第 14 节
作者:圈圈      更新:2022-06-19 10:08      字数:9322
  forthone a dwarf and the other a colossal limbinto the water; and the
  bell tower; almost as tall as the cliff; wide below; narrowing at the
  top; raised its pointed summit to the sky。
  On the sands beside the water a crowd was seated watching the bathers。
  On the terrace of; the Casino another crowd; seated or walking; displayed
  beneath the brilliant sky a perfect flower patch of bright costumes; with
  red and blue parasols embroidered with large flowers in silk。
  On the walk at the end of the terrace; other persons; the restful; quiet
  ones; were walking slowly; far from the dressy throng。
  A young man; well known and celebrated as a painter; Jean Sumner; was
  walking with a dejected air beside a wheeled chair in which sat a young
  woman; his wife。  A manservant was gently pushing the chair; and the
  crippled woman was gazing sadly at the brightness of the sky; the
  gladness of the day; and the happiness of others。
  They did not speak。  They did not look at each other。
  〃Let us stop a while;〃 said the young woman。
  They stopped; and the painter sat down on a camp stool that the servant
  handed him。
  Those who were passing behind the silent and motionless couple looked at
  them compassionately。  A whole legend of devotion was attached to them。
  He had married her in spite of her infirmity; touched by her affection
  for him; it was said。
  Not far from there; two young men were chatting; seated on a bench and
  looking out into the horizon。
  〃No; it is not true; I tell you that I am well acquainted with Jean
  Sumner。〃
  〃But then; why did he marry her?  For she was a cripple when she married;
  was she not?〃
  〃Just so。  He married herhe married herjust as every one marries;
  parbleu! because he was an idiot!〃
  〃But why?〃
  〃But whybut why; my friend?  There is no why。  People do stupid things
  just because they do stupid things。  And; besides; you know very well
  that painters make a specialty of foolish marriages。  They almost always
  marry models; former sweethearts; in fact; women of doubtful reputation;
  frequently。  Why do they do this?  Who can say?  One would suppose that
  constant association with the general run of models would disgust them
  forever with that class of women。  Not at all。  After having posed them
  they marry them。  Read that little book; so true; so cruel and so
  beautiful; by Alphonse Daudet: 'Artists' Wives。'
  〃In the case of the couple you see over there the accident occurred in a
  special and terrible manner。  The little woman played a frightful comedy;
  or; rather; tragedy。  She risked all to win all。  Was she sincere?  Did
  she love Jean?  Shall we ever know?  Who is able to determine precisely
  how much is put on and how much is real in the actions of a woman?  They
  are always sincere in an eternal mobility of impressions。  They are
  furious; criminal; devoted; admirable and base in obedience to intangible
  emotions。  They tell lies incessantly without intention; without knowing
  or understanding why; and in spite of it all are absolutely frank in
  their feelings and sentiments; which they display by violent; unexpected;
  incomprehensible; foolish resolutions which overthrow our arguments; our
  customary poise and all our selfish plans。  The unforeseenness and
  suddenness of their determinations will always render them undecipherable
  enigmas as far as we are concerned。  We continually ask ourselves:
  'Are they sincere?  Are they pretending?'
  〃But; my friend; they are sincere and insincere at one and the same time;
  because it is their nature to be extremists in both and to be neither one
  nor the other。
  〃See the methods that even the best of them employ to get what they
  desire。  They are complex and simple; these methods。  So complex that we
  can never guess at them beforehand; and so simple that after having been
  victimized we cannot help being astonished and exclaiming: 'What!  Did
  she make a fool of me so easily as that?'
