。 Then I kissed her chill brow and went from the
  House of Deathavenged; but sorely smitten with despair!
  〃Physician;〃 said the officer of the Guard as I went through the
  gates; 〃what passes yonder in the Monument? Methought I heard the
  sounds of death。〃
  〃Naught passesall hath passed;〃 I made reply; and went。
  And as I went in the darkness I heard the sound of voices and the
  running of the feet of C?sar's messengers。
  Flying swiftly to my house I found Atoua waiting at the gates。 She
  drew me into a quiet chamber and closed the doors。
  〃Is it done?〃 she asked; and turned her wrinkled face to mine; while
  the lamplight streamed white upon her snowy hair。 〃Nay; why ask II
  know that it is don