  〃And they always succeed; old man; especially when it is a question of
  getting married。
  〃But this is Sumner's story:
  〃The little woman was a model; of course。  She posed for him。  She was
  pretty; very stylish…looking; and had a divine figure; it seems。  He
  fancied that he loved her with his whole soul。  That is another strange
  thing。  As soon as one likes a woman one sincerely believes that they
  could not get along without her for the rest of their life。  One knows
  that one has felt the same way before and that disgust invariably
  succeeded gratification; that in order to pass one's existence side by
  side with another there must be not a brutal; physical passion which soon
  dies out; but a sympathy of soul; temperament and temper。  One should
  know how to determine in the enchantment to which one is subjected
  whether it proceeds from the physical; from a certain sensuous
  intoxication; or from a deep spiritual charm。
  〃Well; he believed himself in love; he made her no end of promises of
  fidelity; and was devoted to her。
  〃She was really attractive; gifted with that fashionable flippancy that
  little Parisians so readily affect。  She chattered; babbled; made foolish
  remarks that sounded witty from the manner in which they were uttered。
  She used graceful gesture's which were calculated to attract a painter's
  eye。  When she raised her arms; when she bent over; when she got into a
  carriage; when she held out her hand to you; her gestures were perfect
  and appropriate。
  〃For three months Jean never noticed that; in reality; she was like all
  other models。
  〃He rented a little house for her for the summer at Andresy。
  〃I was there one evening when for the first time doubts came into my
  friend's mind。
  〃As it was a beautiful evening we thought we would take a stroll along
  the bank of the river。  The moon poured a flood of light on the trembling
  water; scattering yellow gleams along its ripples in the currents and all
  along the course of the wide; slow river。
  〃We strolled along the bank; a little enthused by that vague exaltation
  that these dreamy evenings produce in us。  We would have liked to
  undertake some wonderful task; to love some unknown; deliciously poetic
  being。  We felt ourselves vibrating with raptures; longings; strange
  aspirations。  And we were silent; our beings pervaded by the serene and
  living coolness of the beautiful night; the coolness of the moonlight;
  which seemed to penetrate one's body; permeate it; soothe one's spirit;
  fill it with fragrance and steep it in happiness。
  〃Suddenly Josephine (that is her name) uttered an exclamation:
  〃'Oh; did you see the big fish that jumped; over there?'
  〃He replied without looking; without thinking:
  〃'Yes; dear。'
  〃She was angry。
  〃'No; you did not see it; for your back was turned。'
  〃He smiled。
  〃'Yes; that's true。  It is so delightful that I am not thinking of
  anything。'
  〃She was silent; but at the end of a minute she felt as if she must say
  something and asked:
  〃'Are you going to Paris to…morrow?'
  〃'I do not know;' he replied。
  〃She was annoyed again。
  〃'Do you think it is very amusing to walk along without speaking?  People
  talk when they are not stupid。'
  〃He did not reply。  Then; feeling with her woman's instinct that she was
  going to make him angry; she began to sing a popular air that had
  harassed our ears and our minds for two years:
  〃'Je regardais en fair。'
  〃He murmured:
  〃'Please keep quiet。'
  〃She replied angrily:
  〃'Why do you wish me to keep quiet?'
  〃'You spoil the landscape for us!' he said。
  〃Then followed a scene; a hateful; idiotic scene; with unexpected
  reproaches; unsuitable recriminations; then tears。  Nothing was left
  unsaid。  They went back to the house。  He had allowed her to talk without
  replying; enervated by the beauty of the scene and dumfounded by this
  storm of abuse。
  〃Three months later he strove wildly to free himself from those
  invincible and invisible bonds with which such a friendship chains our
  lives。  She kept him under her influence; tyrannizing over him; making
  his life a burden to him。  They quarreled continually; vituperating and
  finally fighting each other。
  〃He wanted to break with her at any cost。  He sold all his canvases;
  borrowed money from his friends; realizing twenty thousand francs (he was
  not well known then); and left them for her one morning with a note of
  farewell。
  〃He came and took refuge with me。
  〃About three o'clock that afternoon there was a ring at the bell。  I went
  to the door。  A woman sprang toward me; pushed me aside; came in and went
  into my atelier。  It was she!
  〃He had risen when he saw her coming。'
  〃She threw the envelope containing the banknotes at his feet with a truly
  noble gesture and said in a quick tone:
  〃'There's your money。  I don't want it!'
  〃She was very pale; trembling and ready undoubtedly to commit any folly。
  As for him; I saw him grow pale also; pale with rage and exasperation;
  ready also perhaps to commit any violence。
  〃He asked:
  〃'What do you want?'
  〃She replied:
  〃'I do not choose to be treated like a common woman。  You implored me to
  accept you。  I asked you for nothing。  Keep me with you!'
  〃He stamped his foot。
  〃'No; that's a little too much!  If you think y